what i have decided to do is keep the child and try my best to give it a good life. if i can not give it that life then i will put it up for an open adoption. I realize now i could never give up my child unless i know for a fact i couldnt do better for it than an adoptive family. im going to try my hardest and hope it will get easier in time but for right now i belive this is best for both me emotionally and my child :)
you are a strong young woman. I wish you and your baby the best!!
Originally Posted by meg_star
Doctors say im about 5 weeks prego now :) ive already gained 10 pounds which seems crazy to me because my mom never gained alot of weight until later on in her pregnancies but then again i didnt weigh alot before i got pregnant either. My rapist is currently in prison. he will be serving time there before we are at trial. Im nervous that hes going to get off easy but i know that even if he does i have ruined his reputation at our high school, his relationship with his now ex girlfriend, and whatever dreams he did have of getting a good job. Ironicly the girlfriend has been one of my most supportive friends after she found out about everything haha i think he'll get at least a year or 2 because hes not 18 i doubt his sentence will carry higher than that now regardless of what my lawyer says. Most people in my school know im pregnant now too some are accepting and other call me a whore but i really dont care either way. im excited to find out what im having even though it seems like its a lifetime away! my first ultrasound is coming up soon though so im excited for that too. im kinda worried about twins because they run in my family and my kids have a higher chance of being one. im not gonna think about that though. im excited for the future and to see where motherhood takes me :) its a blessing
You are so strong Meg. Huge :hugs:.
I just read this whole blog, and like everyone else I am VERY impressed with your logic and choices. I believe you will be a great mother to this child. I am also very sorry you had to have this happen to you and for those at school who 'don't understand and call you "whore"... They are just exactly that.. Non-understanding!! You will come across that a lot being young and pregnant. I myself, am 23 and was actually nervous to announce to 'The World' aka Facebook my news that I was pregnant. Not that I care what people think of me but it emotionally hurts. At the end of the day, you're carrying a child and will bring another human being to this world. Not a lot of woman can do that!!
As far as the APA ladies here, they are absolutely wonderful. Nice, sweet, caring and full of GREAT advice. I hope you stay and keep us updated.
I wish you a happy and healthy 9 months. Good luck!! :)