I hope that no one take offense at this or thinks I am asking a stupid question.

I have bouts of depression and anxiety. It's carryover from a very abusive baby/childhood. I've had specialist see some mild grey matter damage from abuse that could cause me to chemically not always be balanced moodwise (of course this is theory) and I have been told that when you grow up in a dangerous situation, that the body doesn't know how to turn the fight or flight mechanism off and you can get anxiety or depression when you don't "need" to.

Anyway, I know that some people don't agree with this and that is fine. It sounds good but also sounds like a lot of scientific guesses for something that isn't easy to explain. All I know is that I have problems with depression when there is no reason to be depressed and anxiety when there is no reason to be anxious.

Well I am having a bout of very bad depression and anxiety. I feel terrible, crying, panic attacks, feeling that the world will be better if I wasn't in it. I am trying to trudge through it, got some new medicine from my shrink. I will go back to work tomorrow. I have been through this before and know this is all not permanent and is not true but it really is hard to keep perspective some moments. I've been reading a lot of God's promises to bolster me up and they help some.

Well my MIL says that this is a demon attack. She said that my DH got a promotion, we've been going to church, we've really gotten back into reading our Bibles, family prayer, and other stuff we had been ignoring for a long time and the devil wants to steal our joy and keep us from God. I do believe in evil and the presence of evil but...well I don't know about me being important enough to "attack". I mean what would be the point?

Do people really believe that? I thought that was sort of an old fashioned notion of mental illness. Is my MIL just being weird? She tends to have some pretty conservative and simple understandings of Biblical things - which is not a bad thing, she just is not terribly sophisticated.

Thank you for humoring me and giving me your Christian perspectives. I really look at this as a physical illness with mental manifestations and could even see that evil would take advantage of my weakness in order to bring me down...but is this just demon attack?!