Bridget, I cannot imagine how it must feel to be where you are. That said - you can reopen your daycare. Where's your dad live in proximity to where you are now?
And sorry Chrissy, but grief counselors are full of **** on this one. Sometimes a loss cam catalyst changing the worst things about your life because it helps you realize how fragile and temporary life is. I jumped ship from my job and started my business right after Jasper died because it was such a miserable part of my life that I knew I had to change for my next kid.