IVF - Sisters

[mmd08d]

I'm getting so excited for you!! I know, the med list is insane. They break my med stuff up between 'suppression' and 'stimulation'. That way I don't get overwhelmed by the amounts of meds. I only know my suppression stuff for sure. I know I start dexamethasone & lupron on 5/5. The z-pak I start after I finish BCPs on 5/10. I start my stimulation stuff on 5/22. I guess they'll tell me that stuff when it's time! I do the ovidrel trigger too! And the progesterone, but I don't know about the vivelle patch. They haven't mentioned it. SO overwhelming huh? I know I'm going to be psycho about trying to make sure I'm taking the right stuff at the right time!!

You might be surprised with the injections...the stimulation ones are supposedly just in the small amount of fat below the skin, so small needle, like people use for insulin. It's the progesterone that i'm worried about...it goes deep into the muscle, like vaccinations. EEK!! I do NOT like shots...at all!! We'll have to support each other thru it!!

Please keep me posted on tomorrow. I'm looking forward to hearing how it goes!! HUGS and best wishes!!!

[janieleigh501]

Jodi- I know the med list is super overwhelming! I kept a list of each med I needed to take each day and crossed it off when I took it so I wouldnt forget. It seemed to help me. What is the drink you are doing? I havent ever heard of that before. Good luck tomorrow with your shg and tet! Im so excited for you that you are getting started!

Monica- yeah for a good shg and tet! What a big fat pain about the lupron! Im sorry that you had to deal with that, but you are so right your stims will be way more expensive! I unfortunately have had to pay out of pocket for everything both times. I hope everything goes super smooth from here on out!

Afm I am 4dp5dt and am going crazy! I hate this waiting. I wish I could just fast forward til next week. My final beta is on monday and it cant come soon enough. Any prayers would be grately appreciated!

[mmd08d]

Prayers coming your way Janie for sure!!

The waiting has got be just the worst part. I'm having trouble waiting, and I'm just waiting to get to the actual transfer!

[Mrs.PMAL]

Bailie am I right in thinking your meeting is tomorrow? Wishing you the best! Please keep us posted!

Bailie - I hope everything goes well! Please keep us posted ok? I sincerely hope you can get something figured out!
Monica and Janie - I start bc pills today!!! Holy cow - I'm almost freaking out. I still can't believe it's moving along like it is!!! We had an ultra sound yesterday and signed all the paperwork and consent forms. I felt like I was buying a house with everything we had to sign and initial. ;) Blood work was for both of us yesterday as well, so now it's wait until my practice retrieval next Tuesday. I'll get my list of meds and tell you those later ok? I think they are pretty much the same as you two. A few different ones maybe, but they are all in the same family I'm sure. How are you two doing? Did you start your pills Monica?
Janie - I'll be thinking and praying for you! How many will they transfer this time????
HUGS TO YOU ALL!!!

Monica- I actually had to do another fresh cycle. I participated in a study my first cycle which kinda messed up the number of eggs I got, but I got a beautiful little girl so it worked out perfectly. I know there are a million things that are overwhelming and the lack of control, not knowing the details etc. Try to take a deep breath. So very excited for you!

Jodi- thanks for thinking about me! We are tentatively having the transfer thursday unless my ohss is too bad. Then we will have to freeze everything and do a fet in a couple months. Im praying that isnt the case! Im so glad you are moving right along! the trial transfer is a breeze, so dont stress about that!

Bailie- I hope you and your dh can get some answes from the re and move forward with a plan you are comfortable with!

Thank you all so much for your support. Unfortunately I wasn't able to meet with her like I had planned My frustration with this whole process is increasing by the day.

I am sooo happy for you all! and I'm sorry I haven't been on much its been crazy busy here. You all are getting my prayers and babydust! I will be on more now and I will keep you all posted

[Mrs.PMAL]

Janie I am crossing everything I can cross for you and sending tons of prayers!

[ladybugs]

Thank you all so much for your support. Unfortunately I wasn't able to meet with her like I had planned My frustration with this whole process is increasing by the day.

