I've been doing so good. Then I had to see pictures of my SIL pregnant. I don't understand why they deserve one more than me. It makes me feel like such a horrible person. Everything my IL's think about me must be true. I am just evil and horrible. Maybe I just needed a good cry. I'm really convinced it's not possible for me. I feel like it's not my time, like everyone so quickly tells me.

Alright, just needed to get that out of my system. I wish there was a baby free bubble I could live in!