As quickly as I came to join this group I am now already leaving....
I was very nervous for today's u/s and then when we were on our way I was flat out SCARED. And for good reason.... I think my body just knows when it is not going to work out or something, IDK
Anyway, I saw the head of the department today and he said I have the worst case of PCOS he has EVER seen. He said there was no way he could even attempt to count all the follies I had, but he would guess somewhere around 100!! ONE HUNDRED!
there were none he could find that were larger than 5, so either the ones that were 7-9 previously shrunk or reabsorbed... or SOMETHING. but he could not find then.
of course i knew right away when i saw the u/s... i have seen the nearly identical u/s ever time i have had one. I was crying... ok I was bawling. He said I could do another three days of three vials if i chose to. I asked if it was even worth the cost of another u/s and the meds and he said in his opinion, no. With my ovaries it will be very hard to get the needed response from any medication, in his opinion.
He didn't have time to sit down and really talk to us today so he had us make an appointment with him for a consult. IDK what he will suggest... donor eggs? embryo adoption...? IDK.
I am so completely drained emotionally. I have been literally in a fog since the appointment. I just got home and all I want to do is crawl in a hole and die. I dont know how much more of this I Can take. You guys always say I'm "so strong" but I'm not. I am weak and broken.