I am sooo happy for you all! and I'm sorry I haven't been on much its been crazy busy here. You all are getting my prayers and babydust! I will be on more now and I will keep you all posted

thinking of you Bailie

[mmd08d]

Oh Bailie, darn it! I'm sorry that the meeting didn't go according to plan. It is a frustrating process, I know it. My thoughts and prayers are with you!!

[Toad1979]

I'm getting so excited for you!! I know, the med list is insane. They break my med stuff up between 'suppression' and 'stimulation'. That way I don't get overwhelmed by the amounts of meds. I only know my suppression stuff for sure. I know I start dexamethasone & lupron on 5/5. The z-pak I start after I finish BCPs on 5/10. I start my stimulation stuff on 5/22. I guess they'll tell me that stuff when it's time! I do the ovidrel trigger too! And the progesterone, but I don't know about the vivelle patch. They haven't mentioned it. SO overwhelming huh? I know I'm going to be psycho about trying to make sure I'm taking the right stuff at the right time!!

You might be surprised with the injections...the stimulation ones are supposedly just in the small amount of fat below the skin, so small needle, like people use for insulin. It's the progesterone that i'm worried about...it goes deep into the muscle, like vaccinations. EEK!! I do NOT like shots...at all!! We'll have to support each other thru it!!

Please keep me posted on tomorrow. I'm looking forward to hearing how it goes!! HUGS and best wishes!!!

The follistim injections I didn't like because they really stung. I think that's why I'll have a hard time doing it myself, you know? I didn't know that about the progesterone though.... that sucks! Now I'm REALLY freaking out!
The trial transfer went well except I was miserable from having to pee so bad. I hate it that they make you have a full bladder for that!!! They barely pressed on my lower belly and I thought I was going to explode! He even let me go to the bathroom to relieve myself a little bit!!! How nice is that?
I also had an ultra sound to look at my growing follie's. Everything looked good and there are plenty. In fact, based on how I responded to the extra follistim with my last IUI, he's only going to start with half the meds. We don't want to run the chance of over stimulation. I'm not looking forward to it because I'm just a little vain... it makes you bloated and feel gross about yourself. At least that's how I felt when I was on the meds for the IUI. I know it's going to be a lot worse, plus they told me I might gain a few pounds. I realize it's a small price to pay, but I'm one of those people that has struggled with my image for a LONG time. And what's sad is that I'm not over weight. I'm short and small (at least that's what everyone says). Does all this sound crazy? I mean, if I get preggo (especially with twins), I know I'll gain weight. I know my body will change. I'm actually looking forward to that. But up until it happens, I'd like to be my size and not gain weight BEFORE the pregnancy. I'm sure people reading this are going to think I'm a loon, someone who is vain, and possibly not prepared for what's to come. That's really not the case at all. This is an issue that I've unfortunately dealt with for a very long time. It's not easy to get over just like that, you know?
Anyway.... sorry for the rant! Maybe it's because I'm on the pill and starting to get p*ssy about everything, you know?

[Toad1979]

Thank you all so much for your support. Unfortunately I wasn't able to meet with her like I had planned My frustration with this whole process is increasing by the day.

I am sooo happy for you all! and I'm sorry I haven't been on much its been crazy busy here. You all are getting my prayers and babydust! I will be on more now and I will keep you all posted

When do you think you'll be able to have a meeting? I'm hoping and praying for you! We all know how frustrating this process is, so feel free to vent anytime about anything!!! I hope to see you on here more and continue to chat and support eachother!!!

[Toad1979]

[QUOTE=janieleigh501;1058207249]Jodi- I know the med list is super overwhelming! I kept a list of each med I needed to take each day and crossed it off when I took it so I wouldnt forget. It seemed to help me. What is the drink you are doing? I havent ever heard of that before. Good luck tomorrow with your shg and tet! Im so excited for you that you are getting started!

