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    Default My experience with CYTOTEC to bring on my miscarriage, my body wouldn't let go on it's own.

    I came here to share my personal exp. with this medication, this in no way is a professional opinion just my personal experience.

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    So many of us suffer thru a MC, and some of us pass it normal , some have a DNC some opt for medication to help the process along when our bodies fail to recognize that our babies have died in utero.
    I was told on April 13th that my baby no longer had a HB, I followed up with a specialist on the 15th and it was confirmed my baby stopped at 6.5 and no HB. Let back up by saying that at 6.1 a HB was detected. That was on April 1st. So by now my baby's HB had been gone a while and even after that my body failed to start the whole process on it's own, I had lab's drawn and waited, after a few more days of nothing happening i decided that I would go ahead and take the med's to start the whole physical process of what my body failed to do, so on thursday April 18th the Doctor called in Cytotec, he informed me that it was an ULCER medication and that once I took them that it should go fairly quickly and I would experience cramping once it started, he also called in some Pain medication , Lortab. He also said I might experience some diarrhea with this med and i thought ok it doesn't sound that bad.
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    I ate dinner, and took a shower got out some overnight maxi pads in preparation for what was about to happen.
    7:00 pm to 2 Cytotec pills that were 200 MCG each. There were 2 more to be taken 24 hours later( which I did NOT take). I know some have taken them vaginall as well as orally or just vaginal, my experience was to take 2 pills orally.
    9pm mild cramping started and I was advised that at the first sign of cramping to take the pain med's before it became seriously intense, so at 9 I took 1 Lortab, the bottle said 1-2 every 4-6 hours, I took 1 incase I needed to take more later and didn't want to be at my max and have to suffer thru a few more hours before taking more.
    By 10:30 I was in excruciating pain and I can tell you that I was past the point of cramping, what I was feeling was intense contractions. There is no other way to describe it, now I know every woman in her lifetime has experienced cramps, but not all may have had any exp. with what contractions feel like and certainly no male Dr. has experience with contractions nor menstrual cramps but to male Dr's the only way for them to advise us is to say oh you will experience cramping. So at 10:30 I took another pain med. at about 11:30 I had suffered thru more contractions that were hitting me every 1-2 minutes and lasting for about 45 seconds. I started spotting bright red but no actual flow. I also felt tired and sleepy and had some nausea to this I attributed to the 2nd pain med finally kicking, finally the intensity was slowing down enough for me to lay down and fall asleep. Again I believe it was the 2nd pain med that made that possible.

