What a horrible night - you are a strong and resourceful person.
I am in trouble if people expect me to sew anything beyond curtains.
I am feeling better today than I have been in a while. I have been feeling stressed and upset over everything lately, like pms or something similar. I had a meeting with another gallery yesterday and when that was over I just felt better. It was weird. I really hate showing my work to galleries and telling them how much it costs. But I felt bad before I made that appointment so I don't know why the feelings would hinge on that. Anyway, I ended up going to Michaels after the meeting to pick up a few supplies that I will need for showing my work there (because she liked my stuff and will show it for Easter, so that's good) and found the perfect thing to finish my re-do of JoJo's room for not too much money and then went to my favorite little resale boutique (thrift store!) and found several good shirts and dresses for summer, since it got up to 79 degrees yesterday. I still have a ton of work to do, but it doesn't feel quite so heavy today. Give me a day or two and I'm sure it will start weighing again.I was listening to the Fresh Air podcast last night and there was an interview with a doctor about near death experiences and what medical death really is, etc. I'm a little disturbed because the doctor was talking about how they can bring people back to life after hours even as long as the brain is kept cooled down. So now when someone in my life dies I am going to be freaking out about getting their head on ice and to someone who knows how to do what this doctor is doing. Something about knowing there is a place in this world that knows how to do that is going to really make me upset if there is a situation where someone I love has a heart attack or something recoverable from and that we don't live near that place. And in Japan and some other Asian countries they hook up a dead person to a machine that oxygenates, cools and circulates their blood so that the doctors can work to try to repair what caused death in the first place. It was all just too weird and disturbing and full of questions for me. He did talk about the commonality of experience in people who die and come back to life and that they are collecting that information. He mentioned that sometimes if you talk to a person right after they come back to life, they will tell you in detail about things that were going on in a room away from the body of the person. Things that are verifiable and true. Weird. And that the person might tell you these things right after being revived, but then a couple of days later they won't remember in the same way that you don't remember a dream later. Anyway, I would recommend the interview in that it is interesting but it is also creepy and the moving line between death and life is disturbing. I just wish I didn't know that there was such a big window between the heart not beating and actual brain death.
I am also having some stressful decision-making to do about school for JoJo next year. You don't have to read the novel I just wrote about it below - just tell me how important you think a bilingual education is! Our home school (public) is adorable and great and everyone who goes there loves it. There is one dual-language kindergarten where they have Spanish speaking kids paired up with English speaking kids and they teach everything in both languages. The teacher is our neighbor down the street and I would just love to get her into that class, but it is a lottery that is decided in the district offices downtown. But then I heard recently that it is in fact decided by the principal at the school. And that two of the three people I know who got into that class wrote letters to the principal and the teacher saying how important it was, etc. There is also a dual-language school not too far away where the whole school is like that and so J would be guaranteed to get into a dual-language class. It was cute and the principal is nice and I was so excited for her to go there when we toured. I applied and will find out sometime in the next couple of months if we get in there (also a lottery). There are several problems with the dual-language school: The school itself doesn't have a great rating on Great Schools (less that school 1) so am I sacrificing the rest of J's education so that she learns how to speak Spanish? School 2 only goes to 5th grade so she would be going to 6th grade at middle school which I don't want (but then I have talked to a few people who say that their kids took that option even in schools that go to 6th grade). Anyway, I should probably just relax about it and wait to see what lotteries we win and then make a decision.
Last edited by girlwonder; 02-22-2013 at 10:48 AM.
"Any idiot can face a crisis; it is this day-to-day living that wears you out." -Anton Chekhov