Cautiously Entering...

[coelh102]

Hey everyone, I posted in the tell us more about you thread but here is what's going on... I am having heavy bleeding, clots(which may or may not be the Crinone I am on) My Beta levels are 6,17,30,67 so they are increasing steadily but the bleeding is so bad some days I just don't know how my little bean stuck. The bleeding was light for the beta at 6,17,30 but got real bad and they ran the last one to see if it said anything and it came back at 67, I relaxed a bit but then the bleeding came back and it was just as heavy, if not more and I am now scared again. I am taking the weekend to rest, not doing any lifting or too much walking around, mainly sitting or laying on the couch today and most of tomorrow to see if it's just from me moving too much at work. The nurses keep saying it's normal for bleeding in early pregnancy but I keep thinking how this little bean can keep hanging on. I am trying to relax and understand that if it's going to stay then great but if not, there isn't much I can do about it. We are going to have an Ultrasound on March 9th, if I can see the heartbeat and this bleeding stops then I will relax 100% but for now I enter here cautiously.

[Colee]

I've been following you in the TTC room (I don't post in there because I don't want to offend anyone since we've never really had to 'try') and even read your blog one day waiting for updates. What a long hard road you guys have had to get here! I cant imagine the stress that has put on you. I hope you can relax some this weekend and it helps with the bleeding. Will you be able to take some time off work if that's what's causing it? Still sending you sticky vibes even though you've never known I was before.

[akhiker]

I am duct taping you to this DD room!

[coelh102]

I am duct taping you to this DD room!

Thanks Erica, I saw your wonderful news in STC room, I pray all works perfectly for you and enjoy that beach!!

Colee, Thanks for your kind words, I am really appreciating all the support right now. I have been pretty scared but my RE keeps saying to relax that it is okay but it's so hard to! I started feeling nausea pretty bad today so I take it as a good sign! I look forward to getting to know you too!

[sgodwin]

I'm sure the 9th can't come soon enough for you. Fingers crossed that the bleeding stops, your numbers continue to rise and that you see a beautiful heartbeat soon!

[Krista07]

I too am a cautiously October mom... Best wishes

[coelh102]

Well I got my beta back this morning and on Friday it was 67 and today it was 193!!!!!! I am over the moon happy and also very happy to report the bleeding was half of what it's been the last three days!! Come on little one stick baby stick!

How is everyone else feeling? When is everyone's ultrasound? Mine is the 9th and we can not wait!

[Colee]

Glad to hear good news from you again! Can't wait for the US. Had my first US almost 2 weeks ago to get a due date. Feeling better this week than I have the last few. Still REALLY fatigued but the pukeyness is pretty much gone.

[coelh102]

Thanks very good! Did you get to bring pictures home? How far were you in your US?

[sgodwin]

That's great news....sending tons of sticky dust to you!

[Colee]

I was 7+3. I did get a picture but there wasn't much to see on it - the yolk sac was in the way and she couldn't get a better angle.

[khadijavye]

Excellent news!

[paytonsmom0818]

Wonderful news that your bleeding is slowing down. So glad to see you in the October DD room!!! Truck loads of sticky dust!!!!!!

[coelh102]

Thanks girls, I didn't bleed at all today! Very light spotting when I wiped but that was it! I can't wait for my ultrasound now, I pray to see a strong heartbeat!

Also Paytonsmom; you are very lucky to have updated your signature BEFORE the crash! I am dying to update mine!

[paytonsmom0818]

I know its was just a few days before. I can't even post any faces though. When I click on them nothing happens. I see other people using them so im not sure why mine wont work. Hope they fix it soon! I am so excited for you.

[Colee]

Yeah for no bleeding! You gotta know that heart beat is gonna be there. We cant lose any more out of this room...I forbid it! (That was my authoritative voice) ;) All joking aside though, this is your time. Hope your US comes quickly.

[khadijavye]

Excellent news!!! When is your u/s? So excited for you!

[coelh102]

My U/S is Saturday at 7am we are getting excited, DH is finally saying 'baby' instead of 'it' and the bleeding has pretty much stopped, I had one dime size spot on my pad today, that was it. I hope we get a picture, even of the gestational sac is fine, they will get the hint when we show them an ultrasound picture. I hope everyone else is doing well, it's been sad in here so we need some good happy news!

[khadijavye]

You are RIGHT, we do need some happy news. It feels like we've got a really small bunch to begin with. It looks like the September room experienced 3 losses, as well, so maybe that's the limit! I sure hope so! Excited about your u/s, KUP!

[kellyowens]

Thinking of you Cait! Praying for a great u/s tomorrow!!

[coelh102]

Thanks Kelly, I am getting so nervous but the bleeding is now just one spot today and no cramping. Just always hungry (like every 2-3hrs), boobs hurt so bad I can't lay on my side because of the pressure and weight of them (seriously feel like they have rocks in them). I know that if I get bad news tomorrow I will be beyond crushed, just had dinner with my friend and we talked babies the whole time because she had an ultrasound at 12wks 3days today and are both very giddy. I pray for good news and love all of everyone else's prayers. I have this fuzzy feeling of serenity and calmness though, something is telling me everything is going to be okay and all I can do is believe. If it crushes me in the end, at least I went into this hopeful and happy.

[Colee]

I think we have 4 angels. Ashleen was never on the list but she posted her loss last week.

Good luck at your us tomorrow. Hoping you get the comfort of that little beating heart on the screen.

[sgodwin]

coelh102, even though I'm technically out of this room now, I'm still following your story here. I am so hopeful that you'll see a beautiful heartbeat tomorrow morning...will be looking for your update. I've got everything crossed for you!

[coelh102]

Well my update.... I didn't see a heartbeat, I didn't see even a sac. Nothing. My levels were 193 on Monday... today they were in the upper 200's she told me but I didn't hear he right and forgot but I wanna say 283ish. They are worried about ectopic. I was scanned with the top doctor a second time and he thought he saw something but then it was gone so he couldn't see anything more. Again he is worried about Ectopic. So now I sit and wait until either I get severe pain and end up rupturing my tube (my only good tube right now) or we go in on Friday at 6am to scan again. My progesterone is at 13. I'm numb and hurt because my best friend and I were planning on being pregnant together and she got her 12wk picture yesterday and I was suppose to get good news today, instead I got wait and see...

[Colee]

Oh honey. I know this isn't what you wanted to hear but I'm hoping wait and see is better than there's no chance. How far along do you think you should be? Is there a chance it was still just too early? Couldn't they look at/ in the tube today? I don't know much about the numbers but that doesn't sound like it went up much. Still praying for your good news soon. Friday sure seems like a long ways away right now. (((HUGS)))

[sammilynn]

Oh hun I am so sorry I hope that things recover quickly for you and that it could just be too early or you are able to move on.

[khadijavye]

I'm hurt for you. I'm really sorry that it wasn't the perfect, ideal appointment where you walked away with a photo that looks like a little bean. My Progesterone has been hanging out at 13 for the last couple of weeks, so that is a good number, for sure.

[coelh102]

Thanks girls, yeah my number was 288.6, just looked online. It's not doubling as it should, it should be around the upper 700's

[sgodwin]

I'm sorry you're going through this and didn't get any definitive answers. It really is such a difficult thing to go through and the disappointment that comes along with it can be numbing. I pray you find peace and get the answers you're seeking very soon. Huge hugs to you.

[khadijavye]

So glad that you posted an update in the new thread that all is well and that you're now going to be a November Mama! My first was born in November.