Well you'll just have to wear them again ;) Have you done garters before? I think they're such a PITA. LOL
I'm just going to do it. I'm not obligated to buy anything...I just hope for 1 decent enough shot that I can have printed and framed. If Rich behaves, it'll be his Christmas present. If not, it'll be something for me to look back on when I'm an old lady.
I've never worn garters before. One of the things I bought from Victorias Secret has hooks attached to the bottom for the thigh highs, so I'll get an experience of some sort with them.
I figure with the other ones, I can have pics taken of me putting them on maybe.
How cute!! Today Lorelai said "mommy, I miss _____" (an adorable little boy from school). I said "oh, was he gone today?" She said yes, that he was at Disneyland. I said wow, how fun, yadda yadda yadda and she said "I just love _____. He's so cute!"
Chrissy...you don't wear lingerie to SLEEP in...
Bridget, I think it is time to ex-friend this prepubescent boy.
Me: Julie-46 DH: Kelly-52 DD: Rhianna-17 DS: Gage-He's 3!
You all have me in stitches with your accidental ballet and talk of number of children resulting from number of times you've had sex. That reminds me of that Monty Python movie, where the protestants only had sex the two times they needed to have it for their two children
I need to put Annie in gymnastics soon. I didn't get her in the first session this year, which was stupid. She really needs it.
I can't see Conner following instructions through a class. AnnieEek signed Henry up for fencing classes...I need to ask her how he's doing with that. She posted pics of him on Facebook and he was just too dang cute!
Travis makes me laugh with the things he says...he picks up EVERYTHING we say and repeats it a lot. Today when Cash started fussing in the car, he turned to him and said, "It's otay, baby boy..it's otay..." LOL
I was really urging Kai to join dance when Savana did and first he was down with it until he realized we couldn't be in the room with him. He said he's not ready for stranger teachers yet.
I am buggin out right now because the woman I've been communicating with about helping me out in my daycare when I have the baby just emailed me and said her situation has changed and she won't be able to do it. BUGGER! I need to find someone.
I confess that I love love love my in-laws. We live next door to them and I wouldn't have it any other way. Is that tacky?
Today a couple of Mormon missionaries came to my church class and talked to us. It was very interesting and informative. I thought the kids were going to be withdrawn and not have any questions but they had quite a few great questions. The missionaries were very nice and respectful towards our views--I don't know why I was expecting them to come in and be all judgemental but they weren't at all.
Okay guys, I have figured out what the major problem is, I think. I feel like I'm having an identity crisis or something. I feel like that when I'm away from DH and Josh, I know what I want to do and who I want to be, but I feel like DH brings out the worst in me and this past year with Josh has brought out parts of myself that I really hate as well (impatience, quickness of temper, to name a couple) I don't really know how to overcome this and be the person I want to be when I seem to react so quickly (and poorly) to the things I don't like about DH and Josh. DH is just always cranky now, he snaps at me and is short with me, I come home from church wanting to talk about my class and he doesn't ask me about what I did, so I don't feel like he wants to know. I sit and feel sad about that and then he wonders why I don't want to talk. I want to do things, I want to help people and be looked at as a good person in the community, at my church and with Josh's school, but I don't know how to achieve this position in life when it seems like the two most important people in my life just bring out the worst in me and nobody particularly wants to be friends with me because I tend to not have much to say and I don't do anything with myself so I don't have a lot to contribute to any conversation about hobbies or politics or the things grown ups talk about.
How can I get past the negativity I sense at home and rise above it?
Today was my 'photoshoot'. I got some good ones. It was really difficult to pick just 4, but that's all I could really afford today. There are 6 others I hope I can purchase before Christmas. It was actually really fun and I wasn't self conscious at all. The hair/makeup girl has actually modeled, and she hung around and helped me out quite a bit. She even had some suggestions for the photographer that came out great.
I ended up having to tell Rich what I did though because he saw the tag for my 'sleepware' in the bathroom garbage. It was totally by accident...the dog knocked the can over and he was picking it up. Because we'd been fighting and he had a feeling I was up to something today, he did go looking for my 'sleepware'. He didn't find any (of course, 'cause it was with me) so he asked me about it when I got home. Rather than try to be clever with a lie that he wouldn't believe and create more problems, I told him he was a sh!t and that I was out having pics done for him for Christmas. He said he was sorry and wished he hadn't seen the tags and that he didn't want any more detail than that. I won't even let him see the lingerie till after he sees the pics.
So I'm a little disappointed that he knows, but I couldn't have lied to cover up the sleepware tag. I'm sure it would have created more problems if I'd tried.
Thanks Chrissy. I am in counseling--we tried couples counseling but DH's work schedule is so weird, we could never find a time that worked for all of us, plus the two therapists we tried just ended up wanting to see me anyway (I think I mentioned that before)
With all due respect I don't think it makes sense to just try to find things outside of home that make me happy. I want to be happy at home too. A lot of people have told me to just try to fill my life with other things and I just don't think that fixes the problem as much as it just covers it up. I don't think that's fair to me or DH. (And I'm not trying to go off on you personally, I have just heard that so much, that I should look for other things to keep me busy, and it upsets me because dammit, I spend 95% of my time at home, and I want to be happy doing it! LOL
Too bad Rich found out...but I'm glad you're happy with the pics!
I wish your dh had more time for marriage counseling. I cannot believe it's all 'you' and am a little irritated at the two counselors that seemed to want to focus solely on you. It seems unfair since marriages take 2 to make them work.
I know I think her goal is to help me cope with the stresses that my home life bring me. She's done well helping me understand where Josh is coming from, and I get it when I'm talking to her, but it's a different story when I'm home alone and Josh is crying for the 5th time that day or DH isn't listening to me.
I talk about this a lot with my bff.....I could be all miserable about the infertility. I mean the ONE thing I wanted in life was to be a mom since I was a kid. College was just something to do while waiting until the time was right. So 3.5 years of trying to get pg and no baby, not a single positive test in all this time. I have moments that hit me and have a huge pity party for myself...than I get over it and decide enough. I WANT to be happy. So I find things that I like to do and do them. I look at what things I can change and do that. and I make sure to keep realistic expectations so that I do not end up disappointed. I am the ONLY person who is responsible for my happiness.