Thanks!!! You can see my post below to Monica. It went pretty good except for having to pee so bad!!!
That's a good idea on the meds... I will probably have to do the same thing. I'm a list person anyway. Sometimes I'll just sit there and make lists and do nothing with them! It makes me feel accomplished.
I'm thinking about you and your results. How do you feel? And can you take a HPT, or will you wait for the blood draw?

[mmd08d]

Oh Jodi I'm so glad things went well for you today!! As for vanity, I've already started researching stretch mark creams. :-0 LOL!

So you had follies growing already? Even on the BCPs? That makes me feel better because so did I. I was worried that they'd grow too much and I'd ovulate or something! My boobs hurt today, and I'm still spotting. These BCPs are making me crazy!!

[janieleigh501]

Thank you girls for all the support and prayers! I will probably do an hpt because my dh wont be home when they call with the results on monday. I just havent decided when yet. With my first ivf I waited for the clinic to call and then took a hpt just to see the positive! Anyways I will kup.

Jodi- glad everything went good today! I always hate the full bladder thing too and never get it full enough cause its so uncomfortable.... I understand not wanting to put on weight before getting pregnant. I did put on like 7 pounds the first time but this time I have managed to only put on like 2 or 3. The hormones and steroids are a bad combination! I just knew that weight would count towards pregnancy weight gain. Hang in there!

Bailie- I am so very sorry things havent been working out. I hope you can get a meeting scheduled very soon!

[Toad1979]

Oh Jodi I'm so glad things went well for you today!! As for vanity, I've already started researching stretch mark creams. :-0 LOL!

So you had follies growing already? Even on the BCPs? That makes me feel better because so did I. I was worried that they'd grow too much and I'd ovulate or something! My boobs hurt today, and I'm still spotting. These BCPs are making me crazy!!

Oh yeah, I definitely had many little guys in there. It's amazing to see isn't it? All those little blobs on the screen!
Shoot - I remember my first pregnancy. I took a few HPT and as soon as I got my positive, I was buying stretch mark creams!!!!! Remember I told you I was a consultant for Arbonne? I thought you said one of your friends did it. Ask her about the body firming cream. I know it's great for stretch marks, but I'm sure it's good for preventing them too! I plan on slathering that all over my belly once it's time!
My boobs don't hurt yet... but I really just got over my period. I started spotting the week before last. It was super light which is weird for me, but whatever. I just thought it was a light period. Then all of a sudden last Wednesday or Thursday, I start bleeding pretty good. I was like WTF????
I always spot a few days before, but never for a solid week before. We all assumed it was a light period and started me on the pill. Anyway, they said it wouldn't screw me up so that's good. I just wish I was further along in this cycle. I'm anxious and constantly anticipating what's coming up next!!! Since you'll be doing your stuff before me, you HAVE to keep me updated!!!

[Mrs.PMAL]

Jodi:
we are women we are supposed to be a little vain! lol..Don't you worry a bit about what other people reading that might think its totally normal.

Monica: Glad that things are going well for you but you're freaking me out about the shots

Janie: KUP on what you decide to do as far as poas!

AFM: I talked to the financial lady at my REs office yesterday and they won't do any sort of in house financing. I love my doctor but had to make the decision to see about finding a new doctor that will do in house financing. I found a doctor in Vegas and they will do 90days 0% interest and finance the remaining amount after that. The cycles there are also a bit less which is nice. My DH said that he would go for that so I have a consult with her next week to go over protocols and such so we can get the ball rolling finally! I may not be too far behind you ladies after all

[Toad1979]

AFM: I talked to the financial lady at my REs office yesterday and they won't do any sort of in house financing. I love my doctor but had to make the decision to see about finding a new doctor that will do in house financing. I found a doctor in Vegas and they will do 90days 0% interest and finance the remaining amount after that. The cycles there are also a bit less which is nice. My DH said that he would go for that so I have a consult with her next week to go over protocols and such so we can get the ball rolling finally! I may not be too far behind you ladies after all [/QUOTE]

Yay for you!!! My doc didn't do any in house either. They send you to CosmetiCredit (I think that's how it's spelled). They were ridiculous! If not paid in FULL after 6 months, they charge you 29% interest. Who is that gonna work for???
I'm glad you found a place that does in house and will work with you! I can't wait to hear about your appointment. I hope you like her!!!

