You may think I am crazy but.........................

[newmami]

Bel is stuffing her face with kitkats

[lexsmama]

bel is on msn

[bel]

yes yes clau i have chocolate all over my nose and chin :shame:

Saratu I miss you too to no end
I have been on msn and working too, Im flying tomorrow 5am to work in the brazilian border

[lexsmama]

Bel and Heather, sorry...

Girls, lex's teacher thinks lex may be diabetic. She said he drinks and pees double what any other kid does. I called the pedi's office like she sked me to, and they bumped his appt up to tomorrow. I don't think he is..

[without]

Ashley, I will be praying for lex!

[newmami]

I hope he is not Ash.... Chris also pees A LOT!!! both my kids do....

HEY PAMELA SUE!!!

[without]

Morgan drinks and pee's all the dang time we also thought that she may be d. but she wasn't. I pray its the same thing with Lex

Hey Claudia!

[lexsmama]

see, we had him checked at 12 mos because we were worried, and his levels were 80. Perfect. I don't know. I know they like to err on the side of caution, but come on. he's had enough.

[sarahlynn]

Poor baby .. please keep us posted on the doc appt..

Bel i just got MSN back on my puter today so i wasnt on much today..how long are you gonna be gone for?

EEEK my mama just called and she is makin ham..

[lexsmama]

oscar just came and got her.

[without]

:pray::sleepy::sleep:

[Momto3]

Morning Ladies!!!!

Happy Friday!

Ashley - hope everything is ok with Lex.

[sja1508]

Good Morning and Happy Friday!! Anyone have any hot plans for this weekend? I am a total procrastinator and I've got to go get my swap gift tomorrow and mail it. Tara has one going on too in her Aug due dates club so she's like "you are so good at picking out gifts, will you get mine too please"? I'm such a sucker......

Ash, please post asap as soon as you know something about Lex. I've been thinking about you both.

[lexsmama]

morning. we just got dressed and lil bit is watching barney for a bit. i will post as soon as i know something. he is going to school afterwards so i can get us packed for lake jackson and get my swap gift. went to a junior forum mtg last night. it was interesting to say the least.

[newmami]

Morning ladies, it is FRIDAY :hi:
Plans for the weekend?? tomorrow it is SK's bday party :helpme: so we are heading to a park for the party... as I was not involved on the pre party, I am just going to have fun with Dani & Chris... :silly:

Then I need to get the swap present shipped, I am so bad at that!!! and Sunday apparently we are going to Seaworld for a while.

Ash, let us know how it goes with Lex, I hope he is OK!

WAKE UP PAM!!!

[sarahlynn]

i want to go to seaworld :(

i also am going shopping tonight for my swap gift..usualy i am on the ball but not this time..i just dont knwo what to get

[Momto3]

The only thing we hae planned for the weekend is getting my hair cut and now I am having second thoughts and whether I want to keep it long and keep the curl, just different style or go short and blow it out so it is straight. Decisions decisions!


Geez...do you think I could at least attempt to spell properly! No, I don't think so...

[sarahlynn]

hey i have a hair appt on the 6th...i am struggeling with the decision as well..short long color no color

[Momto3]

I saw your post in Random. I like that cut on you becuase you have the straight hair that would work well with that. Also the color from the second cut would be HOT! But I'm partial to red hair. I just colored mine a cardinal red.

[sarahlynn]

I saw your post in Random. I like that cut on you becuase you have the straight hair that would work well with that. Also the color from the second cut would be HOT! But I'm partial to red hair. I just colored mine a cardinal red.

im such a color chicken sh it...i had highlights once..but that was it..i want fun darn it..

[newmami]

Sarah, you can pull any hair style, you are so pretty!!!
I am also afraid to get a haircut, even though my hair is SCREAMING for one :shame:

I answered on your other post Sarah... the way you describe your feelings is the way I felt after Chris was born, read PPD.... I hope you can talk to someone and feel better, you have so much in your plate right now!!
I hope you get the grant for vacation, you deserve it!!

[sarahlynn]

ugh i know claudia.. i need to talk to someone..ive been puttin it off..i just need to call our family doc and get a referall. It would do me good with all the crap we have dealt with in the past 15 months..

[sarahlynn]

helllllo

[Momto3]

I'm here. I just ate a burger for lunch. meat only, no bun but I feel sick...

[newmami]

I just came back from lunch too.. I had salmon and creamed spinach.... I am stuffed

[without]

Mmmm.... large kit kat!

[newmami]

Is that what you had for lunch Pam???
Where have you been woman????

[without]

I had pizza bites and a kit kat. Not heathy but oh, so good! I only get paid once a month and today is payday and I splurged. LOL

I have been here I have been reading just don't feel like I have any thing to say right now. lol

[sarahlynn]

i went to lunch with cy...we had two small bagels/with cream cheese..carrots and broccoli with ranch, peaches with whipped cream, milk..not to bad but im eating 1/2 my panini now from lunch yesterday cause school lunch never fills me up

i get paid once a month as well pam..i hate it

[riotgirl]

I thought I was the only one.

[newmami]

Getting paid once a month SUCKS!!! DH was like that, but thank God they changed to every 2 weeks... I get paid bimonthly, so YES today is payday... but most of my check goes to pay rent and groceries... BOOOO!!!

