A calmer 2WW still sucks

[Leah26]

Well, my 2WW started off weird this time with me finding out I was 2DPO without evening knowing for sure that I O'd since I went early this time and somehow not knowing for sure at first started me off pretty calm. After turning into a total freak last month and taking tons of tests and getting lots of light lines on ICs (bad batch) only to not be pregnant, I decided that this month was going to be different. I've done everything I can to stay calm and peaceful and to not worry too much. Seeing other people's BFPs makes me feel like mine will be here soon even if it's not now. Even though I O'd way earlier than expected we should be covered with DTD. It's funny because DH said he thought we should start earlier than usual and we did just for fun not having a clue I'd O early...weird.

I'm starting to get a little nervous though. I think it was because I was home alone all day today and I had time to think about it some. I've been feeling some things most of which I'm sure at only 6DPO are just from progesterone going up and not from pregnancy but I had some cramps today and one in particular that was really really sharp. I also had such bad reflux all night I almost threw up twice which was weird but I have GERD so it happens sometimes with no warning, meds or not. I'm trying not to read into anything but it's so hard not to a little. My left ovary is hurting a lot, just like it did when I was pregnant and had the HUGE CL cyst. The doc said a cyst was already forming when I was there last week so I'm sure that's what it is but it's hurting an awful lot and it normally doesn't from month to month. I know I'll be okay if I'm not pregnant this month though and I think I just have to keep repeating that to myself...oh 2WW...gets me every time.

[proudmommyof3]

Leah, this sounds EXACTLY like I was at 6DPO and I *think* that is when I implanted or 7 (I had a streak of pink blood). I did the same thing told myself I had a virus and sinus issues and I made myself believe it because I didn't want a repeat of last cycle when I went nuts LOL. I KNOW the 2WW is hard......things sound so promising and I am really praying so hard for your BFP, love, and for the rest of the 2WW to cruise fast for you!!!!!

[Lunarmoon]

I'm glad you are toughing it out though!! I was convincing myself I was not pregnant even up to the days after the positive. Especially after your history with strips. I'm wishing that when you do test you get the same results as me, and we can be DD buddies!!

[Leah26]

Thank you ladies so much! You're both so wonderful! I don't know what's going on with me today but I have the WORST heartburn I have ever had in my life. I have GERD so having heartburn in itself is not unusual for me, but I'm on two meds and on a rather high dose of one of them and usually that keeps it in check. Occasionally I'll eat something that will irritate it and I'll have a bad day or two but man I've never had it this bad. I can't remember if it was like this when I was pregnant or not. I do remember that it wasn't great because I talked to the doc about it. I'd stopped my meds before I saw the doc because they were Cat C and I wasn't sure I should take them, and when I told him I have GERD he said "It's only going to get worse. Get back on those meds." Lol. But I don't remember what it felt like or anything. I haven't changed my diet either so who knows why it could be this way. I even woke up in the night with it it was so awful. I'd love for it to be a pregnancy symptom but I doubt it at 7DPO. It probably means my meds aren't working right or something...Doesn't 7DPO seem pretty early to have heartburn as a pregnancy sign?

[mariahpoo2]

My FX for you!

[Lunarmoon]

I wouldn't know about it being too early, I haven't had heartburn yet! I really hope that it IS a sign for you though!!!!! FX!!

[mamabear26]

Hoping this is it for you! I am also trying to be very low key this month. DH wants me to relax and not stress but it is so hard! Fx for you hun!

[proudmommyof3]

Leah, I haven't had dr. conformation yet but I heartburn bad a few days ago and I hardly ever have that......I hope this is it for you, hun....praying so hard....I really want to see you in APRIL DD

[Leah26]

Thanks ladies! I really want to be in April DD too so bad. Cheri22 said I'd have an April girl so I'm curious to see if she's right or not. It's been a little harder to get through today. I'm just starting to get a little nervous since my Day 21 is tomorrow. I'm nervous that we'll find out I didn't O after all or something or that it wasn't strong enough. I'll probably just let them call me on Thursday instead of driving them nuts at closing time for my results like I usually do. Lol. I guess we'll see. Trying so hard to be low key and not think about it. I just have three more days to get through before I'll allow myself to test. Other than the heartburn though (which is still horrendous) and some cramps here and there I'm not really feeling much. I almost wish I would feel something. It's so hard sometimes because I feel like I ought to know if I'm pregnant because it's my body. Anyone else ever feel like that? Like you have to analyze the heck out of your symptoms because if they should be able to give you the answer since it's your body? Drives me nuts. Lol.

[Lunarmoon]

I'm wishing for great results tomorrow!! I'm hoping you get a dark and sticky BFP at the end of the week!!

[proudmommyof3]

Are you reading my mind, Leah LOL.....You are totally describing how I feel (not trying to steal your thread lol) but I understand how you feel. I also am NOT calling and am just going to let them call me...what will be, will be. I can't do the stress anymore and I am glad you are not stressing either. I will be praying your appointment goes well (and I am sure it will) and I can't wait to see your BFP and join you or see you go to APRIL DD....awwwww, a girl....soooo sweet!!!! Mine was BOY and JULY, but she said it could be find out, conceive, or DD....I hope it's the 2nd one LOL....praying all goes well and CHERI22 is right on for you....praying so hard, you deserve your miracle, sweet friend!!!!

[Leah26]

Haha I hear you girl! And you can steal my thread if you want I don't care. Lol. I wish I felt something really major that I knew was a sign but I guess if I'm going to it'll probably be in the next few days since it's still early. Technically I'm 8DPO here since it's past midnight. Lol. Just three more days to survive through before I can test and hopefully know for good one way or the other. I've decided to kind of keep quiet with DH and my mom how I'm feeling or not feeling or whatever. I tried to talk to my mom about it earlier and I think she gets frustrated because she wants this for me so bad and she can't do anything to help me or to make it happen faster or anything. She wants so bad to tell me I'm going to be I know but she doesn't know and she can't say that so she gets frustrated and then I feel bad. DH doesn't really get frustrated but I feel like obsessing about it with him is wearing me out or something. He's great too. He'll let me obsess if that's what I need to do, but I don't want to this time so I'm just going to try to pretend it's not happening. Lol. I might need some luck to go with that though. Hahaha.

I hope you get your little boy Malia! Cheri22 said the same thing for me with the month. She said it could be find out, conceive, or DD. I'd be really shocked if it took me until next April to conceive with how well I respond to Femara and being at the RE who will get more aggressive if I'm not pregnant after two more cycles. He told me he'd be shocked if it took more than two cycles on Femara for me which got my hopes up at first since this is my second cycle but since O was kind of a surprise and it hasn't been confirmed for sure what day it was on, I get confused. I think our chances are either really good or not good at all. Lol. Nothing in between. I'll post what results I get on my progesterone test here whenever I get it back.