Hey Lydia - I am sorry things are bad. I've been struggling with it all summer, too, and finally went to see a doctor a few weeks ago. Just an awful feeling that I made a really really really big mistake by thinking I could deal with having a child and it is NOT working and I am NOT equipped to deal with this and I am now trapped and there is no way to fix it and if I try somehow to fix it it will get even more screwed up.
Anyway, I have had a couple of major breakdown days where I had a hard time getting out of bed, too. I hope that we both get back to normal soon.
"Any idiot can face a crisis; it is this day-to-day living that wears you out." -Anton Chekhov