Hi there. I have taken three positive pregnancy tests in the last two days, so I suppose that I am pregnant, and given my menstrual cycle I should be due at the end of May. I am going to see my Physician later this week to confirm everything and make sure everything is looking healthy.
I am equal parts scared, anxious, and excited. I don't have many people to talk to right now, so I thought I would post on here to see if I can get some support/comfort/advice. I am only eighteen, and I am worried about so many things regarding this [probable] baby; not so much "giving up my life", but rather will I be able to give this child everything that it needs, physically and emotionally. I am currently unemployed (I quit my job a month ago...smart move -_-), but my boyfriend has a stable career as an EMT, is going through training to become a Paramedic, and will be finished when baby comes. He doesn't make a lot of money, but we do live pretty comfortably when we manage our spending well. I suppose I should give a little bit of my back story, so everyone doesn't think I'm some white trash teen mom, because I feel like that is how I'm going to be seen when I announce it to the rest of the world (I live in a small town, where there is a high rate of teen pregnancy and low income families).
My boyfriend and I have been together for two years, and have been living together for just over a year now. My father committed suicide last summer, and I couldn't stand being in that town, where everyone knows everything about everyone, and everyone knew my father and family. I hate getting sympathy, and even more I hated the rumors. My mom decided to move upstate, and I didn't want to leave my senior year, so I moved in with my boyfriend who lived an hour away from where I was at (I live in an area where most of the towns are small farming/logging communities). We have been together through thick and thin, and I know that two years is not a very long time, but a lot has happened in those two years. We have talked about getting married eventually, but we both want to finish our educations before that happens.
So, now I am in this boat about to go through so many changes in life. I am scared for the baby's health, because I was recently diagnosed with Crohn's disease, I am on Humira, and I have not yet gone into remission. I also want some advice about continuing school; I absolutely do not want to sacrifice my education, for the child's sake and mine. I am on track to graduate with my Associate of Science in June, and am planning to transfer to University to complete my B.S. (I will transfer as a Junior), and then go on to a Physicians Assistant program. If anyone can give me some advice, on anything baby related really, it would be very much appreciated! I was seven when my baby brother was born, and I played an active part in taking care of him from the time I was about eleven, so babies are not completely uncharted territory for me.
I also want to add that my baby is at risk for Huntington's disease (my boyfriend tested positive) and I am in a dilemma, because if I do test and it is positive, the baby has to be aborted since it would take away the option for it to choose on its own whether or not to test for it.