But the possessions in that trailer mean nothing, sweetie. You have your two darling babies, that's all you need. You get a fresh start at life and you'll do fine!I confess -- We made it to WY. There's alot more that I ended up typing in the Random confessions thread, and it kinda turned into a rant/vent so I'll just keep it short and simple by saying B is an idiot, and didn't even try to see the girls for christmas, or before we left.
I confess the thought entered my mind as I was driving behind my dad pulling the Uhaul of my belongings, How sad that all my possessions - for me, AND the girls fit in a 12x6 trailer, and don't even fill it.
I confess that when my brother and I were single and used to go out together (and he was still pretending to be straight) if a cute guy/girl came up and stood next to us at the bar, he'd say to me, "Have you talked to mom today?", so the guy/girl would know we weren't together. Well the other night he texted me with that phrase and I knew what he meant right away. I told him I missed those days and I missed him. We used to be together all of the time and now that I have settled down and had kids, we just never get to connect. So he texts me back that he doesn't understand why I can't have a life just because I have kids. I texted him back that my life is my kids and I just don't have the desire to go out and party anymore. I expected a snarky comment back but got nothing until about an hour later he texted me and told me the next time I get a chance I should drive over his way and we should go get mani/pedis, his treat.
It doesn't seem like a big deal but I have lost sleep over how much my relationship with him has suffered. He's been exhibiting extremely selfish and hurtful behavior lately. I know it's all a result of his insecurities and lonliness but it still sucks. It warms my heart that he is making this effort. I know a lot of it has to do with the fact that he got back together with his boyfriend. They are moving in together. I'm so happy for him. He's such an amazing wonderful man that just gets totally lost sometimes.
Wow, that was long! And probably boring. I'm just happy and wanted to share.
Aww, that's so sweet. I hope your relationship gets better.