On May 9th I started experiencing some cramping and I had a terrible back ache, I didn't think anything of it. On Mother's day I noticed some brown discharge that seemed strange, I called the nurse line and they told me it was normal and not to worry.
At around 11pm that night I noticed that the brown had turned to more of a pink and started to worry. I did a search for miscarriage and was horrified. I told my husband and we went to the emergency room. They couldn't find the heartbeat and said that was normal then they did an ultrasound and they didn't say a word.
When I got back to my room the Doctor was there waiting. He said its not good news, that I was prepared for. I was not prepared for him to tell me that the baby had passed 5 weeks ago so at around 9 weeks. They made an appointment for me to get a D&C the next morning and sent me home.
We got home and the cramps got much much worse. I got into bed and then had to get up again to take some pain pills they gave me. As soon as I stood up my water broke and I gave birth to our son in the bathtub. It was horrifying I have never looked into what happens during a miscarriage and both me and my husband have never been so scared.
I was so scared to see him but after my husband cleaned him up he was so beautiful. Perfect little hands and feet with a giant smile.
We named him Travis Rex Clewell (t-rex) and we are going to bury him tomorrow next to my grandparents. I filled a tiny wooden chest with memento's and my husband made a tiny cross with a baby dinosaur on it.
My husband has been amazing through all of this I don't know how he can stay so strong. I couln't have made it through this without his love and support.
We are heartbroken but there must be some reason that this happened, he was probably just too awesome. ;)
Thank you for letting me tell my story, all of our friends are avoiding us and the ones that are not don't want to talk about it.
Last edited by JESSIE2636; 05-16-2009 at 10:25 PM.
RIP Travis Rex Clewell 5/10/09