Mandy, I've been peeking into your posts from time to time, too. I'm hoping hoping hoping.
I've been really short-tempered. I think we are not getting the house we were hoping to get, despite being in the 30-day escrow period. My dad is not returning my phone calls or anyone else's or signing any of the documents he needs to sign.
S. is being crrraaazzzy. Even my mom put him in time out yesterday, which is unusual for her. Today during nap time he took all of his books and tore them to shreds and threw them on the floor. Did not nap. I cried when I saw them, and he said, "Mommy, I like to see you cry. I'm going to cry too, but it's going to be fake crying. WAHHHHH!" Later on, I cried again, after we got home from school and everyone had been running away from me and then S. was throwing stuff and breaking stuff and DD came over and gave me a hug and DS said, "Take 10 deep breaths, Mommy," and S. said again, "I like it when you cry" and laughed and kicked me a bit and then ran around and threw some more stuff. (DH said, when I told him about this, that maybe it's just because it's novel to him.)
I'm having a glass of wine and feeling just a touch better. And I know my immediate problems are really petty compared to a lot of others. I actually think that it helps to have places like this on the internet, to gain a little perspective on the world, and this is just the first world, where people have homes and computers. It sucks in my house right at this moment, but in general, I have a pretty good life, no matter what is going on. And I've been trying to find the right way to put this but hey, I've had a glass of wine, and in my particular perspective, once the immediate horror and terrible grief was over, for those who say how they can't imagine how hard it is to deal with the loss of a baby, I can say that on any given day, no matter how awful it is, you can always say it's not the worst you've ever had. DH and I can even sort of joke about it now without offending each other. "I'm having the worst day of my life." "OH REALLY?!?"
And hey, for all of you dealing with the storm, batten the hatches and snuggle in tight--stay safe.