[sarahlynn]

yeah i dont understand how in that thread in NM there are SAHM on a 20-30,000 income :( no way could we go on that..wede loose our home, and be majorly indebt...i guess working full tiem is forever in my future..

claudia how are things with DH

[newmami]

:chinscratch:I don't get it either Sarah .... we make enough money here, way over the median income for the area... but if I lost my job (half of that income) we would not be able to afford the basics :rant:

Things with DH are better, but we are only on day 2 :winks:. One of my biggest complains was that he doesn't help with the kids when we are out.... yesterday we went out for dinner, and he helped Danielle eat and took her to wash her hands :thumbsup: which is a HUGE step for us. I think he finally realized I am tired of the recurring issue, and it hit him that if he continues to be this selfish, he would lose me & the kids, and that scared the crap out of him, so he is trying his best to be helpful and :angel:

[willsmama]

I accidentally replied to it not realizing it was for SAHM's. OOps.

[lexsmama]

Hey!

Lex's unrinalysis came back great and they did an urine concentration, too. He's just a REALLY good drinker. Whew! Thank you girls, for all your prayers and support.

I have my swap mamas their things, but I need the second address, Bel. It's all ready to go!

We somehow made it on 20-30,000 for awhile, but we needed income number 2. It put us behind so bad, but we've managed.

Got to go get Lex and finish packing. We're going to see my family this weekend. I hope you don't see me on any national news channels with the weekend with my mommy dearest. ha!

Love you girls bunches!

[sarahlynn]

Glad lex is ok .. what a relief huh

good thing claudia things are going well..i hope he keeps it up

[newmami]

Hey Ash!! glad to hear Lex is fine and just a drinker
Have a wonderful weekend with your mom!!!

[sarahlynn]

:hi:I am off to go home ladies...talk to you later!!

have good weekends

[newmami]

Bye Sarah.... have a good weekend!!

I guess it is time for me to go home too!!!

[willsmama]

Bye ladies!

[Momto3]

Ack! I'm stuck here along of r30 minutes

[Momto3]

All by myself...don't want to be...all by myself...anymore...

[without]

Lynn! you can't sing my song without me! LOL

[sarahlynn]

its friday night...ummm im a looser on apa :(

hehe :)

[without]

add me to the List! LOL Morgan and Kaitlyn (my brothers oldest girl) are watching TV

[sja1508]

Hey ladies! Nothing exciting to report, just a normal weekend. We took Zack to the park yesterday and let him swing and play with the ducks. He was running around "quacking" at everything! LOL!

Saturday night was fun though, we got a babysitter for Zack and our best friends daughter and we both got to go out together and eat dinner at Longhorn. We've been great friends for over a year and it's the first time we've ever got to go out without the kids. We had such a good time. We are going to start doing it once a month.

Oh btw, Tara gets paid once a month also and it sucks. What makes it so bad is that they won't do direct deposit so by the time she gets the check it's really like 45 days. Yuck! Good thing I get paid on the 15th and 30th.

I'm so glad to hear about Lex and his great appt!!!

[lexsmama]

Morning!

We're back from our "wonderful" weekend with my parents.

Lex has decided to jump out of any type of bed that has sides lately, i.e. the playpen and crib, so we're putting him in a toddler bed for good this week.

He's also started biting and hitting when we tell him no for something. It's really weird that this has developed down in lake jackson. any ideas? Btw, my mom's still nuts. lol.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

[newmami]

Morning ladies... it is Monday again

We went to the park on Saturday, the kids had a BLAST!! except the time when Chris threw up because he ate dirt... anyways, he loved the swings and the slides. Danielle was a dare devil and went down a big slide, it was adorable... Here are couple pictures
http://www.dotphoto.com/Go.asp?l=cmedinamoon&P=&AID=5135436&Pres=Y
Sunday was an OK day, DH and I had yet another argument, and I am stil blah about it (even though we talked about it)... so no Sea World, but I sold the swing, and I went out to play with Danielle while Chris was napping, because she asked me to :wub:

Eeks Ash that Lex is jumping now... yes time for the toddler bed. About the hitting, when Dani started doing that, I would hold her hand and show her how to be Gentle, and then make a big deal when she "hurt" me. It didn't last that long (the hitting I mean!!)

So Danielle things it is funny to be on time out, and she WANTS to be on the corner for time out :eyebrow: time to find another way to discipline her.....

[without]

Ashley,
Sorry to hear about the biting and hitting! Do you think its some thing he might have seen at day care?

Stacy,
Glad you had a great weekend and I bet that was cute with the ducks!


My weekend was GREAT! I had 2 of my brothers girls and they played with Morgan all weekend. Needless to say my house is a mess and it will take me a month of Sundays to get it clean again but it was well worth the great time they had.

[bel]

hey girls!!! I missed you so much!
we had such a tired friday but the meeting and work shop was awesome, I think we are going to have a good return from it...
my mom and I made some good shopping also! LOL
stacy Im paying my CC to be able to pay you back hon, sorry took so long :shame:
i hear you ash on the biting and hiting, santi hanst still got over it! he hitted stefi on saturday night (while we were having a party at home for my brother Juan´s bday) with his truck, I was so :shame: I wanted to dye...and my SIL made a tragedy out of it :( Im still sad...
yesterday we took the kiddos to a bday party at the mall...

