Scared

[LilBunnieMcG]

So, I've been spotting kind of heavily, brownish-reddish. I've been spotting for about a week now, it's been getting heavier and the red tinge has been getting more noticeable. I also had a tiny blob of uterine lining today. I went to the ER Sunday because my husband called the Nurse Advice Line and she said the cramping and blood was bad, so see a doc now. I am traveling and I've not yet met my OB doc. The ER doc ran my HCG levels but said the baby is too small to see on ultrasound, so all she could do was confirm the pregnancy and test to see if I'm losing blood. My levels came back perfect and she said I'm right on target for 4 weeks 6 days (yesterday's estimated gestational age). She then said I just need to watch for heavy bleeding and to not worry so much. But worrying is so hard not to do. She said this is just my confused body still trying to have a period. She did say that if I get heavier bleeding to go to the nearest ER and have my HCG levels run and compared to Sunday's levels (which were in the 2000+ range). I got my blood type yesterday as well, since I didn't know it, and I'm B positive (ironically) so they ruled out problems with blood type.

Anyway, I'm most likely fine, since I'm not soaking pads or anything. But my emotional state now sucks. I feel afraid to get any more attached to my baby in case I lose her/him. (I really tend to think of the baby as her, so I'll probably have a boy. hehe) I also had to reveal the pregnancy to my family because going to the ER meant I had to tell my mom, grandma, and sister since I might have missed the baptism of my niece (I'm her godmother). I made the baptism, barely, but the pastor announced my pregnancy to my sister's church and my sister announced it to her whole in-laws. We had to tell my mother in law, who guessed I was pregnant the minute I stepped off the plane this afternoon. She just started dancing and I wanted to cry all over again because I'm just so afraid of bad news. Both my mom and mil have said they had lots of bleeding with their firstborns (myself and my husband), so they are very empathetic and hopeful. How do I get back to hopeful but protect myself from too much pain if this fails?

I tried Googling my symptoms but there was just so much doom and gloom out there.

[JJorn]

It is so scary to bleed anytime in pregnancy. All you can really do is wait it out. I hope that the bleeding/spotting stops very soon. In a week or so they should be able to do an ultrasound and hopefully see a little baby with a heartbeat. I wish that I could offer something more!

[doody]

googling bad news will just put you in a worse emotional shape. so try to hold this for a while, really...like...stop!
I've heard sooooo many stories about ppl spotting or bleeding in their early pregnancies, and things turned for them just fine.
try to rest and hope for the best. after all, your whole world now knows about it take good care of yourself.

[kmrk336]

Googling=bad, very very bad!!

I hope the bleeding stops soon. I know it's impossible not to be a wreck right now, especially with the added stress from your family knowing and being so excited. That would just be so hard I imagine. Just try to remember that you're being upset isn't good for the baby and she needs a nice calm strong mama right now!! Praying for you!

[sammilynn]

I agree with everyone else no googling. I hope it's nothing Hun

[Mariel]

Bleeding here too at 6 weeks. Started two days ago, sounds similar in description reddish-brown and today a liiiittle bit of red. I spent too much time on google yesterday. Just want to curl up in a ball and sleep the week away.

What would be the blood type problem?

[sammilynn]

Bleeding here too at 6 weeks. Started two days ago, sounds similar in description reddish-brown and today a liiiittle bit of red. I spent too much time on google yesterday. Just want to curl up in a ball and sleep the week away.

What would be the blood type problem?

if you are rh- you have a higher chance of m/c especially if the baby's blood is RH+.

[kmrk336]

Thinking of you too Mariel! Hope everything's ok with both of you! KUP

[Mariel]

Ah ha. I am rh negative

Sending out positive thoughts for both of us!

[ktbelle97]

Try not to worry too much LilBunnie and Mariel! I had bright red bleeding around 7wks pg with my DS. I bled for a couple of days and spotted for a full month afterward. My DS was born perfectly healthy at 38w, and he is a healthy, happy 19 month old boy now. From what I read, around 30% of pregnancies experience some first trimester bleeding, and many of these go on to deliver healthy babies. Try to get some rest and do what you can to take your mind off it, although I know that is MUCH easier said than done! I will be thinking about you both!!!

[Babidol]

I had bleeding at 5 weeks that started brown then turned bright red with clots. I've also had a missed miscarriage where i had no bleeding at all.

It's really hard to stay calm and not be scared but that's all you can do. Hang in there.

[doody]

any updates?

[MummytoShay]

Hey hun, you have my sympathies. Dr. Google is not helpful with this, as there are so many contradictory stories. Thinking positive in this situation is so hard as the potential disappointment is too difficult to bear. I have had many "don't want to look down at my panties when I go to the bathroom" and dread it now as well.