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    At 1:26 a.m in the morning now it's (friday) I stood up with the feeling of having to pee and as I stood up I felt something slide down onto my pad so I slowly walked to the bathroom and slowy pulled my panities down and found that the clot was lodged in my opening and not actually sitting on my pad, so I grabbed a clean pad and some TP and wiped carefully and slowly so as to catch this clot and place it on the clean pad to make sure that this was actually it, in my heart I knew it was but I needed to be sure. I place the clot on the clean pad and sure enough I was looking at my babe, it was all in tact, clear sac, bean in place attached to a huge clot. Now I took pic's of it and I did that for other reasons which I can't get into now but something told me to just do it. Once I cleaned everything up and wrapped my baby in it's pad and placed in baggie to put in fridge to take to dr's office the next morning I suddenly got violently sick, and threw up, while I was heaving in the potty I felt something else slide down, and was like omg what now, so I flushed and stood up to sit back down and as soon as I sat a huge long clot slid out and fell into the toilet, fairly confident that I had passed my baby already I did not go in to retrieve it. I cleaned up and flushed and went to bed.
    The next morning I spoke with Dr's office and they had me bring baby in to send off to make sure that I had indeed passed everything and to do lab's for my HCG level monitoring to make sure they are dropping.
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    I can't tell you what it's like to still feel pregnant at this time and yet know that you're not, now Friday passed with sporadic contractions very mild and very light bleeding more like spotting, I still felt beaten up pretty bad and groggy but nothing like the early morning hours, Saturday passed much like Friday afternoon had, but the bleeding picked up to more like a light flow. During the night and in my sleep started getting more intense cramping and finally I got up on Sunday morning with more of the contractions, I thought okay maybe I just need to go potty and so I did, no relief then it got more and more painful and these pains were coming every 3-4 minutes with severe intensity that it would stop me dead in my tracks or mid sentence, I got to the point where I threw up again and broke out in chills and hot flashes at the same time, I took 3 tylenol and waited all the while contracting, I finally called my OB's office and got an immediate call back, I explained what was happening that I was scared, and in pain and felt something was seriously wrong, it was then explained to me that now that I had started the whole process and even tho the pills were out of my system that my body was now doing on it's own what it failed to do before and that it was my body's way of getting rid of any remaining debris. The vomiting was my body's reaction to the pain I was experiencing. I was told to take the Lortab and then 2 hours later take the IBUProfen and it would be safe, Well since I took the 3 tylenol I was leary of taking the Lortab so I took 3 IBUProfen and laid in bed, at 3:21 I felt this urge to push something but what I didn't know, so I went to the bathroom and peed and nothing happened so I wiped and just as I dropped the tp in the toilet, another clot but none like I had ever seen before slid out and landed right on the tp I had just dropped so it didn't slide down into the bottom of the bowl, I panicked, so I jumped up and my Dh came in and looked, I told him not to flush and I grabbed some gloves and pulled it out took pic's so I could show my Dr. when I go back in for lab's. It appeared to be more of what looked to be the placenta, with more clear plastic film on it and then then attached to a hideously dark black clot. Amazingly enough the contractions subsided to every couple of hours. The advil seriously helped and I stayed on it the remainder of the day. I am having a light flow at this point and feeling like my uterus has been beat to h*ll. Now I also had the pregnancy cyst and it was on my right side, so now the contractions eased up only for my right ovary to start pulsating and throbbing, so I imagine my body is trying to figure out what to do with that.
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    It is now monday April 22nd and I am on day 4/5 of this process and I have mild cramping lower back pain and my right side still throbbing. I can't share any more of my experience obviously until the process finishes which I am told can take up to 2 weeks or more. I hope others who have any experience with this medication will share what they went thru, and maybe what to expect, I also hope that those who have had a DNC can share their exp. with that, I know that many women face a loss in early pregnancy or even 2nd and 3rd trimester loss, and don't know what to expect when presented with options, I know that everyone is different in what they go thru and which options they choose, but I felt that sometimes there is not enough info out there in personal experiences unless we all share so that we can as woman mentally prepare ourselves for what's to come. What sounds normal and what is not, or what we perceive as normal. I am so sorry that I have to even post here or any woman who has or may have to because the loss of a child. I rather be on the sidelines saying oh I have no clue I've never suffered a loss, as i'm sure so many of us would love to be able to say, and in a perfect world that would be true. Please share with us if you feel you can so that we may help others not knowing what to do, how to decide what is best for them, or comfort them while they go thru the process and know that something they may be experiencing or feeling is within the norm. I can't tell you how petrified I was on the first night and how much more so I was on Sunday morning when i didn't know that my body wasn't done.

    ** If you made it thru all this I appreciate it and if you decide to post your story I am grateful to you as I know so many more others will be. For the record until my body finishes doing what's got to do I still have not decided which of the 2 is the lesser evil, DNC or Cytotec as I have had both, I chose to post with this particular one first because it was still fresh in my head and I didn't want to leave anything out. Not that any of us forget a loss and the trauma of it all but this one is more recent for me. to all of you
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    (((Hugs)))...I'm so very very very sorry you had to go through this !!

    My heart aches for you !!

    Thinking of you and praying for healing !

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    I have not had experience with this medicine but I wanted to offer you my prayers. A loss is never easy & it is truly amazing how much you love your baby from day 1 & the grief you feel after a loss. So sorry for your loss. I will be thinking about you.
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    Lucy asked me to post my experience with it as well because I have all forms of early miscarriage. I have naturally passed, had a D&C and have taken cytotec. Out of the 3 I prefer natural because it the most natural but after that I would do a D&C. NEVER AGAIN will I take cytotec.