[without]

Claudia! I love the next to last picture! The one where Dani is at the table and turned around. To cute! Chris looks so happy!

[Momto3]

Morning Ladies!

Glad everyone survived the weekend...

[newmami]

I have a HORRIBLE MAMI confession

Dani didn't wanted to get dressed today, so I lost it and raised my voice at her... she started crying because she got scared, then I cried like a maniac and apologized 2000 times... :cry:and asked her to help me, so she was Ok and let me get her ready to leave, she hugged me like nothing happened, but I feel like a worthless piece of crap for losing it with her, for something so stupid :pace:

[Momto3]

I have a HORRIBLE MAMI confession

Dani didn't wanted to get dressed today, so I lost it and raised my voice at her... she started crying because she got scared, then I cried like a maniac and apologized 2000 times... :cry:and asked her to help me, so she was Ok and let me get her ready to leave, she hugged me like nothing happened, but I feel like a worthless piece of crap for losing it with her, for something so stupid :pace:


HUGS Claudia! It happens. They forget and go on. We remember a lot longer. The good part is you probably gave her some EXTRA loving. Don't beat yourself up.

I raised my voice to Katelyn this weekend because she keeps speitting food out. Just open mouth and let it drop...whereever she is. Its gross.

[bel]

this happens often to me clau, I guess they are used to it, no one gets scare of me :( lol I guess Im the worse mama here

[lexsmama]

It's okay, Clau! You didn't mean to and you apologized. Hugs! Glad you had a good weekend!

Great pics! :)

[lexsmama]

I'm so sick and tired of bc pills. My patch keeps falling off, so I called to ask if I could switch. Like they told me to do if I was having a hard time at the end of the cycle. The dr told me he wanted my on yasmin before, so I thought they'd switch me with no problems. Well, the nurse practitioner, Fran, told me she was worried as to all the meds I have been on so far and none of them working. She wanted me to come in and just consult with him. Wha?? I told her that I have an appt in April with the dr and am having trouble keeping the stinkers on. She said we'd try the yasmin until the appt and see. Argh. Plus, I've gained 15 lbs onteh patch. I know it's not my eating bcs of what I have eaten and my exercise.

[newmami]

Ugh Ash, I am sorry about the BCP... I hope they can give you something that doesn't bring side effects

it is slow today here, where is Sarah and Pam??

[bel]

aww ash I just posted a thread about mine, need advice :pray:
can you pleas emark down satu has sent her swap present?? Im hoping I can send mine today

[lexsmama]

okay. I need to make a list so I can mark ppl down. Did you know that we can only have 25 smilies on a post at a time?!

[bel]

yep I know :rolleyes: maybe you can just write "sent"
sorry

[lexsmama]

I guess. Or find another little thingy on my keyboard. lol

[newmami]

Bummer with the siggies...
BTW I got my present, my mommy is too cute, she wrote TO: Claudia M APA SWAP
I am mailing mine today!!!

Bel, I am not savvy about BCP, I don't think it is a big deal if you miss one, just go on and take the next day......:huh:

So Dh made another comment about moving to TN... there is a job open and the Manager wants him to take it, but I told him "too bad 6 months is not enough time to plan a move", then he said "oh, it may take a year to fill the position, that is enough time"..... I do believe a change in scenery (and job for me) will do us a lot of good and help with our problems, but I don't want to get too excited about it (to avoid the frustration if we are unable to move)

[sarahlynn]

Hey ladies...im sure i missed a lot huh?? so fill me in on all the good stuff..

our weekend was uneventful...the weather was so nice on sat..me and lulu spent lots of time outside..cy had a b-day party sat night so he was gone all night..sun we went to lunch for my moms b-day

so pretty low key

[sja1508]

Hey all! Work is still crazy but I wanted you to know that I lurk when I can to get caught up on all that's going on. I sure miss you all on MSN!

I had a horrible bad mommy moment myself this weekend. Zack eats wonderful at school but when he gets home he doesn't want anything but mcnuggets. I made something for him for lunch yesterday and he refused to eat it and turned his head so it went everywhere! I lost it. I grabbed his shoulders and got in his face and told him NO! I instantly felt like Crap. He started crying and I immediately calmed down and kissed him and told him sorry so many times. I tried to tell him you can't throw your food and you need to take a bite for mama. Ugh....one more thing I said I'd never do and I did it. I still can't shake it today even though I know Zack has long gotten over it. I just want to go get him from daycare and spend the day with him but I can't.

Lynn, any word on any of the jobs???

Bel, please don't worry about the CC thing. Pay me back whenever you can, no rush.

Claudia, love the pics, sorry about DH being an Ahole again.....

Pam, sounds like fun. What's going on with Rod?

Ash, can't help you with BC but I hope you get it worked out. One of the wonderful things I get to miss out on...LOL!

Sarah, miss you darlin!!!!!!

[without]

Claudia! I already have my hopes up for TN!!! Wahoo... tell your DH got get on the ball! Wahoo!

Rod starts his new job today. We are supposed to have a date tomorrow (first one in two weeks) and its calling for snow. :( I pray they are wrong!

