I wish I could just be excited

[mamamanda]

I hate how for most women pregnancy=baby. I want to be excited SO BAD, but I don't want to set myself up for another heartbreak. My most recent m/c in December came after seeing the heartbeat and having morning sickness, 2 things that are supposed to mean a healthy pregnancy. I can't even relax after my first visit. I just needed to vent.

[ZsaZsa]

Totally understandable. We didn't feel elation until after the NT Scan around 12w. Hang in there! Sticky dust

[haydensmom]

I totally understand!! I didn't really start relaxing and bonding with this baby until I could feel consistent movement and when we had our 20wk ultrasound. It got better from there on out but I still worry about everything. It's so different to be pregnant after a loss.

[mamamanda]

I have my first appointment next Friday and I'm scared that there won't be a heartbeat, and I'm scared that there will be a heartbeat but we will lose the baby anyway. I just want to relax and enjoy this pregnancy like other women get to. I'm glad there's moms in here who understand.

[Marquette Fan]

My situation was slightly different but I never got the excited feeling either b/c of my fears. For me, I had to accept the fact that I wasn't going to be as excited with my third pregnancy as I had been with the first two b/c of the fears. By doing that, I didn't feel guilty for the lack of excitement. I was thrilled to be having another baby but it was a very scary ride - thank goodness for my incredible OB and her nurse - never could have made it through without them.

I hope your first appointment goes well next week - .

[mamamanda]

Thank you Erica. I think that's exactly it...I just need to accept the fact that I'm not going to be excited at this point. Probably not until after 12 weeks or when i feel movement like Jess said. I just wish there was something definitive that the doctor could do at my first visit to say that its a 100% certainty that everything will turn out ok. I know that won't happen, but I wish it could.
Anyone else forget they're pregnant? I find that I do, simply because I'm not letting myself dwell on it too much.

[zuby13]

I had my first miscarriage even before I found out I was pregnant, so no baby on ultrasound, no nothing. We conceived again after 9 months of trying and yesterday was my first appointment. We saw the heartbeat and it did not feel real, I feel like it's all a dream and am trying really hard to not feel so excited.

This being our first such experience it's hard to contain the thrill, we have decided to go with the flow and leave the rest to God. I too am waiting to enter the second trimester but the wait seems sooo long...

Don't worry hon...all will be okay..keep positive.

[Lisa1227]

This is my third pregnancy after 2 losses, i am right now at the same point I lost the first one. I am so scared and cant get excited. I feel horrible like im being a bad mom to this new baby!

[mamamanda]

My 2nd ultrasound is coming up tomorrow. I am so scared, but also excited. I'm just afraid I'm going to have my heart broken once again.

[RockStarAriel]

I hope your ultrasound goes well tomorrow!

I understand your fears. I had a m/c in February at 8 weeks and got pregnant again right away, even though my doctor told me to wait a few months. I am 12 weeks now and everything appears to be going well, but I will probably continue to be scared until I can start feeling the baby moving or something.

[Marquette Fan]

My 2nd ultrasound is coming up tomorrow. I am so scared, but also excited. I'm just afraid I'm going to have my heart broken once again.

Thinking of you today - hioe the u/s goes well -