Confessions....

[Sarah13]

I confess that I took a 2 month break from the forums because I was deeply depressed and frustrated.

I confess that I missed everyone here!

I confess I'm somewhat nervous about the DR possibly sending me to a specialist because I don't know what to expect.

I confess that I'm both excited and nervous about my husband and I moving at teh end of the year!

[WinterTR]

I confess I am wondering what is going on with my body. AF officially showed this morning. After 3 days of spotting.
This means we have hit the 2 year mark this month.

[MamaLump]

I confess that Halloween marked the first anniversary of my first D&C. I can't believe it has been a year.

[Jae]

I confess that after my 6th m/c I feel numb.
I confess that APA makes me cry every time I log in.
I confess that I hate myself, my body & TTC
I confess that I feel lost, confused, and my heart is heavy.

[JillB]

Sending big to all of you. I still check in here often and am sad to read all the hurt/frustration that many of you are feeling lately. I hope your prayers/wishes get answered soon!

[Teach03]

I confess that this month is when I got my first BFP last year. I confess that I hope and pray something positive happens this month or next to help me get through the one year mark. I have to have hope it will happen soon and stick

[BleedingBlack]

I just wanted to you all.

My mother thinks I need to go in and find out if I have Endo I'm scared now because it runs in my family.

[WinterTR]

Originally Posted by JillB

Sending big to all of you. I still check in here often and am sad to read all the hurt/frustration that many of you are feeling lately. I hope your prayers/wishes get answered soon!

Thanks Jill, it hasn't been very positive in here lately. We all could really use some good news!

[mommyof2angels]

sending all you ladies lots of

[WinterTR]

I confess I am REALLY Trying to think and be more positive now that AF has come. What a great blessing it would be to get a BFP for Christmas!
I confess Christmas is my Fav holiday! I am so ready to put up my tree!

[maria.orourke05]

Originally Posted by Jae

I confess that after my 6th m/c I feel numb.
I confess that APA makes me cry every time I log in.
I confess that I hate myself, my body & TTC
I confess that I feel lost, confused, and my heart is heavy.

to you, Jamie. You have been such a wonderful support for so many of us. . just know that we are here for you as well.

[maria.orourke05]

I confess that even if I don't get a BFP this month I am happy just to be ovulating again!!

[purple_avens]

Originally Posted by Jae

I confess that after my 6th m/c I feel numb.
I confess that APA makes me cry every time I log in.
I confess that I hate myself, my body & TTC
I confess that I feel lost, confused, and my heart is heavy.

Jae, I am so sorry. I wish there were words that would make us feel better but unfortunately, there are no words. I just hope you feel a little better every day.

[WinterTR]

Why is it that every TV show lately is about Babies?
Every where I turn babies and more babies! Maybe its just because I am more aware and thinking about it more and more these past few days. DH & I were watching something last night and he just turned to me and just read my mind and he just gave me this sad little smile.

I confess I finally called my BFF this morning. I apologized over and over for not calling sooner and she seemed to understand.

[Aelith]

I confess I watched the first episode of Accidentally on Purpose and at the scene where the main character and her baby daddy were going for the ultrasound and saw the heartbeat I about freaked. Luckily the Golden Girls were on another channel.

[barbara_s]

I confess I am starting to hate Christmas. This is the third year that I've told myself "Next Christmas we'll have a baby." Instead of recognizing my blessings and sharing in others' joy this time of year, I feel like it's just a big middle finger. Ugh.

[Sarah13]

I confess I was slightly annoyed the DR didnt give me a referral to a specialist today.

I confess that about 20min. after taking my progesterone I fell asleep for 6 hours!

I confess I'm trying to stay optomistic and pray for the best.

[Aelith]

Originally Posted by barbara_s

I confess I am starting to hate Christmas. This is the third year that I've told myself "Next Christmas we'll have a baby." Instead of recognizing my blessings and sharing in others' joy this time of year, I feel like it's just a big middle finger. Ugh.

I totally, totally know what you mean.

[Round3]

I confess I am scared to go to the doctor today.

I confess I think something is wrong with me.

I confess I don't want to see anymore pregnant women. (Not really but you guys know what I mean)

[Aelith]

I confess I am going to O tomorrow.

I confess I am hopeful this will be my last AF for a while (well 10 months or so!).

I confess I am anxious for my RE to call me back to tell me definitively if PAI-1 is my problem so we can get back to TTC.

[maria.orourke05]

I confess that I didn't cry when I got a BFN this morning.
I confess that I did cry when I posted a congratulations for someone else's BFP today.
I confess this is the first time I am having a hard time being happy for an APA lady, and I feel like a complete jerk.

[barbara_s]

Originally Posted by maria.orourke05

I confess that I didn't cry when I got a BFN this morning.
I confess that I did cry when I posted a congratulations for someone else's BFP today.
I confess this is the first time I am having a hard time being happy for an APA lady, and I feel like a complete jerk.

Don't feel like a jerk. We all feel that way. I was thinking the same thing yesterday.

[WinterTR]

I confess DH will be back home tonight after being gone all week and he is already sending me text about DTD. I wonder if he realizes "O" week is coming up! (Doubt it)
I confess last month I didn't use any OPK but I checked yesterday and I have 4 left from previous months.
I confess I wondering if I should buy more this month or just continue our "just see what happens plan" which BTW doesn't seem to be working either.
I confess I would love, love, love to get a BFP for Christmas!
I confess if NO BFP in Dec. we are going to have the chromosome testing done in January.
I confess I agree with Maria that sometimes I feel like a Jerk with some of the things I think about other peoples BFP. Although deep down I am happy for them. It's just hard to be positive all the time!
I confess this has turned out to be a long confession! Sorry!

[barbara_s]

Originally Posted by WinterTR

I confess I wondering if I should buy more this month or just continue our "just see what happens plan" which BTW doesn't seem to be working either.

Doesn't work in my house either.

I confess I've started to avoid the TTC room, since all it seems to be lately is "Look at my BFP" and "Oh, here's another shot of my BFP" and "Yay for me" and "Congrats!" threads. I am still happy for people but I just can't take it every single day.

I confess I'm almost at the end of my rope.

[WinterTR]

There has seemed to be quite a few in there lately. I have some of what ever they are taking x2!

[WinterTR]

Originally Posted by barbara_s

I confess I'm almost at the end of my rope.

Hang in there! I am not going to say it gets easier but it will all be worth it one day!

[WinterTR]

I confess I am bored at work today (can't say that out loud) so I have been on APA almost all day!

[barbara_s]

Originally Posted by WinterTR

Hang in there! I am not going to say it gets easier but it will all be worth it one day!

Thank you sweetie!!!

[silverstar]

I confess I'd love a BFP for Christmas!
I confess I'm sad that I'm finding all the BFP's hard to read, too; I never wanted to be like that, but it's so hard when all I can think about is wanting another baby.
I confess that if I do get AF this month, at least I know I've ovulated and can get back on the right track.

[stacie]

I confess that I am super excited for my beta on Monday but I am also super scared of being pregnant even though thats what I want most.