Any insight?

[Leah26]

I am feeling so weird. I wonder if anyone has any insight into this. I had a m/c April 2nd and had a d&c April 4th. I had retained tissue and it's taken all of this time to finally get rid of it so we haven't been allowed to TTC. Honestly, I've been so upset about it all we've barely DTD. I think I'll feel better when we can try again and I'm back on fertility meds next cycle but physically I still feel weird. It might be because I'm back on Metformin but I don't remember it making me feel so weird last time and I was on it a year. Anyway, I'm having cramps still. They aren't terrible but definitely having them. Both ovaries are pretty sore (cysts maybe?) and I had some blood tinged cm today. I'm only CD11 (I think). I could be wrong about that because I spotted for over a week before I had a real flow. RE did an u/s and said it looked like the bleeding was left over from the m/c and wasn't AF so I didn't count until I had a real flow. So I could be off by a few days. Is it possible this is just my body's response to trying to O for the first time? Has anyone else experienced this after a m/c? I know my body could still be out of whack but my last hormone level was 8 and I know it's dropped since then because I passed lots and lots of clots and some tissue during AF so...I'm just confused. I'm ready for my body to go back to normal so we can at least be trying again. I felt so sad today. If things had gone according to plan we'd be finding out the gender and instead are no closer than we were this time last year. Infertility sucks.

[proudmommyof3]

Oh honey, I am so sorry you are going through this. It's hard enough on you emotionally and then the physical part....I am sad with you. Maybe this weekend do something you LOVE, just for YOU!!!! My heart aches for you and I am praying so hard that you get your sticky bean VERY VERY soon, you deserve it, and your miracle WILL come. I wish there was something I could say or do to take away your pain, but I want to offer tons and tons of

[midgetlb6]

Sweetie I love you to pieces and I'm sorry I have been so slammed lately but cheer up sounds to me like your gearing up for an O and you should be DTD,sometime's a pregnancy can fix what ever may have been wrong before even if it ended way before it was supposed to, so I say get busy with every other day and see what happens even if it is an unmedicated cycle use this to get back into the swing of things. I know your hurting and I completely understand your pain and I wish I could tell you it would go away but I would be lying to you and you know I would not ever lie to you. I've been more accused of being to honest even brutal at times lol. I say hug your self allow yourself to mourn for as long as you need to but don't waste this cycle, many woman myself included were told cant get pregnant without med's and there are millions that prove it wrong every day.

[auntmommy]

Oh I so feel for you, reading this broke my heart and brought back memories of my miscarriage last May. It took me a long time to feel like myself again after my miscarriage and DnC. I just felt off for a most of the summer. I also have thyroid problems so that might have been some of my problems but I also think it was the emotional part that had me feeling off. Miscarriage is hard and I just took it one day at a time. I had no desire to dtd but it did get better. My Dh and I spent a lot of time together and that helped us both heal. I'm not sure about the CD11 bleeding but maybe you are getting ready to O and like pp said try to dtd. I hope the confusion is cleared up soon in regards to your cycles and hope this next cycle brings you your long awaited little one. You have been in my thoughts.

[Lunarmoon]

I wish I could give you more than just hugs!!! I am so sad for you!

[mariahpoo2]

and FX that your body is gearing up for a super O.

[Leah26]

Thank you ladies so much for all of your support. Sorry it's taken me so long to respond I was gone over the weekend which really helped. I've never been camping before where it could really count as camping anyway. DH and I went with my parents up to the highest peak in Virginia to camp. It's also pretty close to where we live but far enough away from civilization it's what we really needed. We did a huge hike the first day and a smaller one the second day and just being out and away from it all made me feel a little better. This is the only thing I've done since the m/c that didn't have direct associations with the m/c or with babies. I did think while we were there what camping would be like with a baby or a small child and how we would do it because we'd like to continue camping but it didn't make me sad. Oh and DH and I managed to DTD and it was my idea which hasn't happened since the m/c. It just made me sad but I feel like maybe I'm starting to finally crawl out of the dark hole I was in after all of this happened. I'm still sad and hurting as I imagine I will for a long time but now I just have to survive two more weeks and then I'll be back on fertility meds and I'll know we at least have a chance. Thank you so much for all of your kind words. I'd go insane without all of you wonderful women to talk to.

[Lunarmoon]

I'm so sorry that you have been suffering! I wish I could take away that pain. I am glad though you are doing better and that you only have two more weeks left! I cannot wait for you to have a baby to take camping with you! Maybe we will be in the same DD room soon!