[Toad1979]

So, I have kind of a serious question for everyone. How/what are you doing to stay positive and not stress during this whole thing? I'm finding myself more stressed and worried that it's not going to happen. Putting that and everything else together (life in general), I feel like I'm constantly moody and p*ssed off.
It's weird - for a LONG time now, I talked about IVF like I knew it would come to it. I just KNEW that my first IUI wouldn't work. With the second one, I was more hopeful because of my eqq quantity and quality. However, I still talked about IVF. I would say things like "if it comes to IVF, at least I know it's more of a for sure thing", or "if we do IVF, then I'll get my two babies out in one shot!". You know, stuff like that. And I've always had these visions and thoughts of twins. CONSTANTLY. Maybe it's more of a hope, but now that I'm doing IVF, it's very probable. What's funny though, is when it was decided that this is the way to go, I was still a little shocked. I almost couldn't believe that we ended up being one of those couples who is going through with this! I mean, it's a HUGE commitment, right?
Anyway, when it was decided that IVF is the only option, I was freaked because of the whole money situation. I told myself "once we know if hubby's grandparents will help us out, I'll be SOOO happy!"
Well, obviously they did. Yes, I was happy for a few days... I still am. But instead of focusing on that and everything else that was good (normal blood work and ultra sounds, moving forward with the whole process), I'm finding myself to be anxious, moody and scared to death that it won't work. I made the mistake of looking at the IVF success stories on this board. There's a few ladies who it DIDN'T work for, for the first time. If money wasn't an issue, I wouldn't be so scared for that, but if it doesn't work for us, I don't know how we'll be able to do it again. It's one thing to get a loan from his grandparents for the one time, but a second time? I seriously doubt it.
Another thing that sucks is my job. It's not miserable per say, but we are constantly busy. Plus, I work with my brother in law. We're like best friends, but sometimes he's all over the place and it drives me nuts. He tends to freak out over everything (it's his business) and maybe it's because we're family, but it makes it really hard for me. Does that make sense? I want so badly to yell at him and say "Look dude. This is my time and I can't be stressed out all the time during the week. I have enough going on as it is, so chill out"! However, if I said that it would hurt his feelings so bad. I can't do that to him!!!
I'm constantly working out, and that does help. I should start yoga again, but my patience seems thin with that right now. I'm for sure going to start acupuncture as well, but not for a few weeks. I don't know what to do! I guess I'm scared that my fears and stress are going to not let this work. Everyone always says how important it is to be calm and happy and remain stress free. Well, how are we supposed to do that when we're giving ourselves shots every day, popping pills, having hot flashes, dealing with bloat, water retention.... HELLO!!!!! It's all a little overwhelming!!!
Anyway, I'll stop my rant now. If anybody has any positive things to say - especially you ladies who have been there done that, please tell me! I'm lucky I just started the whole process... maybe I can get a handle on it now before it goes out of control, you know???

[Mrs.PMAL]