    My loss with the cytotec began similar to Lucy's I took 2 pills and then 24hrs later took another 2 pills. About 3 hrs after beginning the pills I began to experience cramps, these were what the OB told me to expect but what she didn't say was that they would gradually increase in level. In 6 hours I was experiencing contractions. These were not like easy contractions, these were like my pitocin induced contractions they began in my back and came all whe way to my pelvis making it feel like it was splitting in 2. I was not expecting it. I treated the whole thing like I was in labor and did all of my breathing and pain relieve techniques on top of taking the loratabs my OB prescribed. I didn't think I would need them because I had given birth before and had natural miscarriages but nothing like this. This felt so unnatural and horrifying. By hour 12 I was in such debilitating pain I could not move. Contractions came every 1-2 min and were lasting 30-45 seconds each. There was no way I could sleep in-between or find rest. I was lucky to breathe. This went on for 22 hours when I finally began passing clots. I took the 2nd dose and the contractions continued and would cause me to vomit as they came and went. I got dehydrated from not being able to eat or drink. After hour 36 things were finally dying down and I was able to rehydrate and eat again but I was still getting sporadic contractions. This went on for about 3 or 4 more days. It finally went down to cramps that last another week and a half. After all of this it took me another month to be able to have intercourse again with my husband because my cervix felt so tender and there were times it was so tender it would hurt to walk right after enduring this unnatural birth of my passed baby. My recovery time after this was almost 8 weeks where as after my natural and D&C losses it was only a couple weeks. My OB said this was a normal outcome with the pill. Some get it worse then others and my was on the bad end. After Cytotec AF returned 10 weeks later


    My D&C loss was relatively easy. I had some cramping and spotting prior to but still opted to have a D&C just to give my uterus a clean slate so to speak. I was taken in put under and within a hour I woke up in recovery. She said there may be some bleeding after but it should clear up in a few days. I did get some cramping and minor bleeding and it was done in 36 hrs. I was up and going right after but was a bit sluggish. All pains were managed by tylenol. I felt closure a lot quicker because I knew they had it all. AF returned 5 weeks later. No lasting pains or anything.

    My natural losses were preferred. They began like a normal AF and got just a bit stronger then my AF cramps were. I did have to take more tylenol then normal but I preferred that over high drugs. My longest one I bleed for 2 weeks but then it was done and I was able to return to normal life in a few days. AF would return 4-6 weeks after a natural loss depending on how long I was m/c and how far along I was. Though it took me longer to heal and find closure it felt like the m/c gave me time to mourn my loss as I was experiencing it verses just feeling empty.

    I hope this helps others understand what can happen when taking Cytotec, getting a D&C or experiencing a natural loss and to all who have lost. I have lost 10 little ones and each one was more difficult then the last but the Cytotec was the worst experience of them all.
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    I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you have a quick physical recovery and that emotionally you have the support you need. Hugs to you.

    (On a side note, I had to use cytotec to begin the process for my second tri loss. I got very sick and broke out in hives. Turns out I am allergic to the drug. Talk about making a terrible situation worse. The drug itself is brutal. I feel for anyone who has to take it - for many reasons.)
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    After STCing 18 months to get DS, we decided to actively start trying again this past July. It took me a long time to wrap my head around the idea of doing all the fertility drugs again so I wanted to try on our own for awhile. Much to our surprise, we got our BFP on the very first cycle with no RE help (although I did O pretty late in the cycle). Never had any spotting. Six week ultrasound went fine. No heartbeat yet, but they thought it might be too soon since we didn't know my exact O date with such a long, wacky cycle. Went back two weeks later to find out that the baby had stopped growing just after 7 weeks and there was no heartbeat. I had a couple more ultrasounds, including a second opinion with my RE. They all said the same thing. My OB was fine waiting it out couple of weeks before doing anything- she knew I was having a hard time dealing with this loss. After talking it over with others who had pregnancy loss, I decided on a D&C.

    The D&C was on a Friday. It was done under general anesthesia at the outpatient surgical center at our local hospital by my OB. I had very little pain or discomfort afterwards. I think I spotted or had a light period for a few days afterwards. Never did have any spotting leading up to the D&C. I was almost 11 weeks along by the time I had it done. We had the baby tested, and the baby was diagnosed with Trisomy 22, which is fatal. I never would have made it out of the first trimester.

