I really didn't want to be here.

[stash]

But here I am. Three miscarriages (totally unrelated, we've had all the tests and there's no conclusion as to why), an unrelated stillbirth, one healthy baby, and I'm just pissed off and tired of the entire thing, but not enough to stop trying.

I want one more healthy baby. Is that too much to ask? One happy pregnancy, not full of fear, worry, anger.

I had really hoped this last one would be that - easy and "carefree."

Yeah great, that didn't happen (MC, 6.5 weeks) and now I know the next one will be fraught with anxiety, no matter how I cut it.

Anyway, I feel like this is where I belong. I'm waiting for my first period after last week's D&E (Friday). I think this is going to be a long wait.

Stacy

[momofone]

AWWW CRAP!!!!! I am so sorry Stacy! Why, why, why! I just don't understand why for some it comes with such ease and for others it is such a struggle. It is not fair! What kind of bloodwork/workups have you had done? Maybe there is something that they haven't done. Some of the common reasons for m/c all been ruled out? Like PCOS, MTHFR....there are others that maybe the gals will add. While I love seeing you post I did NOT want you to be posting in here! But you have my word that we are 100% here for you! I hope this is a short stay for you!!!!

[haydensmom]

[Mandi]

I'm so sorry about all of your losses. I really hope you get pg and stay pg again soon. Losses and struggling are things none of us should have to endure.

[Mrs JS]

I guess "welcome" isn't the right thing to say, huh?

I just got my period the other day, 4 1/2 weeks post D&E- so maybe you won't have to wait too long, either. Sounds like our chances are the same. I'm also at 1 out of 5. Hopefully we'll both hit 2 out of 6 soon.

[xtrememousey]

[photogrl]

I didn't want to see you here, either.

I'm sorry.

I'm with Heather and Jen, I don't understand why any of us have to endure what we've endured. I wish I had a magic wand that I could wave and make it better.

[LisaJ2224]

Stacy.

I am really sorry that any of us, at any time, have had to spend any time in here at all.

[stash]

It's really pretty stupid, isn't it? I'm trying hard not to be angry today.

[mom2jtbd]

So so sorry.

[momofone]

Originally Posted by stash

It's really pretty stupid, isn't it? I'm trying hard not to be angry today.

Stacy that is exactly how my emotions have gotten when babymaking doesn't work. I think you are entitled to being angry...very much entitled! When I m/ced in April after our FET I was so f'ing pissed. Everyone has their own emotions, feelings and ways of dealing with this and if angry is how you want to feel, then feel it!

[bmelissa]

Be Angry! It's okay! I'm deeply saddened to hear what you have been going through. I hope you get some kind of answers. ((hugs))

[MamaKat]

[TripMomma]

I am so sorry about the losses, no one should have to go through that. Big HUGS and lots of luck!!

[Kimmie]

Stacy - I am so sorry.

[Maur]

Im sorry

[Marquette Fan]

So sorry -

[Jai]

Stacy, I am very sorry.

[bellaevi]

I am so sorry and I can definitely relate to the being angry .. because that is the boat I am in now..angry..

[stephiegirl]

I am so sorry that you are finding yourself in this room Stacey. This is a place that no woman should have to be.....

Hopefully we will all get our miracles soon!

[LilMama]

Ya know what Stacy.. Be angry. It helps to heal and try to work past the huge loss and let down you've just gone through.
I wish none of us had to be in here either. Mostly I wish none of you ladies had, had to suffer the losses and hurts you have It's not fair.
We're human and we're allowed to be angry and cry and scream and all the rest of it.

I hope that the next try is the one that works for you Stacy and for Jen and all the other ladies trying again.

[newmami]

No it is not stupid and you have all the right to be angry Stacy.... I am very sorry for your loss

Again, no woman should have to endure this