So, I have kind of a serious question for everyone. How/what are you doing to stay positive and not stress during this whole thing? I'm finding myself more stressed and worried that it's not going to happen. Putting that and everything else together (life in general), I feel like I'm constantly moody and p*ssed off.
It's weird - for a LONG time now, I talked about IVF like I knew it would come to it. I just KNEW that my first IUI wouldn't work. With the second one, I was more hopeful because of my eqq quantity and quality. However, I still talked about IVF. I would say things like "if it comes to IVF, at least I know it's more of a for sure thing", or "if we do IVF, then I'll get my two babies out in one shot!". You know, stuff like that. And I've always had these visions and thoughts of twins. CONSTANTLY. Maybe it's more of a hope, but now that I'm doing IVF, it's very probable. What's funny though, is when it was decided that this is the way to go, I was still a little shocked. I almost couldn't believe that we ended up being one of those couples who is going through with this! I mean, it's a HUGE commitment, right?
Anyway, when it was decided that IVF is the only option, I was freaked because of the whole money situation. I told myself "once we know if hubby's grandparents will help us out, I'll be SOOO happy!"
Well, obviously they did. Yes, I was happy for a few days... I still am. But instead of focusing on that and everything else that was good (normal blood work and ultra sounds, moving forward with the whole process), I'm finding myself to be anxious, moody and scared to death that it won't work. I made the mistake of looking at the IVF success stories on this board. There's a few ladies who it DIDN'T work for, for the first time. If money wasn't an issue, I wouldn't be so scared for that, but if it doesn't work for us, I don't know how we'll be able to do it again. It's one thing to get a loan from his grandparents for the one time, but a second time? I seriously doubt it.
Another thing that sucks is my job. It's not miserable per say, but we are constantly busy. Plus, I work with my brother in law. We're like best friends, but sometimes he's all over the place and it drives me nuts. He tends to freak out over everything (it's his business) and maybe it's because we're family, but it makes it really hard for me. Does that make sense? I want so badly to yell at him and say "Look dude. This is my time and I can't be stressed out all the time during the week. I have enough going on as it is, so chill out"! However, if I said that it would hurt his feelings so bad. I can't do that to him!!!
I'm constantly working out, and that does help. I should start yoga again, but my patience seems thin with that right now. I'm for sure going to start acupuncture as well, but not for a few weeks. I don't know what to do! I guess I'm scared that my fears and stress are going to not let this work. Everyone always says how important it is to be calm and happy and remain stress free. Well, how are we supposed to do that when we're giving ourselves shots every day, popping pills, having hot flashes, dealing with bloat, water retention.... HELLO!!!!! It's all a little overwhelming!!!
Anyway, I'll stop my rant now. If anybody has any positive things to say - especially you ladies who have been there done that, please tell me! I'm lucky I just started the whole process... maybe I can get a handle on it now before it goes out of control, you know???

Honey just take a deep breath!
I understand your stress at work and how it is sometimes difficult to work with family. I own a business with my mother in law and since she doesn't konow we are going through all of this it complicates things some more. Try just having a talk with him make it more about you than him just explain that you are really stressed and you need him to help you stay calm by staying calm himself.

I know I am not quite at the same spot as you ladies but I still struggle with the what-ifs and the how-comes and all of that. Some days I feel like its not going to happen and we are going to spend all that money and it won't work and we will have no money left over to do it again and I know my DH is really concerned with money. I think Yoga is a good thing for you to get back into a calm mood. However I am one of those people that 'quiet time' is kind of not good foer..I usually end up with my brain carrying away with me.

Hugs babe! hope that you can put some of this fear aside and try to be positive but in the mean time we are here for you!!

[mmd08d]

Oh, Jodi hang in there!! I know that this is a rocky process, but I keep reminding myself that there is nothing worth having that isn't worth working for. If your ultimate goal is to be a mom, don't let the garbage of everyday life get in the way of that! I get concerned about the procedure too, and worry that it won't work. That is my biggest worry. The truth is, whether it works or not (and I do pray that it will, for the BOTH of us!) is ultimately out of our hands. Don't allow yourself to get so worried about the stress levels, etc that you ultimately end up feeling like YOU are the one who is in control of whether it works or not. That just leaves loads of room in the end for guilt and frustration if it doesn't work for some reason (and again, I pray it will!). Allow yourself some time to reflect and relax. But also remember that your brother in law can ONLY cause you as much stress as you allow him. If he is beginning to stress you out (and it sounds like that isn't his true intention) just remind yourself that HE is stressed...not you. Don't allow yourself to take his stress on to you. I don't say this just for the sake of the IVF working, but rather I say it just for living every day life. We can't let other's stress/anger/fear press into us. Then we just end up stressed/angry/afraid all the time!! Just remember that YOU are doing everything in your power to take the best care of yourself possible.