[sja1508]

Well snatch some dogs up from the shop and hitch them to a sled and meet up with him anyway...LOL!!!!

[Momto3]

Hey Stacy! Don't beat yourself up...we feel bad long after they feel the affects of us yelling. Maybe thats a way to make us not do it so much.

Nothing yet on the job issue. DH got an e-mail from the first place he interviewed and the guy said just following up that someone got back to you. So DH wrote back and said yes, they did and he interviewed and did great on the background check but that he never heard back from anyone. Don't you know he got a call this morning. The HR guy has been out with the flu and they are working hard at getting DH in there. Yay! We shall see. He's not too keyed up on this job but I said it is a steady job WITH benefits...TAKE IT!

ETA: Did I mention that he is home again today...lack of work.

[sja1508]

Lynn, that's so great! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for ya!!

[bel]

me too Lynn!!! how hard!!
thanks stacy, I promisse not to take your word so serious LMAO
Clau if it will be better for your family hon, do what to get to do!
Pam Im crossing my fingers for you too, so you can have a night full of love and action!!! LOL yay on Rod! is he closer to you in this in new job?

[newmami]

Good luck to your DH Lynn!! I hope he finds a wonderful job WITH benefits. :luck:

Yay for the date with Rod Pam, I am sorry about the snow.... get the snowmobile out and go pick him up!!! :laugh:... seriously, I hope the snow doesn't ruin your date.

Glad to see I am not the only mom who loses it... I know Dani is fine, I am the one beating myself about my stupidity.

So Dh came back with the "oh you think I am a lousy parent" card again... well?? until I am proven the opposite, I still think he is not the poster child for parent... I mean, look at his son...... who BTW got OFFENDED on Saturday because I told him to stop playing his DS and get up to help his dad with dinner (we were out on a restaurant, and I HATE to leave my kids alone in the table, even if they are still at sight, and DH is uncapable of carrying 3 trays :eyeroll:, so I sent his USELESS kid to help, and he ended up throwing a tantrum... WORSE THAN DANIELLE DOES!!! :crossed::rant:

[lexsmama]

I'm so sorry Clau! Woo hoo on the job though! I have family in TN!

I just got back from my workout. I lost 5 lbs somehow and feel so much better than last week. Fatigued, but good. Trainer's a little weirded out with all my charley horse crampy things. I'm to call my dr this afternoon and ask. She's asking her boss, too. I'm to take it easy until wed's session. :truce:

[Momto3]

Ashley - Are you getting enough water and potassium in? That will cause cramping.

Sorry about the SK Claudia. That has to be so frustrating!

Pam - Hope there is no snow for your date!

[lexsmama]

I thought I was, but maybe not. I have been doing at least 4-5 17 oz water bottles a day, plus propel water, plus tea. I guess I'm back on prenatals, eh.

[sarahlynn]

AWWWWWWWWWW STACY (((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))

been there ..its so hard on us mommies..and they just go about life and forget..were lucky...but we are such good mamas..you know that

[newmami]

Ash, eat bananas, they are LOADED with potassium... also oranges... that should help with the cramps... and WOO HOO on the -5 lb :cheer:

I brought salad and grilled chicken for lunch, but our new Supervisor is here (relocated from AL) and we went out to eat to this Japanese place... I overate, my tummy hurts.... should have stayed with the healthy food

[lexsmama]

Dr said try a potassium supplement a couple of days and some extra bananas. lol. Nothing I didn't already know.

[newmami]

:sleep: I am bored, and I don't want to work

Ash, I hope the bananas do the work for you, I had TERRIBLE charly horses when I was PG, those are no fun!!
So I am leaving early today (ok at 4) because I need to stop by the produce store... I was supposed to do that yesterday, but we had to go back home because a lady went to pick up the swing I sold

[lexsmama]

I'm at work with nada to do. My boss isn't here. I'm so sleepy after my workout. I need something to wake me.

[sarahlynn]

man claudia i had those as well when pregnant...ugh i woke up screaming once from the pain..

ahhhh the fun of pregnancy

[Momto3]

So everyone leaves early and I am left to fend for myself.

[lexsmama]

I'm here til 5.

[bel]

anyone still here? im from my cell

[sarahlynn]

im here..trying to find some fun fundraiseing ideas...hmm any ideas?

im bad at this crap :( something i could do on ebay perhaps? or mail? or hmm any ideas?

[lexsmama]

5 minutes and I'm a free little bird!

Hmm... I'm not sure, Sarah. Lemme think about it a little. k? I'll see what I can get this ol' brain to think of on my drive home. I'll try to post after dinner. :)

I hope all of you ladies have a wonderful evening!

[Momto3]

Morning Ladies!!!!!

[newmami]

Hey ladies, it is Tuesday!!
Lynn, I was wondering this morning if you got your haircut?? I need one desperately, but last weekend it was so hectic I didn't had time to go get one, and during the week it is just impossible!!!

[Momto3]

Hey ladies, it is Tuesday!!
Lynn, I was wondering this morning if you got your haircut?? I need one desperately, but last weekend it was so hectic I didn't had time to go get one, and during the week it is just impossible!!!

I did get it cut. Not as drastic as I had hoped for. I guess I chicken out. Shelly used the flat iron on it and it looks pretty. Not sure if I will be able to keep it up though.

