Seriously, I feel like I'm mental right now. I've been on APA since 2009 and have been very on and off over the last year. I'm not sure if getting back on was a good idea, because I'm now driving myself loony. Anyway, the reason I'm going so crazy is that I was certain we were out this month because when I checked my cervix yesterday morning there was brown spotting. That is very normal, since my period is due Saturday and I always start spotting 2-3 days in advance. It gets heavier about every 24 hours until AF fully arrives. Well, I've checked my cervix again today because I wasn't noticing the spotting getting heavier. Well, the brown is nearly all gone. I'm so dry it's weird, and my cervix is straight up (it usually tilts back) and is hard as a rock and very closed. Mine's never felt like that before my period. It's got me excited and terrified. I'm not sure if my body is just being tricky or if this could really be it. I won't test until Saturday, just in case it is being tricky and I start really spotting tomorrow. I don't really have symptoms, actually the "girls" are hurting less then usual. AHHHHH! Ok, seriously someone has to talk me down. I feel like I'm going to explode! I don't want to get my hopes up and it just be my body acting stupid. Can you tell I'm an emotional train wreck too? Anyway, really needed to vent to you ladies. Thanks and blessings to anyone who reads this whole thing.