(I have this in venting too but this room gets more traffic and I could use the support.)
A little background: When Abby was born she had fluid in her lungs and wasn't breathing well--they took her at 12 hours old to NICU and stayed there for 5 days. I had severe anxiety because of this (who wouldn't?) and my MW put me on zoloft to help me out and preempt PPD. I have taken zoloft before for clinical depression so I know how it affects me--I'm flat, I can get emotional but mostly I'm just super "calm" and unemotional.
Fast forward to this week. My husband keeps asking me if I'm ok and I'm acting "weird." I say I'm fine because that's how I feel--and I say that it's probably just the zoloft.
Then this morning he asks me how long until we start giving her real food because he can't handle how weird I've been acting since we got home from the hospital and obviously breastfeeding (I actually EP but whatever) is the problem. His one example is that I stopped drinking coffee. And that he knew that having a baby changes people, but I'm a totally different person and that's not ok to him. He says that he feels like I can't stand to be around him because whatever room he's in, I leave and go somewhere else. When I ask for examples--he can't give me any.
All of this is happening while he's in a hurry to leave for work so we really can't talk about it. And I'm feeling attacked and when that happens I usually shut down because I just don't know what to say.
I'm so hurt and angry. As if I don't have enough to worry about, I have to start acting like "myself" again to make him happy...