P.S. DH is home again today...:boohoo::cry::aww::pace:

[bel]

aw Lynn Im so sorry :ohno:
dont worry hon he will be working pretty soon, you will see :comfort:
how are you doing Clau!!! just few says before your bday!!! :D
what are you asking DH?

[lexsmama]

Morning!!
So sorry Lynn. He'll find a job soon.
Ohh, a birthday?? That's fun!

[newmami]

Ash, it is not a fun Bday when you are turning 37 :shocker:
We are going to BF Changs (a Chinese restaurant) for dinner. For presents I am debating about joining the 21st century and get an IPOD..... or just a purse that I need badly... I am bad about spending money on me

Lynn, I am praying that your Dh gets a job soon, I am sure his is as frustrated as you are :pray:

[lexsmama]

It can always be fun, Clau. You're only as old as you want to be. ;-)

[bel]

we had a fun night yesterday :bigreen:

[bel]

yes Clau!

[bel]

yes

[sja1508]

Hey ladies, it's already been a productive morning for me. Took Zack to daycare, went to the gym and am getting ready to study. I've got a conference call in an hour and then more work. Ugh....at least the day goes by fast! Smooches!!!

Claudia, just remember I'm always older than you, so I'd love to be 37 again. I say go for the Ipod. Once you get the hang of it, you'll want to use it all the time. It's so funny because when I was in the gym there were about 10 people total and not a single one didn't have an ipod :musicnote:

[newmami]

So true Ash, that is why I behave the way I do... lots of fun!!
The only reminder of my age is the stupid gray hairs :wtf: (thank you hair dye) and how hard it is to get up after sitting in the floor for 30 min :laugh:

YAY Bel for a fun night!!! :hi:

[bel]

finally Clau, it took us a month or so LOL thanks God for santi´s big boy bed :pray:
even if he slept only for two hours :wink:

[lexsmama]

If it helps, Clau, I have grays too, and I'm 25. :yuk:Thank you semi-matching hair dye. lol Btw, I'd totally do the ipod. :batman:

Wtg on the gym, Stacy! Glad to see you. I hope your day goes by super fast. Mine's creeping.

[bel]

Oscar starts his classes today to finish his degree in bussiness administration... he has one semester to go! :D he has delayed this for too long :rolleyes:
Wish him luck...:thumsup:

[bel]

I

[bel]

I dont even imagine what I would use a ipod for...I have music in my computer then I go home with my car´s music and then go home for supper/sleep, when would I use it?? why am I the only wierdo?!?!?

[bel]

Wtf?

[bel]

sorry :rolleyes:

[bel]

opps sorry again :rolleyes:

[newmami]

Bel, are you trying to increase your posts?? you are confusing me!!

If you are talking about school, yeah I cannot imagine going back to school NOW... I don't think I have the attention span..... glad I finished college when I did!!

[lexsmama]

lol Bel, you're funny.

[bel]

Bel, are you trying to increase your posts?? you are confusing me!!

If you are talking about school, yeah I cannot imagine going back to school NOW... I don't think I have the attention span..... glad I finished college when I did!!

LOL Clau Im sorry i dunno what happened, I used the quick reply and posted ten LOL

Yep he is going to the University, he has so little left, and it´s a huge step to finish it, so I told him never is so late to have it done :wink: he can do this!

[sarahlynn]

morning ladies....

:)

so i was trying to find ways to raise money for our MS walk..i thought of going and making MS awareness bracelets and selling them online say on ebay? or my mom is awesome at sewing and i was going to have her make My Special friends...stuffed friends that have the MS singature colored clothes and also a charm on them?

[lexsmama]

those are good ideas, sarah. I make swarovski bracelets. Maybe little teddy bears sewn with a little heart or ribbon? umm.. have you looked at etsy.com? soaps?

http://www.shanrene.com/page/001/CTGY/awareness-wristbands

[lexsmama]

you could sell wristbands. it is small, but helps. I put the link in teh post above. APA girls would probably love them.

[bel]

aww saratu good luck!! you´re just amazing!!!

[sarahlynn]

:) ok so i have to get to targe..they had the cutest stuffed animals in that $$ section up front..they were $1 i think or $2..at that price we could make them for under $5 and sell for like what $10? or more? whats a good price..all proceeds will go the NMSS..braceletes will be a bi tmore spendy..so i am gonna go to the bead shop and se if i can find some decent prices..i dont want anything to fancy..just fun and cute..i figure anything i dont sell i can send to those who have MS...

[lexsmama]

Let me know if you need help!

[sarahlynn]

Let me know if you need help!


thank so much ... im gettin excited about it..i hope it brings in some $$ for the walk. Do you think we should make MS bears and than also offer other charity bears as well..like someone could request am "autism awareness bear" or a "breast cancer bear" ? or keep it at MS bears?

[lexsmama]

have you thought about tshirts through cafepress?

for the bears, I don't know. If it's going to MS awareness, I think keeping it MS may be better, but that's me.

[sarahlynn]

have you thought about tshirts through cafepress?

for the bears, I don't know. If it's going to MS awareness, I think keeping it MS may be better, but that's me.

thats kinda what i thought as well..

