I'm so upset this afternoon. I got a call from our SW saying that bio dad wants to see baby girl after all. I'm just not sure what to make of it, and obviously a lot of other stuff is going on in our lives right now so it's not the only thing making me nuts but it just seems weird. I'm so afraid he'll decide he wants to parent and take my baby girl away. I don't think he's capable of parenting and he told the judge he wasn't capable of it right before he said he wanted to see her so I'm hoping him wanting to see her is unrelated to his decision. I'm just so sick of the foster roller coaster. We won't be doing this again. It's just too much to continue on like this for so long. The though of losing this baby now just makes me want to go to bed and not get up again. Knowing anything can happen ahead of time doesn't change anything. You still fall hard and feel like they're your children anyway. And every little thing still catches you off guard. Just had to vent a little.