what i have decided to do is keep the child and try my best to give it a good life. if i can not give it that life then i will put it up for an open adoption. I realize now i could never give up my child unless i know for a fact i couldnt do better for it than an adoptive family. im going to try my hardest and hope it will get easier in time but for right now i belive this is best for both me emotionally and my child