I DIDNT THINK ABOUT CAFE PRESS! hmmm how does cost work with that...

offfffffffff to look :)

more ideas more idea :) your my new assistant in my fundraiseing effors :luck:

[lexsmama]

LMAO! Can I add that title to my resume? :laugh: I'll keep on thinking.

[newmami]

I like the idea of making bracelets and sell them letting people know they are for MS awareness... a little simple bracelet with a charm (is there anything related to MS like a color or something??)
Those plastic bracelets were a HUGE deal!! so that makes me think people like to show their support!!

[lexsmama]

I agree, CLau.

I'm off to see Joe. My "guy about a thing." I'll be back at one.

[sarahlynn]

i am searching for the ribbon color for MS now..

i thought of making a few differnt syles..maybe ones that say "strength" and so on..could so some fun ones that say "ms sucks"

[bel]

hey saratu that´s wonderfull!!! wow
how about the boxes asking for peoples change??? like those "contribute to MS cause" or something to leave at stores, groceries stores, pharmacies??? maybe you could get some good $$ out of it :wink:

[newmami]

Sarah, have you contacted the MS society and see what they do for fundraising?? maybe they have other ideas, supported by them!

So our new supervisor is here... she is 25ish and has been on the commercial department for maybe 2 years... all of the assistants here are older than her and with more experience.... she has not approached any of us to talk about our work and all that, and yesterday we went out for lunch and she was mostly quiet... am I weird to think those were good opportunities to know her people and establish a nice work relationship?
I think I need to find a job where I am in a room by myself and have limited contact with people.......... :wtf::chinscratch:

[sarahlynn]

hmm maybe she is just quiet?

but yeah she should be reaching out

[Momto3]

:sniffle: You guys I just signed my oldest baby up to take her SAt tests! Ugh! I'm not ready! :pace::pray:

[lexsmama]

aaaw! Lynn!

[newmami]

Eeks Lynn, another proof that they grow up too fast!!

I had lettuce and grilled chicken for lunch and an apple... I am STARVING!!!
but I realized I cannot eat much food, like I did yesterday... my stomach hurts BAD when I overdo!!

Time to go pee and then home!!

I wonder if Pam got snowed and had to stay home.....

[lexsmama]

I wish I were hungry. My stomach feels so queasy. I haven't been able to eat since yesterday.

Have a great evening Claudia.

[sarahlynn]

aww Lyn :( they grow so fast..

hmmm i had a samich and granola bar and soup for lunch..

i wanna go home

[Momto3]

Hope you feel better Ashley. You gotta keep your strength up to work out.

Good news. DH got a call from the 2nd company he interviewed with. He starts tomorrow. Why aren't I happier about this?

Tonight is the big 2nd date for Pam....eeeek....I hope it doesn't snow....

[bel]

WTG Lynn!!! we told you he will!!! :celebrate:

[Momto3]

I know.. I will be happy as long as he likes the job. He still has an interview with one of our cities here and is really hoping for that job. A paycheck is a paycheck, right?!

[sarahlynn]

yes yes money is money :)

[Momto3]

Ok, going to pee then I'm outta here!

[lexsmama]

Yay Lynn!! Glad your dh got a job! :)

[sarahlynn]

i dont want to be here all alone...:( i have 23 minutes left...

i need to come up with supper..i might be a bad mom and throw mini corn dogs and fries in the oven..sounds easy enough..

[sarahlynn]

night ladies..
:( im sad..

[bel]

Morning ladies...why were you sad saratu???? :( hope you feel better now!

Im sooooooooooo lazy today!!!!!!!!:sleep: Im worried about finances, seems all I make goes to cover bills :( :( will someday be any different?:batman:

[Momto3]

Morning ladies...its hump day!


Sarah why are you sad?

[lexsmama]

Morning ladies! I'm home today. Seems af made me some kind of sick last night and this morning. Maybe I can get something done if I feel better. Darn af. lol.

I hope so, Bel. I really hope so. We're using our tax refund we get back this week to pay off our back bills to get us up to date. Sheesh. It should stay okay after that.

Lex did not want to go to school and he woke 3 times last night. I'm hoping spring break next week helps his little schedule.

[newmami]

Morning ladies!!

Sorry Ash that you are not feeling well :fever:... hope you feel better soon!

Hey Sarah, why are you :sniffle:??? HUGS to you

Lynn, yay for the job!! I hope it is a good opportunity so you can be happy for DH! :pray:

Bel, I hear you on the making money just to pay bills... I hate the real world....:boohoo:

So my office husband told me today he is seriously considering leaving me (sorry the Bank), is it sad that I am a little :ohno:? I mean there is nothing between us besides being friends, but he makes my days more bearable here.... anyways he told me if he moves and where he goes there is an opportunity for me, he will let me know.

Finally I put some pictures (ok like 500) on my digital frame and I brought it to my office... so coool!!! now I can see my babies!!!

[lexsmama]

Aaaw, Clau. I'm sorry about your office hubby. I know how some people can make your life a little more bearable.

Did you know that in my dept, working on the weekends for your job doesn't count as comp time?! I worked for hours at home the weekend before my big meeting, and I had to add it to the week somewhere to get any time. I don't get it.

Oh, and Hallmark has some gorgeous easter items.

