Just a little vent
I feel so out of control not knowing when my conception date was. I know, I sound soo silly. I get it. But I'm one of those control freaks who need to know. I didn't know with my first, but we were trying. I knew with my second and third, and feel very educated about the whole process (charting, fertile days, o dates, ewcm, etc). And since this was an oops, I know it could have been between Mar31 and Apr7...but that's not good enough for me!!! I guess because my due date is at the end of December and I REALLY REALLY REALLY don't want a December baby. Of course I'm happy with healthy and that's all I ask for, but please if we can, stay in til January! We are huge Christmas celebrators and I really don't want this to change our tradition. Yes, I understand that things might not go my way, but I really want them to :laugh:
Then I start thinking about January, which means I'll go overdue. I have 9 pound babies. I was lucky my last was only 7 pounds, but she was also 2 days early. My other two were 9 pounds and having a 9 pounder naturally is freaking me out!! I know I sound like a mess, and silly. A part of my issue with it is I have to wait until DECEMBER/JANUARY to know lol!! I'm a "I need to know right now" kinda person. I shouldn't even be complaining about anything, but I am. Thanks for making it this far :eyeroll: This is exactly how I feel right now ----> :crazy:
Poor thing. You can't let it drive you crazy. Babies come when they're ready, even a conception date wouldn't really help you much. I know the day we conceived but I still have no idea when the baby will come. I'm due July 22, but I could still have a June baby, I could have an August baby. Who the heck knows!
A friend of mine was planning on a February baby. She went into preterm labor and her baby was born in October at 24 weeks. You really just never know. No guarantees in life.
You're right :) I'm just so nervous about having a December baby. That's what's really driving me crazy. I have to put it in my head that she comes whenever she comes and be okay with it. Maybe it'll help if I have a convo with our kids and let them know how close I Christmas this baby may come and that things may change, but just for this year only.