I found this website and I thought it might be interesting for me to post of what is going on with me due to people not understanding what I have gone through. Now I have no idea of how to act towards this but here's the story.
I have had 2 miscarriages, 1 natural at 6 wks and 1 D&C at 6 wks (due to me having complications with my own body thinking it I was still pregnant). After the D&C I relapsed back to the hospital due to severe cramping and heavy bleeding. Well it turned out to be an infection from the D&C procedure which made me bleed for almost 2mos. I barely stopped bleeding this month as a matter of fact. Now, I have planned my parents anniversary dinner. I invited my sister, who is older than me, and her boyfriend.
It turns out she decided to tell me that they are expecting, she got pregnant after I had my miscarriage. I miscarried on 06/21/2012 and now it is 08/19/2012 and I still have not gotten over the fact that I have had another miscarriage.
I cried and ran straight to the restroom when she told me, I am happy for her but I cannot help to be jealous and think I could've had that baby bump by now, I am sad, embarrassed for her telling me in PUBLIC and me acting like that at my parents anniversary dinner. I have mixed emotions and all I want is my space, my husband is being supportive but he will never know the physical pain I have gone through, we were just about to try again in a few months but I feel like I'm going to fail again and have another miscarriage, and my sister continuing to be pregnant hurts me so much! I am happy for her but I feel sorry for myself, I just want to run away and hide. I wish she would've told me this in private, now I feel sooo sorry for walking out of the restaurant crying and for not being there for her when she needs me.