Secular Confessions

[missychrissy]

Christina. You're not a bad Momma. A bad Momma wouldn't be pursuing the issue. You're an excellent Mommy.

Ash. It's so bittersweat.

[daylilies]

Christina You aren't a bad mother until you stop caring.

Aww, that's so sweet about Travis

Josh had another good swim lesson today. Thursday is the last class of the session but I just signed him up for the class again and it starts next week. Sadly it will be a different teacher because his current teacher is leaving the Y on Friday

I have a possibly stupid question...how come nobody calls it the ymca anymore? It's the same thing right? Is it because of that stupid song? LOL

[Smplyme89]

Thanks ladies, I really appreciate the support Just seeing his weight so low really got to me today. Sigh. All I can do, is what I can do

Ash I am glad that Travis had fun! I agree with Chrissy though, it must be very bittersweet I know I have been upset that N took to sleeping in his crib so well

Hopefully it doesn't bother Josh that his current swim teacher is leaving! I have no idea, I still call it YMCA.

[Gwenn]

Christina, you're doing everything you can.

I don't know about the Y, but now I have that song going through my head!

[daylilies]

Christina, you're doing everything you can.

I don't know about the Y, but now I have that song going through my head!

You're welcome!

I'm impressed by little things, but I thought this was kind of neat: I'm a fan of the song "Down" by Jay Sean, it's big on the radio right now. I follow the songwriter who wrote it, Jared Cotter. Well...DH and I are also big Weird Al Yankovic fans and he did a bit of "Down" on his polka medley on his latest album.

On twitter I asked Jared Cotter if he know Weird Al did "Down" in the polka medley and Jared retweeted my question! Then one of Jared's friends, another songwriter for some pop artists today, also retweeted it with the hashtag #youknowyoumadeitwhen

I realize this all means nothing if you don't have twitter...but I thought it was neat.

No DM's from Joe lately though

[Gwenn]

That's cool, Kate! LOL at #youknowyoumadeitwhen!

[Ky'sMom]

Hugs to you Christina. I know it must be very frustrating. Elle went through a period of not gaining weight, from 6 months through 18 months she only gained about 1lb and it was very difficult. Luckily she was older than N and so I felt comfortable giving her extra calories via solid foods. I put butter and oil in almost everything she ate. I fed her egg yolks. I let her eat a scoop of ice cream everyday. It took a while but now she is in the lower end of average. She is 25lbs at nearly 3 years old. To compare, Ky was 25lbs at 9 months, but she has come a long way.

You are doing everything you can to find out what's wrong and are a great mom because of that.

Erin

[Gwenn]

Can I please get some anti-AF vibes? AF is due today but haven't seen her yet. I didn't chart this month but I think the timing might have been good. Chant with me now: No AF ... No AF ... No AF ...

[Ky'sMom]

No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF
No AF

Hope that helps LOL!

Erin

[Gwenn]

LOL! Thanks!

[daylilies]

No AF! *holding signs and picketing*

[AmeriBrit]

Fingers crossed for you, Mandy!

[missychrissy]

ooo....here's hoping Mandy!!!!

[Smplyme89]

Thanks Erin. If we get the go ahead from the specialist next week I am probaby going to start introducing some solids for that exact reason. Although I won't be giving him scoops of ice cream just yet

Mandy (I'm so bad with names) got my fingers and toes crossed for you Stay away AF!!!

[missychrissy]

Maybe you can help me sort this out. You all know I've been no end of exasperated at times with my boss. He's crossed lines, made me furious, and made me even reconsider how much I really want to work with computers (in a desperate attempt to get the heck out). Yet, I don't dislike him. Even when he makes me furious, he can be endearing and for the most part during the past 3+ years I'd have to say he's a good boss when it counts. BUT-I don't forget how obnoxious he can be or that I'm 99% sure he's spying on my personal stuff..maybe even here.

I have a phone interview scheduled on Thursday and right from the first email I got a pit in my stomach about it. The more I think about it, the less I want to do it. I started feeling sad on the bus coming home tonight about a lot of things--moving, worrying about what's really going to happen in our house, how small it is, missing the quiet of where we live now (not to mention all the space we have) and then I thought of that upcoming phone interview. I'm not kidding, I started crying. I thought about really leaving my office, my building, even my boss that I sometimes want to choke and it nearly broke my heart.

What is wrong with me? Is it just too much given all the stress with the move and stuff going on with Bobbie? I tell myself I have to do the phone interview and that just because I have an interview it's no where close to an actual job offer. I know that. What is bugging me is why it seems to be so hard to envision myself moving on when most the time I think I need to.

I'm a mess.

[Gwenn]

Chrissy, I think it's a lot of change for you at the wrong time. Do the phone interview just for the practice, and you can decide at a later point if you want to accept or not if they do make you an offer.

[daylilies]

I agree maybe you're stressed about all the change at once and it's overwhelming.
If you really don't want to change jobs you could just really botch the phone interview!

It's hard to leave something familiar even when it isn't the best situation.

