My worst fear has happened. IDK if ya'll remember me posting a few months ago about how my "BFF" was about to start TTC and I was really upset about it because I just knew she'd get PG quickly...sure enough she tried twice and is PG. It's just been awful for me these past few days. First of all, we'd gotten into a little tiff earlier last week (Tuesday) she did something that really hurt my feelings so we didn't talk at all last week when usually we text/talk every day. Well I knew that by Saturday she would either get AF or be PG. She posted something on FB and I just knew she was PG. Yesterday I texted her-hey, haven't talked in a while. How are things? Gave a little update on myself. She text back answers to my questions then proceeded to write, "Guess what? I'm due Nov 5 if I don't miscarry." I was just kind of like My heart dropped, even though I knew it was coming. I said congrats, asked her when she found out. She found out last Wednesday and had already told her whole family and sent out a mass text to everyone except for me. On one hand, if I'm her BFF why am I let the last to find out? That hurts my feelings all over again! And then on the other hand, I'm glad she didn't tell me because really it would have ruined my week. I'm just so sad for myself (lame, I know) and I'm soooo jealous. Which I hate to admit that, but I'm really jealous. In the time it took her to try twice and get PG, I've only been able to try once and didn't even ovulate. Then she's living my dream as far as kids and the time between them. We started trying when Chris was 9 months old, he's going to be 7 in a month. It just hurts my heart and I wish it could be me. Add to all that I've got Clomid running full strength through me right now...I just cried and cried at work yesterday. Then I cried again on my way to lunch. I think I've cried out all the tears over my frustrations that it can't be that easy for me. It just makes me want to stomp my feet and say, "Not fair! Why not me??" Plus I feel she was really insensitive the way she broke the news...but that could totally be me just being extra sensitive about the subject, which I totally am. I can completely admit to that. Anyway, I just need someone to vent to and I figure you ladies would understand the most. Sorry I can't make paragraphs so it's a long post!