my husband and i have a 5 year old son and never had any complications with my pregnancy (i am 25 my hubby is 30) we tried for another for 3 years then out of nowhere got pregnant and sadly we miscarried at 7 weeks. 2 months later we got pregnant again and it ending again in miscarriage at 6 weeks. my husband is supportive of whatever i want and to be honest i have no clue what i want. i hate the thought of being pregnant again, i hate the thought of trying to get pregnant so much i dont even want to be intimate with my husband anymore. my son is always saying he wants a brother or sister and asks about the 2 we lost. i wanted nothing more then to have another baby for years and now i just cant see anymore kids in my future. i walk by the baby aisles in stores and think oh thats cute or i want that but then it feels like i get slapped back to reality and i hate everything again. i have a friend who is pregnant with her 5th child and her due date was 2 weeks ahead of mine and i cant stand to see or talk to her anymore. is all this normal? how can i get back to being myself again? im so lost i dont feel like myself anymore. none of this behavior is like me.