What I mean is did you feel like you could handle adding a child into your life while you were pregnant or were you freaked out a bit while pregnant? If you were freaked out or unsure about it all, when did you find peace that it was all ok? Was it during the pregnancy? Or after the delivery?
I suspect what I am feeling now (freaked out, unprepared, generally nervous about how the baby will work into our family) is kind of normal. While pregnant with all my other kids I never once questioned my ability or nerve when it came to adding one more child to the mix. Well now So much is swirling around in my brain I am concerned that this last child might just push me over the edge...so to speak.