But, things do seem to be looking so good for you, and do what you can to stay distracted. sending prayers and sticky vibes to your little one. Hang in there hun!!!!

[LilBunnieMcG]

Hi all, thank you so much for the comments. Unfortunately, I was unable to access the internet until today. We were visiting family and they don't even have the internet at their house, in order to keep work and home boundaries. It was probably for the best that I couldn't keep Googling lol. My mother-in-law basically ordered me into bed rest, even though the doc said not to bother with it. She wouldn't let me help at all with Thanksgiving, so I felt horribly lazy just lounging around in front of my husband's family who I had never met before.

The bleeding seems to have dropped off, but I've lost 3 pounds even though I'm eating fairly normally. Yesterday nausea really kicked in and all I wanted to eat were crackers and salt. I didn't even want salty food, just salt. The salt shaker was calling my name. Bizarre, right? I have my first appointment on the 4th and my husband can't go, so my best friend is going with me. I'm trying to relax and take it easy, while still trying to get my house set up. We just got our household goods delivered on the 17th and then took off on the 18th for my niece's baptism and Thanksgiving. Both mom and mom-in-law don't want me doing anything at all, but if I don't do the homemaking, then I feel like I'm just sponging off my hubby. He works such crazy long hours that he deserves to have a comfortable place to come home to. My best friend is staying with us from the 1st for about a week, so I know she'll help me out with all the unpacking and organizing. Plus she's going to teach me to knit and that should help me when I have nervous energy.

Mariel, I really hope everything is going well for you! I'm feeling more hopeful. Hubby and I have been talking names and we're mostly focused on girl names (hubby's positive we'll have a girl, I'm just more interested in girl names). We picked out two we really liked and then met our new nieces that have those names! So disappointed. They're sweet girls, though, so I was happy to meet them.

[JJorn]

It really sounds like things are going well then. I'm so glad that bleeding has stopped. Having the morning sickness kick in is also a good sign!

[ktbelle97]

Glad you are feeling better! I have my next appt on the 4th too... hopefully we both have great appts!

[LilBunnieMcG]

ktbelle97 -- I hope so, too. I am excited about it, but I have to get through this week first. I've got a stacked week with the dentist Thursday, then having to drive 3 hours south to my hometown that night, then my dress fitting for our renewal of the vows on Friday (which I just found out my pastor didn't book, so I've got everything but the church for Dec 29th and I really don't know what to do), my best friend's baby shower Saturday, then have to drive back up here with bestest friend who should really be my twin so she can stay the week with me while hubby is TDY . . . I just want to go to sleep and wake up Dec 4th lol.

[Mariel]

Hope your full week makes things go by quickly! That is a lot going on. I am doing much better here. Spotted for about 4 days with occasional red tinges and lining like stuff, too. No cramps. It sent me to a really bad place but I am feeling more positive now. Waiting is the worst. I'm hoping to relax after first trimester but I don't even know if peace will come then.

[kmrk336]

So glad to hear the bleeding stopped for both of you!!! Not cool babies!! No more scaring mommy (and friends!)!!

[MummytoShay]

Hey hun, Is there room on your boat?? I started bleeding today and I am trying really hard not to be on a downer. But it is so hard. Scan on Monday so hopefully we'll find out what's going on x

Hang in there hun x

[LilBunnieMcG]

Mariel -- great news!

MummytoShay -- I'm so sorry, hun. Hopefully the scan will show that baby is just fine and the bleeding will stop!

I did learn today that the appt on Dec 4 is just with a nurse to register me for care, so lots of bloodwork. I guess I'll finally meet my OBGYN at some point after that. I'm a bit confused, but the military does things it's own way.

[Lunarmoon]

I just wanted to say CONGRATS!!! I'm so happy for you!!! I'm SOOO glad the bleeding has stopped and that your MS has kicked in!! It's really not fun at all, but I was happy to feel sick knowing that it was because of a healthy baby!! I'll be thinking of you, and I hope you have a healthy and happy 9M!!

[LilBunnieMcG]

Thanks, LunarMom! Sorry to reply so late, but I've felt so bad that I wasn't even turning the computer on. I had a follow-up to the ER visit yesterday and they did an ultrasound and I heard three little swooshy heartbeats. It was over super-fast because the doc seemed to be in a hurry, but I had my first pre-natal visit today and got my 1st proper u/s scheduled for Dec. 26. They've poked holes in both arms and then called me this afternoon to tell me another test needs to be run. My Hep C test was "equivalent" which tells them nothing. I figure I'll go back in for that lab test tomorrow. I'm so hoping I'm lucky enough to have the MS end at 12 weeks!