Sarah, would it be possible/liked if I donated a few pieces of jewelry to your cause? You could set up an ebay or an etsy shop online. Just brainstorming.

[newmami]

I need to do some Easter shopping!!!

I got out for Chris a little walker we have... the look on his face was PRICELESS!! now he can learn how to walk while pushing that thing.... so cute!!

[lexsmama]

aaaw! Did you get pics?

[sja1508]

Hey ladies! Just checking in and wanted to say hi! We've got an OB appt tomorrow and I'm so excited. They will schedule the big U/S then.

Lynn, congrats on the job for DH

Sarah, why so sad sweetie???

[Momto3]

Claudia - I had to re-read your post about the office hubby leaving 3 times! I was all freaked out thinking you were saying DH was leaving you, then meaning that he was allowing you to leave the bank....geeesh I'm all confused but I got it now!

So it figures DH started his new job today and his old boss calls to see if he wants to work. DH ignored the phone call just like his boss ignores him if there is no work. How mature is that or any way to run a business. If he doesn't have work for the guys, he just doesn't take their calls! Let's see how he likes it!

Stacy - I can't wait to here about the baby....I'm so excited! I know you guys are. Is Tara feeling any better?

My SIL (the one I can't stand who is pregnant) isn't going to find out the sex of the baby. Grrrrr it figures she would prolong my agony.

[Momto3]

Where is Pam????????

[sarahlynn]

Ashley that would wonderful! even if you wanted to ebay them and mention they are for MS Charity...thats a great idea..i never though of ebaying items and listing in them for charity..random items..jewelry and stuff.. :)

well here is what happened last night..for months and month me and matt have had pretty much no sex..its been minimal to say the least..well ihave been dealing with it ok..chalking it up to ms, stress, all the junk going on..well last night i was so excited for him to come home..i bathed ya know shaved so on..i got online and went ot my history to pull of my calorie counter and there are 3 porn pages on there :( now my husband viewing porn ladies does not bother me at all..my husband having nothing to do with mea nd viewing porn makes me very sad :( i just feel so low.my self esteem is crushed..im so unhappy wiht me right now..all i want to do is cry...i brought it up to him..he got defensive..said he hasnt had a sex drive in months .. "so why the porn" said its just avaiable.."IM Available." im always home..so i dont know..i told him i am done i need to figure out how to handle this...i dont want to sound liek a big baby over this..but it really hurts me..when he doesnt even look at me or advance towards me but he is looking at other woman online..if we had a healhty phycial relationship it woulndt bother me..but we dont and we havent in a long time..so i feel cheeted on :(

[newmami]

I was wondering the same Lynn, I know she was expecting snow, so I hope she is at home safe. I emailed her yesterday, but no answer yet :(

Yeah, that is a mature way to handle business :crossed:

Stacy, YAY for a u/s date!! I hope Tara is feeling better... do you have any particular gender you want???

[bel]

Im sorry saratu, I know how much all that crap hurts you :(

[newmami]

Oi Sarah :comfort:
I am so sorry sweetie, I know you have the right to be hurt about this situation and to feel cheated.... I don't know what to say, but Matt is a butt head and he needs to make an effort and understand YOUR feelings, and make an effort to fulfill his "husband duties", for lack of a better term... I am sort on his side, and I give in quite often because I know sex is vital in a marriage....
Can you talk with him and let him know how this makes you feel???

[sarahlynn]

we kinda talked last night..he was more into denying it and saying it wont happen again than explaining to me why NOT ME! ka know.thats waht i want to know..apparently he has needs and desires and some drive or he wouldnt be on porn sites right? i asked him if i made him feel awkward?uncomfortable? if he felt like strings were attached with me? anything to try help me understand and he didnt give me any info back..just got upset and defensive and said he wouldnt do it again..i dont want him to stop **** if thats what makeshim happy so be it..i just have to find out how i can handle it not being me that makes himhappy..that hurts..i dont ever want my husbadnto have sex with me just because i want to..i want him to want it as well..but why porn online and not his wife in real life? what the f u c k s wrong with me ? i dont want ot be at work..im miserable..i feel liek s hit..i was so excited abotu this diet ing thing and feeling better about me and now it all sucks and feels worthless..

im planning a trip to grand forks the end of hte month to visit my GF :( would it be cheeting if i messed around with her :) hey there is no differnce right? he has his porn i have my GF lol

[sja1508]

Oh Sarah, I'm so sorry you are going thru this. I have no words of wisdom for you but you know you aren't going to cheat with your GF. You are way above that. Matt has got to get it in his head somehow that he either has to step up and be a husband or let you go to be happy with someone else. It just makes me so sad that you are trying so hard and he's not even meeting you halfway. Why are men so stupid sometimes? Big hugs to you and you know I'm here for you anytime if you need to talk.

Tara is feeling better. She has her good and bad days but nights are usually bad for her. She gets really carsick so driving home each night is messing with her and she's not good at eating dinner. She's actually lost 15 lbs since she got preggo. She's going thru the normal first time Mom stuff like being worried something is wrong with the baby because she can't feel it move yet. She's just now 16 wks so I keep telling her it will start happening anytime. Tara would really like a girl and I want another boy so we are split on gender. We really just want a healthy baby. There are pluses and minuses to both genders for us. Of course the grandmothers are both praying for a girl they can dress up. LOL!