    My OB wanted me to wait at least one cycle before trying again. The D&C was in October. In December, I went back to my OB for a dull ache near my right ovary. My ovary was fine and by this point my uterine lining had grown enough that I was given the okay to induce AF if I wanted to. I also made an appointment to see my RE in January thinking tthat it was my late O and a bad egg that caused all of this. My RE ordered a saline sono to see if the D&C had left behind scar tissue on my uterus. My uterus was fine except for a small polyp. I was given the go ahead for an IUI, which turned up BFN. Our recent second IUI had also turned up BFN. I'm having an HSG this week or next to see if the D&C (or pregnancy with DS) blocked my tubes at all. Hopefully, everything turns out fine and we can proceed with another IUI.

    To date, I don't have anything negative to say about my D&C. My period is a little heavier than it used to be but it is slightly shorter in duration. I might have a different opinion if it turns out my tubes are jacked up now.

    I am so sorry for your loss. My loss is starting to hit me again as my due date is coming up on May 7th. I was hoping to have another bean before my due date, but with my last IUI beaing a bust, that won't happen now. I pray we both get sticky beans very soon!
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    Would you ladies like me to create a sticky for us all to post about the physical and emotional aspects of our miscarriages? I know that you all are sharing in order to help you with your own losses and to also serve as a way to help other women going through the loss of a pregnancy.
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    Quote Originally Posted by JJorn View Post
    Would you ladies like me to create a sticky for us all to post about the physical and emotional aspects of our miscarriages? I know that you all are sharing in order to help you with your own losses and to also serve as a way to help other women going through the loss of a pregnancy.
    I know I would feel honored. <3 Thank you Jessica

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    I would absolutely love to have. Sticky thread sharing our MC exp. in hopes of helping others who maybe considering which option is best for then or to help them understand better what to expect or offer more insight in that we others can use as a reference check instead if posting questions that someone may have already answered in the sharing of their story. I appreciate n welcome all the words of comfort and support they help me tremendously but I don't want the original reason for this post to get lost or off focus on us as a group of woman sharing our personal experience and preference. For example Sammi shared some valuable information that I was not made aware of and have not yet experienced as I am only 4/5 days into this medication and horrendous experience. I welcome more info from any and all in their experiences, again I hate that we have to even go thru this bit like I said had I been able to read other woman's experiences I'll be honest in saying that I seriously would have reconsidered my choice. I really want this to be as informative as possible that is not meant to disrespect anyone of their emotional experience I swear, but I haven't even been able to deal with the emotional side if this because if the degree of pain I've suffered and I'm on alert worrying about every little cramp or contraction or clot. I feel like once my body heals i'll be able to focus in the emotional side of things and yet I almost feel cheated and that once I am healed physically then it'll be even more prolonged a process because I have to deal n heal on the flip side instead of both at the same time. Does that even make sense and this is a great example of what I mean , did anyone else feel this way ? emotionally cheated for a lack of a better word because they are in such physical pain that they couldn't cry for loss because instead they were crying because if the degree of pain? KWIM does it make sense?
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    Quote Originally Posted by midgetlb6 View Post
    Does that even make sense and this is a great example if what I mean , did anyone else feel this way ? emotionally cheated for a lack of a better word because they in such physical pain that they couldn't cry for loss because instead they were crying because if the degree if pain? KWIM does it make sense?
    I get it completely. During the cytotec loss I was dealing with more physical pain first before my emotions could catch up. It took me longer to heal emotionally that time then any other. The D&C gave me closure but it still took time to feel the loss. My natural losses I could feel pain and emotional pain at the same time so I was able to heal quicker. Though each one took its toll on me and I dont think I have really recovered from my last loss. I never want to experience loss again.