[Ky'sMom]

I also agree that you are in more than one overwhelming situation. With all that is going on, it is completely understandable that you would feel this way. I would go ahead and do the phone interview like Gwenn said for practice at least. But it is totally understandable your reaction, with everything that is going on with you. Honestly I am awed at how well you seem to be holding up. Maybe that contemplative moment was just an emotional release and your body just needed to have that moment. The list you described is stressful the new house, the actual move, what you are giving up, what is going on in your family right now, and now you have to do an interview. The thought of an interview is stressful by itself and it makes sense that you would see your current working situation as something stable in your life, stability is comforting, even with an erratic boss!

Hugs to you. I think of you and your family often and in my heart I know that all of you will be fine. Make sure to take some time and take care of yourself and if you need to cry, go ahead and cry and don't feel bad about it.

Erin

[daylilies]

Sooo I went and got DH's ipad yesterday for his birthday which is tomorrow. When telling DH about our day I mentioned I got him the ipad. "You're not supposed to tell me that" he said, lol. Well, I had already ran it by him because I needed to know what size capacity he needed and if he wanted wifi or 3G...plus I think when he noticed $600 missing from our account he'd know that I bought it...but now I feel dumb and I'm going to go out and buy him a fry daddy also (it's one of those little deep fryers you plug in, and he keeps hinting about them...).

[missychrissy]

You guys are the best. You really know how to make me feel better every time.

Kate, I think that's great you bought him an ipad for his birthday. Of course you'd have to know what to get, those kinds of things are so specific to the person and if it lacked something they wanted they'd never be 100% happy with it. I'm sure I'd have said something to my dh too because he obviously knew he was getting one. At least you have a plan to add a little surprise for him. He's a lucky man!

I have to attempt to register Conner for pre-K today. I can't remember if I mentioned that when I took last Friday off for that purpose I found their offices were closed I have to finish packing my office and then go through the house and look for odds and ends that Rich & the kids might have neglected.

[Cosmosmom]

Chrissy, i agree with the others that just go ahead and do the interview for practice. You can always decide to not take it if there was an offer but at least that gives you time and options if you go ahead and do it.
And you are definitely under a LOT of stress right now. I don't know how you manage to do it.
And I definitely think of you a lot and try to send good vibes (you know since we don't pray and all that! LOL). I even had a dream with you in it. For some reason you were visiting my hometown and you were driving so I was giving you directions. We were going to eat here http://www.yelp.com/biz/big-star-drive-in-kenosha ....it's a kind of famous drive in back home with cheap but tasty burgers, fries, that sort of thing. And they are only open like March through end of the summer. And after we ate there, we were going to go drive down to the lake...Lake Michigan is only a mile or less from Big Star. Kind of a detailed dream for me since I rarely recall my dreams!


Kate, lucky DH for getting an iPad!!! We rarely surprise each other with gifts...especially DH. I tend to know his wants a little better but we don't always do a lot of gift giving. It is hard to hide when all the accounts are joint.

[missychrissy]

I'd love for that dream to come true Jennifer!! Some day!

Packing has hit a standstill. I need about 3-4 more boxes and packing tape. Rich has to buy stuff to fix the bathtub drain, toilet tank (it leaks when flushed) and wire the hot water heater so he's picking up my boxes. Jesi has her appointment at 4 in the same town so when I drop her off I'm going up to the house and grab that stuff from Rich.

I was trying to tear down my computers but I have one ethernet cord stuck in the floor. I don't dare pull it any harder because I don't want to break the little tongue and I'm NOT crawling under the trailer. I'm not sure I'd know how to remove the skirting without breaking something anyway.

I started taking apart my routers and such, but couldn't get my laptop to connect to the DSL's wifi network so I had to plug my Linksys back in. No way am I going all day today without the net!!

Oh, and it pleased me to no end to wrap up my USB and Ethernet cords and tuck them neatly in a sexy stiletto heals shoe box.

[daylilies]

Good luck with the registration! Sorry they were closed Friday! Hope you can wrap up the packing soon. I hate it when you're stuck with no boxes and just want to be done.

I'm so thrilled I've gotten so many new followers on twitter who love nkotb. I finally have peeps to talk to who get me!

[Gwenn]

Chrissy, I'm overwhelmed just reading all that. I hate moving!

Kate, yay for new followers that you can talk to!

AF still hasn't shown up. Keep up the chanting, if you would.

[Cosmosmom]

Ooohhhh chanting away!!!!

[missychrissy]

Kate! That's awesome!

I'm keeping my fingers crossed Mandy!!

Conner might not be eligible for pre-K since he's turning 5 in mid/late Sept. Besides that, they might only have transportation to OR from school but the parents will be responsible for whichever the school doesn't provide. That presents a problem because my mother doesn't drive and the school is too far for Conner to walk every day, especially when it's cold. It looks like I'm going to have to choose between trying to put him in all day kindergarten and just hope he doesn't have a humiliating accident, or having him do nothing for another year. He's so ready for at least a 1/2 day program and the thought of him just hanging out another year breaks my heart. There aren't any preschool programs in town either. Ugh.

[Gwenn]

Oh, no, that's disappointing. I was really hoping you had found a solution that worked for you.

[daylilies]

idk, maybe you can put him in pullups for school and use that as incentive for him to be more aware of when he needs to go?

[daylilies]

Oh, and I'm still picketing for no AF, Mandy!

[Smplyme89]

A rock and a hard place Chrissy

Still picketing AF Mandy!!! When do you plan on testing??