Hubby doesn't want to get his hopes up

but I can't stop thinking about this. Any insight would be helpful.

My "fertile dates" combining 2 calculators stretched from May 19 to May 25. We were on vacation in China, so I was able to be less stressed than normal. (Note on stress -- I don't feel stressed. I'm a planner. So everyone around me tells me to reduce my stress, but I don't really "get" what they are claiming is stress. I love plotting out possibilities, planning for future events, etc.)

Anyway, normally, during my "fertile dates", I will notice a mucous-like plug with a red dot inside it. I've always figured that was an unfertilized egg. This month, I did not experience this.

When we got back from China on the 26th, I felt normal. Since the 27th, I have had to pee a lot. I always assumed the peeing happened when the baby was bigger. But I noticed people saying it was sign of implantation. Weird. I haven't had any spotting or cramping. I did have nausea late at night on Memorial Day. But the big thing for me is that I have been craving cheese. I'll eat an ounce or two and as soon as I finish eating it, my body is telling me MORE, NOW!

AF isn't due til the 4th and I'm supposed to get an immunization on the 7th, so I figured I would just wait until the dr's office tests me prior to okaying me for the shot.

I don't feel any changes in my breasts -- not size, color, or sensation. And this is the first month in a long time that I've felt non-gassy. (I have a very, very slight case of Irritable Bowel -- I call it Moody Bowel -- and the main culprits are onions and fiber. I can skip the onions, but I need the fiber.)

Anyway, I just kinda wanted to detail my "symptoms" to someone other than my journal, so that I could get an outside opinion. Hubby takes the negative results harder that he wants me know, so I understand why he doesn't want to talk about "maybes". But I'm pretty isolated here. I know plenty of women on the delivery side -- either just gave birth, are due any minute, or are in their last trimester --, and I know plenty of women who don't want to get pregnant, but I have no TTC friends to share with.

Edit: Oh yeah, sleeping. For the past week, I have not been able to get out of bed before 10 am. I set the alarm, I bully myself, but it's 10 am before I make myself stagger out of bed. And I'm constantly yawning!

just wanted to say anything is possible:) i hope you get your bfp!! test with first morning urine on the 4th!! I hope this is it for you!

if DH takes it hard (as mine does too) i don't tell him when i am testing when i get a BFP i buy a new test and tell him i am testing a act like i didn't know that way he feels part of it and i don't have to hurt him but i would say test the 4 or 5 but with first morning urine

Thanks for the advice, ladies. I'm scheduled to take my pregnancy test for the immunization Wednesday afternoon. Any earlier and I'd have to do another one for them to count it as valid. So I've really been debating whether I should test at home before that. I think I'm going to go ahead and test. I don't feel any warning signs of AF and I haven't been moody like I normally am, but then again, maybe my cycle had a hiccup.

I'm praying that if I am, I inherit my mom's lack of morning sickness, but not inherit her jump 2 cup sizes. My sis is in her 2nd trimester and still has morning sickness, poor thing.

Ah well, rambling again. Hubby supports testing at home, but doesn't want to talk about what ifs lol.

Update: It was a no, but AF hasn't shown, either. Well, we'll see what happens Wednesday at the doc's office. Hoping it was just too soon for a yes.