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    With my first loss, I had a D&C. I was able to deal with the emotional stuff much sooner for several reasons - there was minimal physical pain (my D&C experience mirrored GATORGrits) and I was 6 weeks along when the baby stopped growing (I had my D&C at 9 weeks when we were certain beyond any doubt). It took me about 3 months to accept what had happened and to stop torturing myself with "why".
    My second loss ended with a D&E, and I was 21 weeks along. The physical part of this, which included my interaction with cytotec, followed by my milk coming in, and then a second D&C because there was tissue that needed to be removed, was much harder. The emotional toll was heavy and the pain was acute. I took 6 weeks off work. My SO and I had just moved in - we had been living cross country and I'd moved to be with him so we could start our family together - so we had this terrible loss while trying to figure out how to live with each other. I ended up in therapy to help me sort out my feelings, my anger and my sadness. It took me about 6 months to work through all of that, and I don't think a day goes by that I don't think about the daughter we lost.
    I think it is absolutely natural that you would be focused on the immedicate physical aspects of your loss. That is primary. I also felt robbed in a way when I was experiencing so much physical pain, that I had to put my emotions on a shelf to deal with later. While I feel like I have dealt with those emotions now (five+ years later), I can say, at least for me, the feelings never go away, they just become less acute.
    I am not sure if this helps at all, but I wanted to share because I think we all have common ground that we've been unfortunate enough to have experienced, but the strength to come away from and be able to help others.
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    Lilya003 everything you said absolutely helps thank you for sharing, I know reliving that had to be painful, as you said we never forget our lost ones, Never !!! the pain subsides over time but never goes away.

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    I haven't had the chance to go through all of these posts yet though I did read Lucy's (I'm so sorry it was so awful sweetie) and I wanted to go ahead and post my miscarriage story as well. It was absolutely the most traumatic experience of my life and I think I have spent a lot of time since trying to force down some of the memories because it was so awful.

    After STC for a while and going through 4 cycles of fertility drugs, I finally got pregnant. Over the moon of course, and waited until we saw a heartbeat before we told anyone outside of my husband and my parents. I was under the impression at the time that once a hb was seen that was it, and the chance of m/c was less than 10%. I think that is complete BS after what I have learned since then.

    I had a missed miscarriage like Lucy and had no signs of anything being wrong until an u/s confirmed it. I was fine, had been fine, no cramping, no spotting, everything seemed normal. I went in for a routine ultrasound, my first with my OB after leaving the RE and the hb was gone. I knew it the second I saw the screen. My mom was with me and I kept telling her the hb was gone and she kept telling me she didn't think that was why they were so quiet and I told her I knew. I had no doubt in my mind. It was confirmed by the doc who said he thought a d&c would be less traumatic considering how far along I was. I went in the next day for a repeat u/s just to make sure that it was indeed a m/c and not a misread by the tech. It was confirmed and I was scheduled for a d&c the next day.

    My experience was a d&c was horrible. I have a primary immune disease and have had a lot of surgeries and a lot of hospital experiences in my life time and nothing compares to how bad this was. First off, someone should train the staff how to behave in these situations because they just don't know how. My two nurses told me they had experienced m/c as well and so they knew how I felt. They were awful to me all day though so I had a hard time believing them. The hospital told me to be there at 10, said I would get valium or something right away and then after about 30 minutes go into surgery. All I could do was sit there and hold my stomach thinking that before long my baby would be taken from me forever. I feel like I can't breathe just thinking about it now. Nothing went as planned, or as we were told. I was there for FIVE hours before I was even prepped for surgery. My doc told me later that I was scheduled for surgery at 5 and he had no idea why the hospital told me to be there so early. So I waited for hours. It was the worst and longest wait of my life. I cried, I screamed, I threw things. I acted like a complete animal at times. It was like they trapped me in a room and imprisoned me in my grief. Every time a nurse came in and saw my face swollen from crying they asked if I was crying because I was scared of the surgery...no...didn't give a crap what happened to me, I should imagine the reason I was crying was obvious. After threatening to leave and go the cytotec way, they FINALLY gave me some valium to at least help me calm down. That did help and I just couldn't feel anything which was preferable at that point.

    The surgery itself was pretty simple. I went under general anesthesia and can't say I really had any pain from surgery itself. I'm allergies to most pain meds so I just took advil and that seemed to work fine for me. Unfortunately, I had complications. A few days after the surgery I started running a fever and had chills. Called the OB and was told to go immediately to the ER. After being there for a few hours, being told by the ER people that all the placenta wasn't gone and I would have to have another d&c, I was admitted and seen by my actual doctor. He said he thought it was just clotting and a post op infection and I stayed in the hospital for a few days on IV antibiotics.