Personally (since you asked how I am dealing with it), I'm trusting God that He will open doors that should be open, and close doors that should be closed. Beyond that, I have to trust that there is a perfect plan for my life and it will unfold just as it is supposed to. That is my way of handling the stress. When I feel anxiety coming on, I pray, and take a few minutes of time to myself (got a pedicure yesterday - which I do find so relaxing!)

Okay, so I got really long winded! LOL Just remember to take time for yourself, know your limits and your boundaries (and ENFORCE your boundaries - remove yourself when BIL starts to stress you out, or kindly mention something to him) and TRUST that things will be okay...regardless of the results. They will be okay!

[Mrs.PMAL]

Oh, Jodi hang in there!! I know that this is a rocky process, but I keep reminding myself that there is nothing worth having that isn't worth working for. If your ultimate goal is to be a mom, don't let the garbage of everyday life get in the way of that! I get concerned about the procedure too, and worry that it won't work. That is my biggest worry. The truth is, whether it works or not (and I do pray that it will, for the BOTH of us!) is ultimately out of our hands. Don't allow yourself to get so worried about the stress levels, etc that you ultimately end up feeling like YOU are the one who is in control of whether it works or not. That just leaves loads of room in the end for guilt and frustration if it doesn't work for some reason (and again, I pray it will!). Allow yourself some time to reflect and relax. But also remember that your brother in law can ONLY cause you as much stress as you allow him. If he is beginning to stress you out (and it sounds like that isn't his true intention) just remind yourself that HE is stressed...not you. Don't allow yourself to take his stress on to you. I don't say this just for the sake of the IVF working, but rather I say it just for living every day life. We can't let other's stress/anger/fear press into us. Then we just end up stressed/angry/afraid all the time!! Just remember that YOU are doing everything in your power to take the best care of yourself possible.

Personally (since you asked how I am dealing with it), I'm trusting God that He will open doors that should be open, and close doors that should be closed. Beyond that, I have to trust that there is a perfect plan for my life and it will unfold just as it is supposed to. That is my way of handling the stress. When I feel anxiety coming on, I pray, and take a few minutes of time to myself (got a pedicure yesterday - which I do find so relaxing!)

Okay, so I got really long winded! LOL Just remember to take time for yourself, know your limits and your boundaries (and ENFORCE your boundaries - remove yourself when BIL starts to stress you out, or kindly mention something to him) and TRUST that things will be okay...regardless of the results. They will be okay!

Very good thoughts Monica!

[janieleigh501]

Oh, Jodi hang in there!! I know that this is a rocky process, but I keep reminding myself that there is nothing worth having that isn't worth working for. If your ultimate goal is to be a mom, don't let the garbage of everyday life get in the way of that! I get concerned about the procedure too, and worry that it won't work. That is my biggest worry. The truth is, whether it works or not (and I do pray that it will, for the BOTH of us!) is ultimately out of our hands. Don't allow yourself to get so worried about the stress levels, etc that you ultimately end up feeling like YOU are the one who is in control of whether it works or not. That just leaves loads of room in the end for guilt and frustration if it doesn't work for some reason (and again, I pray it will!). Allow yourself some time to reflect and relax. But also remember that your brother in law can ONLY cause you as much stress as you allow him. If he is beginning to stress you out (and it sounds like that isn't his true intention) just remind yourself that HE is stressed...not you. Don't allow yourself to take his stress on to you. I don't say this just for the sake of the IVF working, but rather I say it just for living every day life. We can't let other's stress/anger/fear press into us. Then we just end up stressed/angry/afraid all the time!! Just remember that YOU are doing everything in your power to take the best care of yourself possible.

Personally (since you asked how I am dealing with it), I'm trusting God that He will open doors that should be open, and close doors that should be closed. Beyond that, I have to trust that there is a perfect plan for my life and it will unfold just as it is supposed to. That is my way of handling the stress. When I feel anxiety coming on, I pray, and take a few minutes of time to myself (got a pedicure yesterday - which I do find so relaxing!)

