Originally Posted by mommietob
Hey, I am a 20 year old student and I am in the legal studies major to become an attorney my husband is working on getting his masters in Marketing. I want a baby so so so bad and I know that we are young and we both are working on out careers but I just want someone to hold and call my own. My husband doesn't want a baby right now because he says that we can't afford it, but I have been trying to get pregnant behind his back for 8 months now. He found out and says that I am trying to trap him, but Im not I have wanted this since I was 15 years old and how can I make a feeling like this go away. Everytime that I say Im not going to try any more something happens to make me want to try even harder!!!
Like last month I made up my mind that I was going to stop trying and I hadn't even been thinking about it and then this month my period was three days late I go excited and took two pregnancy test they both where neg. I still am so upset and depressed and then my period came. I keep telling myself that maybe its God trying to tell me to wait my turn but I just cant make this feeling go away. Everytime my husbands mother tells me that I am to young and to smart to sacrifice my future I hate her even though I know that shes right....... I just need someone to talk to please help me!!!!! Should I stop trying and try to fight this feeling or should i follow my heart :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: