Feeling discouraged

[momma_k807]

I'm not sure what my problem is this time around but my heart just isn't into bf'ing like it was with my son. It's so hard. I mean now that she is no longer tongue tied and my boobs have healed it's easy in that sense. What's hard is the constant feeling and wanting to be held while trying to take care of a toddler by myself. My husband is home during the day but most of the time he is sleeping because he worked a 10-12 hour shift over night. Then in the evenings/nights I'm all alone. It's so hard being tied down to the couch and feeling like I can't even get 5 minutes to myself. I feel like I can't go away from the house unless I bring the baby and if I do go somewhere without her I'm rushing and have so much anxiety about getting home in case she is hungry. I got a new pump so I could pump and I can't ever find the time. If I pump in front of my toddler he is constantly leaning over me trying to mess with the pump. And if the baby is awake she will just scream because I put her in the bouncer. And if my husband is awake it just seems like it's a hassle for me to slip away for 10 minutes. It's just frustrating. My husband is supportive but I think we are both under a lot of stress. Our son has been testing and testing and testing us so we are both stressed from that. I just wish I could enjoy it like I did the first time around with my son.

Plus I go back to work at the begining of July. In my current job our office support quit so now I have to give up my office and be swamped at the front desk. I have no idea how I'm going to get away to pump 3 times a day when I'm the only support person. I'm looking into changing jobs and have been talking with another employer. The only down side there is there offices only have 3 offices (which are taken) and then it's a bunch of cubes. Since it's less then 50 employees they don't have to providing a spot to pump. So I'm stressed and have so much anxiety about it over what I'm going to do when I go back to work.

I'm sure alot of this is why Im having a hard time enjoying it. I know it's best for her. Maybe it's the PPD talking, I don't know. I'm just so discouraged.

[runningmomofmany]

you are around 6wks? Prime time for a hormonal shift. Keep at it, it will get easier.

[MommyShannon]

[Irish-Eyes]

The first three months are HARD when the is a toddler in the mix. It will get easier though once baby is out of the fourth trimester.

[dunegirl]

hang in there!! I don't know what it's like nursing a little one while havIng a toddle around but the way you're feeling sound a lot like how I felt with my dd. It will get easier!! Do you think you may have ppd? I waited sooo long until I got help with my ppd and I wish I wouldn't have.

[tanyachap]

Hugs sweetie. It will get better!

[AshleyT]

Do you have a baby carrier? The Moby was a lifesaver the first couple of months. He would go right to sleep in it and I could be hands free with a happy baby. I use a Boba now and it's a lifesaver too!

[momma_k807]

I had PPD with my son and I'm positive it's coming back again this time around. I go to my doctors on Wednesday and I'm definitely looking forward to taking something to help.

As for the carrier, we do have an Ergo (I bought the infant insert) she does like it most of the time. I have been using it when we go outside and for some things around the house.

[Bridget]

I agree to try and push through. It will get better. Big hugs to you!

[Smplyme89]

Many mama

[Joie]

Hugs. My girls are 2 years and 3 weeks apart, and my husband also works overnights. What worked for me is getting my toddler involved in baby care. She could "help" change diapers, and bathe the baby, and even nurse (she still sometimes holds my boobie while baby sister nurses). I also made sure to keep some snacks handy so that my toddler could get them herself if she needed to. She loves to be self sufficient. Ultimately, it takes time. It's a learning curve for the entire family. Getting help for your ppd will help immensely. I suffer from ppd also, and once my meds kicked in things really fell into place.

[rachoochoo]

Lots of mama. It is so much tougher with a toddler and the first few months are a killer. It does get easier though I promise! Hang in there!