Okay, so I got really long winded! LOL Just remember to take time for yourself, know your limits and your boundaries (and ENFORCE your boundaries - remove yourself when BIL starts to stress you out, or kindly mention something to him) and TRUST that things will be okay...regardless of the results. They will be okay!

I totally agree with this! Unfortunately we are all on this CRAZY ride of IVF that is SO out of our hands! It is hard and overwhelming and filled with so many ups and downs. I like Monica pray all the time! I am constantly asking God to give me peace and strength to get through each day. I have to take each day (and sometimes hour) as they come... Thinking about all of it makes me so overhwlemed. I am so sorry that you are dealing with all this, but know that it is SO normal to feel exactly what you are feeling. I don't know a single person who has gone through IVF that hasn't felt this way. I have been an emotional wreck all week- am I pregnant, not pregnant! UGHHH!!! I wish I could offer more... Big hugs to you!!!

[janieleigh501]

Well ladies I am driving myself nuts the closer my beta comes! Tomorrow is my first one although they won't call until I have the second one drawn so they can compare the two, make sure they are doubling properly. On that note I think DH and I have decided that I will POAS tomorrow morning.... I am so very nervous. So, I will let you guys know!

[Mrs.PMAL]

Well ladies I am driving myself nuts the closer my beta comes! Tomorrow is my first one although they won't call until I have the second one drawn so they can compare the two, make sure they are doubling properly. On that note I think DH and I have decided that I will POAS tomorrow morning.... I am so very nervous. So, I will let you guys know!

If it makes you feel any better we are all on pins and needles for you! I will be stalking tomorrow as best I can since I will be travelling but I am saying extra prayers for you tonight my dear!

[janieleigh501]

Thank you Bailie!

[Toad1979]

Thanks for your support ladies! I knew I wasn't the only one that felt this way, but it's soooo good and comforting to hear others say it!!! I do pray, but I need to do it more. I go through periods where I pray all the time, then there are others when it's like I don't even think about it! After my first m/c, when I thought I was going to lose my mind, prayer was the only thing that helped me. And that's the honest truth!
I'm really not even sure what else to say at this point. In all honesty, it felt so good to vent to you guys yesterday. Maybe that's what I needed??? I don't think these feelings are going to go away, but it really did help just getting it off my chest. I've vented to my mom and hubby many times, but sometimes I don't think they get it. Hubby does, but it's not HIS body that's going through the roller coaster ride! And as much as I love my mom, sometimes she says stuff I just don't want to hear.
Hubby (whose name is Tavis by the way - I just may refer to him as that from now on), got his s/a today. We're not to worried about it, but they do it anyway and freeze it as well. After we get the results, we'll find out if we do the ICIS - where they inject the sperm directly into the egg. I think our RE does it both ways, so I know he'll probably do a few the normal way (whichever way that is), and do the direct injection thing too. It's all very interesting to say the least!
Again - thanks for all your support and positive words!!! I'm so glad I decided to have my rant. I had actually been debating on it.

[Toad1979]

Well ladies I am driving myself nuts the closer my beta comes! Tomorrow is my first one although they won't call until I have the second one drawn so they can compare the two, make sure they are doubling properly. On that note I think DH and I have decided that I will POAS tomorrow morning.... I am so very nervous. So, I will let you guys know!

Keep us posted!!! You'll be in my thoughts ALL DAY!!! I'll be stalking you a ton tomorrow.

[mmd08d]

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers Janie!!

Jodi - I'm glad it helped to vent! Sometimes that really is all you need - just a safe ear to listen. Big hugs!!

Bailey - Safe travels to you!!

AFM - I'm starting lupron and dexamethasone TONIGHT! EEK! I'm a bit nervous as to what I'll experience on them. Also, my left ovary has been hurting a bit today. I'm hoping all is well and that maybe it is just gas pain or something? I get these occassional sharp twinges in my left ovary (and I usually always ovulate from the left for whatever reason). I'm getting nervously excited!