    After being discharged, I had an appt with my OB again a few days after for another ultrasound and it still showed tissue. Not clotting after all but actual tissue. So in my case the d&c did not get all the tissue from the pregnancy. They were discussing waiting a week and doing another d&c and I finally said I'd had it and called my RE. He was horrified when I told him of my experience, got me back in the office immediately and took over my care from there. They did betas for 3 months I believe...for me it took that long for my hormones to go back down and for me to expel all the tissue. Because I'd had a post op infection they didn't want me to have another surgery and I ended up doing cytotec as well.

    My experience with the cytotec wasn't bad. By then my levels were down in the 170s so there wasn't a lot of tissue left. I administered it vaginally and it did increase bleeding a bit but not that much. After a few doses of it, my levels went down but not enough. Ultimately, I had to take the pill to stop the bleeding and then was able to flush out the rest of the tissue by being forced to have a period.

    It took forever and was the worst thing I have ever been through. I feel sick when I think about it. Every step of the process was horrible. The only thing I'm thankful for is that my RE's office handled things more appropriately and obviously cared how I felt and had better bedside manner.

    I can't say I'd do the d&c again if this happened to me again, but I can't say I'd go for cytotec either. At least with the d&c, I didn't have to face the physical proof of what was happening. I went to sleep pregnant and when I woke up I wasn't anymore. That was hard to deal with in itself because it was so quick and it was hard for my mind and body to catch up to each other. Seems to me it's traumatic no matter how it happens, and I hate that any woman ever has to suffer through something this horrible. Sorry this was so long. I wanted to describe it the best I could. And I also have to say that Lucy held my hand through it all. Without her and the support of other women who have been through this, I'm not sure I would have made it through myself. I think this thread is very important. I know when I went through this I couldn't get enough answers, enough experiences of others, enough comfort. I hope this helps.
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    Quote Originally Posted by midgetlb6 View Post
    I would absolutely love to have. Sticky thread sharing our MC exp. in hopes of helping others who maybe considering which option is best for then or to help them understand better what to expect or offer more insight in that we others can use as a reference check instead if posting questions that someone may have already answered in the sharing of their story. I appreciate n welcome all the words of comfort and support they help me tremendously but I don't want the original reason for this post to get lost or off focus on us as a group of woman sharing our personal experience and preference. For example Sammi shared some valuable information that I was not made aware of and have not yet experienced as I am only 4/5 days into this medication and horrendous experience. I welcome more info from any and all in their experiences, again I hate that we have to even go thru this bit like I said had I been able to read other woman's experiences I'll be honest in saying that I seriously would reconsidered my choice. I really want this to be as informative as possible that is not meant to disrespect anyone of their emotional experienceI swear, but I haven't even been able to deal with the emotional side if this because if the degree of pain I've suffered and I'm on alert worrying about every little cramp or contraction or clot. I feel like once my body heals ill be able to focus in the emotional side if things and yet I almost feel cheated and that once I am healed physically then it'll be even more prolonged a process cause I have to deal n heal on the flip side instead of both at the same time. Does that even make sense and this is a great example if what I mean , did anyone else feel this way ? emotionally cheated for a lack of a better word because they in such physical pain that they couldn't cry for loss because instead they were crying because if the degree if pain? KWIM does it make sense?
    I know how you feel about this Lucy. I felt that way too in a way. With all the complications from the d&c and cytotec it was hard to deal emotionally as well. I was going to the doc a few times a week to get blood drawn and there was so much focus on the physical aspect of it all it was hard to move on, to heal, to think about the future. I felt stuck in my body and like my body wouldn't heal enough for the emotional process to begin.
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    Please let me know if you would like me to add your posts to the sticky I just made.
    Jessica (32) and Ryan (32). Madelyn born August 5, 2009; Malachi born December 23, 2010 and Nathaniel born July 19, 2013. Lost a loved baby 02/29/12, 05/14/12 and 07/05/12 all due a serious allergic reaction to fabric softener.
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    100% yes J I would appreciate it greatly .

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    Mine can be added.
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