I'm so nervous tonight. We have a meeting tomorrow with DSS and to my knowledge, from what we learned in training and the CM said recently, this meeting is to let bio mom and possibly bio dad know that they will not be getting baby girl back and that the goal will be changed from return to home to adoption. I'm really nervous. First off, I have no idea if bio dad will be there, or bio mom for that matter but I'm pretty sure the meeting is pointless without mom. I have no idea how her mental state is but considering she's been in a mental hospital for the better part of the last 8 months I doubt it's good. They're also still refusing visits so I imagine she's in a pretty bad way still. I'm terrified to see her and I'm really worried about her reaction to everything. She lives in her own world most of the time so depending how how she's functioning tomorrow I'm not sure if she'll understand what is happening or why. I'm afraid she'll get upset with us as she has before. I'm also worried if bio dad is there that he'll be mad or something that I'm pregnant. He just has himself totally convinced that people don't foster or try to adopt unless they can't have children. Doesn't matter how many times I told him in the past that we didn't know if I could or not and while we'd had no luck yet that wasn't the only reason we were doing this. Plenty of people who can have bio children adopt but he just has that stigma in his head so I'm afraid he'll be convinced I lied to him even though I told him repeatedly that wasn't the case. Ugh! These things make me a wreck. I'm also nervous about the meeting in general because I'm afraid we'll be thrown a curve ball or something and find out they're going to extend the case or something though mom has done nothing on her plan in a very long time. Dad walked away a long time ago, if you could ever consider him being around at all. No one has heard from him since he saw baby girl for the first time. So...I don't know what to think. Just lots of nerves and a billion thoughts going through my head tonight.