Giving it up
I never thought I would enjoy nursing, but I did. But since I am going on month 2 of nausea, I just can't keep up with the calories needed to produce milk. I'm underweight to begin with and my doctors are getting very concerned with my weight so after cutting back to just part-time nursing, I've decided that I just need to bite the bullet and let my milk dry up. And I'm sad about it.
DH has been very supportive of whatever I wanted to do and is very sympathetic about it all. But I'm still sad about it. DD was such a natural latch and it came so easy, it kind of isn't fair that I don't physically have the health to do it.
Hopefully though, by getting back the few hundred calories a day, I can gain back a little weight, get my strength back, and be a better mom to BOTH my babies instead of always feeling so sick.
Rae (27), DH (26), Lucas (6/3/12), Amelia (12/13/13)