[Toad1979]

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers Janie!!

Jodi - I'm glad it helped to vent! Sometimes that really is all you need - just a safe ear to listen. Big hugs!!

Bailey - Safe travels to you!!

AFM - I'm starting lupron and dexamethasone TONIGHT! EEK! I'm a bit nervous as to what I'll experience on them. Also, my left ovary has been hurting a bit today. I'm hoping all is well and that maybe it is just gas pain or something? I get these occassional sharp twinges in my left ovary (and I usually always ovulate from the left for whatever reason). I'm getting nervously excited!

I'm freaking out for you!!!!! I'm so curious to know how you feel with everything. I was on my RE's website today.... looking everything over again. I don't know why, but I can read their whole protocol over and over again - I know it by heart, yet it always makes me feel at ease. However, looking at all the meds, was a little nerve wracking! You'll do great as I'm sure we all will.
Now, is the lupron a shot for you? The dex is just a pill correct? Good luck to you! How long do you stay on both???

[Mrs.PMAL]

Monica you have to keep us posted on your side effects and such from all the meds....We are all very curious!

Janie as I said before I will be stalking you tomorrow. Sending an extra prayer just for you

Jodi: Glad that just venting to us helps some thats why we are here. And Praying is always a good reliever for me.

AFM: I am taking a girls trip to Lake Havasu this weekend for good food, good shopping, good company and good worship. Hope this helps me stay sane until next week!

[mmd08d]

Oooh Bailie have fun on your trip! That sounds awesome!!

Janie - Thinking of you!

Jodi - I stop the BCP on the 10th, then I should start my period (or a little light bleeding) and I'll start a Z-pak. I don't know exactly how long I stay on the lupron and dex?? I think I'm still on them for a little while after I take my fertility meds on 5/22. I know what you mean about knowing the protocols by heart! I read that crazy protocol all the time! It just gets me excited I think!! What is new with you? Still hanging out on BCPs? Any side effects?

[Toad1979]

Oooh Bailie have fun on your trip! That sounds awesome!!

Janie - Thinking of you!

Jodi - I stop the BCP on the 10th, then I should start my period (or a little light bleeding) and I'll start a Z-pak. I don't know exactly how long I stay on the lupron and dex?? I think I'm still on them for a little while after I take my fertility meds on 5/22. I know what you mean about knowing the protocols by heart! I read that crazy protocol all the time! It just gets me excited I think!! What is new with you? Still hanging out on BCPs? Any side effects?

As far as side effects go, I haven't really noticed many yet. I did the lupron shot last night, and it didn't really hurt at all. I took the dexamethasone too. Ugh I just HATE putting drugs in my body. Last night when I first got it all ready, I literally wanted to barf. Not because of the meds themselves, but mostly because I hate being on them! I am a nurse though, so I give loads of shots and so I didn't stress or over-think actually giving it to myself. I did it a couple inches from my belly button and it was totally no biggie. Can this be over now?

I'm still on BCP. I think I stay on them for a full month at least. So, another few weeks. It's going by fast, which is good!
No major symptoms except for spotting. Grrr..... I have NEVER spotted while on bc pills. I hate it! I started spotting for my period around the 21st of April. Then last week it got heavier (for a few days). Now it's just been on and off. Poor hubby is bummed - he's been wanting to "get close".
I agree on how it makes you feel putting all these drugs in our body. It really isn't natural, and that's what sucks. We go from being somewhat normal, to being almost menopausal, to being so hyped up on hormones, we won't know what's up or down! It will be totally and completely worth it, but a struggle at the same time.
At least with you being a nurse you're cool with giving yourself a shot! I know I'll get used to is after awhile, but I'm still not looking forward to it. Maybe if the follistim didn't sting so bad it wouldn't be a big deal, you know?
Keep me posted on how you continue to feel! Especially after a few days of having it in your system.