GD Failure, plus heart murmur!?!?!?

[ootus973]

So, finally went to the specialist today, and I failed my most recent GTT It's especially bad for me because it's up to me to be the baker for Jeff and the kids for the holidays, and we're 700 miles away from my family for the first time. I was looking forward to baking with my kids, and everyone at work was counting on me for cookies and stuff for the holidays. Now, I feel like what's the point since I can't eat any of it. It's my favorite thing to do for the holidays, and now it's been taken away from me. I know it's not the end of the world, and I know I'm not the only pregnant person on earth and all that...but I'm away from my mom, having a baby away from all my friends and family, and all I had to hold on to was our holiday traditions (Polish--lots of cooking and a 15-course Christmas Eve meal). Now I feel completely lost.
On top of everything, Jeff's being an A$$ about it and says I'm being a "selfish baby" for even being upset about it...and I should just "deal with it and grow up."
Oh, and I have a heart murmur too...not that Jeff gives a crap...

I wish I'd never gotten pregnant

[AlexL2010]

I think your child is a lot more important than eating sweets for a holiday. I'm sorry about GD, it is rough, but you can't just say things like that, even when you are extremely frustrated and upset. Don't invite problems.

[ootus973]

Thanks everyone for reading and ignoring...why even bother posting?? And Alex, I think you COMPLETELY missed my point. It's not even about eating sweets, it's about traditions and not having any this year. On top of having no family, and not being sble to have our traditions this year, jeff spent 2 hours yelling at me about how selfish I am and how I don't contribute enough physical labor to our home and relationship. But hey, why should anyone care, I'm just words on a computer screen.

[tiggerlb]

So sorry for the gd. And if my dh yelled at me like that calling me selfish I would kick his hinny right out the door. I think your dh should support you in it after all it is his baby also. But Hey you could also just cheat alittle just for the holiday and any way if you are good every day before and after 1 day will not hurt. And you could also make cookies and pies and follow the traditions just bake by using diabetic recipes For your self and the other regular recipes for your kids. The kids will still love the baking time with you no matter the recipe. Just on a side note to make you feel better. Last thanks giving was ruined for me by my dh. I spent all day making home made pies and turkey dressing and all the fixins he helped early on then left and said he had to go do something then at 5:30 pm he comes in the door DRUNK Which totally ruined my holiday due to the fact he is a recovering alcoholic and he is not to be drinking any more. Well needless to say I threw him out and I threw all the thanks giving diner in the drive way to the dogs and yes including the whole turkey. He entered treament a few days after this. So Ii will be okay just find a way to make it all work out.

[liontamer]

Big its so hard being away from family. When I was pregnant with dd I had severe morning sickness. Had to stay a week in the hospital then 2 months of in home care and getting an iv changed out every 3 days. It was rough. Just when I could finally eat whatever I failed my gtt. I was so heartbroken, all I could do was cry. My husband at the time was just like yours. You can make it through this. I'm so sorry your dh is being a jerk

I still baked because it was something I loved to do. I was able to eat some because I learned how much sweets I could eat.

It will get easier i promise...

[kc1309]

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry! It sucks you have GD and that your hubby is being a butt head. I know what you mean about being away from family. It's hard as it is but throw in the holidays and it's miserable being so far away. I hope you still get to enjoy the holidays and your traditions. Maybe the recipes just need to be tweeked a little. My MIL has diabetes and last November she had to start taking insulin. Every holiday since last Thursday we have been having them over and I've been tweeking recipes to be more healthy for her without sacrificing flavor. Let me know if you'd like any help modifying recipes.
Chin up mama! Not long now and your LO will be here! Big

[fourgulls]

So sorry things have been so rough for you and i know being away from family and friends makes everything way more difficult! Just think, in a few short weeks, you will be holding your miracle. I sure hope you are able to have a wonderful holiday and i know your children will have fun just being with their momma!

[pumpkinpeejays]

I'm so sorry, honey! You have an awful lot to deal with already, to add GD and a murmur on top of it - I can't imagine how upset you must be! Poo on your DH, he's acting like a baby if you ask me! I'm sorry you have to go through this