[sarahlynn]

aww stacy sorry tara is havign rough nights..how about one of those nausea bracelets or strips or whatever they are? might that help her on the drive? im so happy for you both..when do we get baby pics ?

thanks for the shoulder :( i need it..i dont know what to do..im being bad..im thinking screw it if he is going elsewhere to find pleasre than why cant i :( stupid i know i think im thinking that way cause i hurt right now..and i feel bad about me..and want someone to want me..but i know that wouldnt solve anything..but s h it whats gettin solved now..nothing..its been like this for months and months..there is nothing we have nothing right now..we get along fine but there is no closenes and i am one of those types that really wants that in my marriege..honestly ladies at this rate we will have had sex maybe 9 times in a year..maybe..and kissing **** we dont even kiss goodnight or goodbye.. after last night i dont want to even try with him anymore..i dotn want to be the one to make the move

[bel]

IM SO SORRY saratu! you know i mean it :( Im always there if you need to talk :(

[sarahlynn]

:( i know bel..thank god i have you ladies...

[Momto3]

I'm sorry too Sarah. I can only imagine how you feel. Ack! Maybe that is how my DH feels, cept I don't use porn as a replacement for him, I just have no desire.

[lexsmama]

oh sarah, I'm so sorry. I don't have any words of wisdom, but know I'm here for you.

[sarahlynn]

adn than after we talked the jack a s s says "where do you want me to sleep" i said "matt its entirely up to you"

so what does the F uc k wad do? plays halo all night and than sleeps on the couch..thanks hon for trying to fix things :(

[newmami]

Sarah, I am so sorry.
I also think he needs to step up and meet you half way, he needs to make an effort and understand and respect your feelings. PLEASE KNOW IT IS NOT YOU!! you are a beautiful woman and you have been the BEST wife to him, he is just a dink who cannot appreciate that!! :crossed: He is the one making the mistakes, not you, ok dear??

I had my share of fights with DH, but at the end we always sleep on the same bed.... sleeping in the couch when things are rough just make it 10 times worse!!!

I am sorry, but he needs to stop being a selfish prick and start thinking about HIS WIFE.... if he has no interest in making an effort to save the relationship, then he needs to let go, because you deserve better Sarah!!

:grouphug:

[Momto3]

Sarah, I am so sorry.
I also think he needs to step up and meet you half way, he needs to make an effort and understand and respect your feelings. PLEASE KNOW IT IS NOT YOU!! you are a beautiful woman and you have been the BEST wife to him, he is just a dink who cannot appreciate that!! :crossed: He is the one making the mistakes, not you, ok dear??

I had my share of fights with DH, but at the end we always sleep on the same bed.... sleeping in the couch when things are rough just make it 10 times worse!!!

I am sorry, but he needs to stop being a selfish prick and start thinking about HIS WIFE.... if he has no interest in making an effort to save the relationship, then he needs to let go, because you deserve better Sarah!!

:grouphug:

:ita:

[sarahlynn]

:( thanks claudia...last night in all the talking i said "would you be upset if i totaly was not into you and you found out i was looking at other men" and he didnt seem botehred like it wouldnt matter so maybe thats it maybe hejust isnt into me anymore and needs to move on?

im callin right nwo to start counseling for ME..if he wants to make changes he needs to make them i am not his mom..i need to work on me now..make me better :(

[Momto3]

:( thanks claudia...last night in all the talking i said "would you be upset if i totaly was not into you and you found out i was looking at other men" and he didnt seem botehred like it wouldnt matter so maybe thats it maybe hejust isnt into me anymore and needs to move on?

im callin right nwo to start counseling for ME..if he wants to make changes he needs to make them i am not his mom..i need to work on me now..make me better :(


Any man would be lucky to have you just the way you are!

[newmami]

I agree with you Sarah!! you need to work on you, Matt is a grown man and he can fend for himself. I hope Therapy works and you start feeling better about yourself!!!
And like everybody say, it takes 2 to make a relationship work, so if Matt is not willing to help, he needs to make a decision... he cannot have you trapped and feeling like crap like he is now

More HUGS

[lexsmama]

lots of hugs, sarah!

[sarahlynn]

well we exchanged semi-nasty emails :( im so tired of hearing im sorry adn i wont do it again..thats not even the issue...god...its why..why that and not me..????? than he said believe it or not you arent always available..well wtf yeah duh..i work and we have kids..but every f'in night yoiu come home i am there and you sit your ass on the xbox

[Momto3]

Rescue rescue from page 2...


Where the frick is Pam? Did she go off on a honemoon and not tell us?

[bel]

hey Lynn good morning, I went to resque it and forgot once I started looking :shame:

What did your DH say? did he like his new job?

Ill start my diet on march 24, give me some encourage!! please :pray:

[Momto3]

He does like it Bel, thanks for asking. The guy kinda put him in charge at this job site they are just starting. Made him feel good. They kinda threw him into it to see if he would sink or swim. He is confident he can handle it...that is a relief!

All I can tell you about dieting is you will do great. You WILL succeed and any time you may slip off the diet wagon, don't beat yourself up, just get right back on.

Lately DH and I have been craving different stuff (not on our diet). They tell us to go ahead and have them (or we will torture ourselves for a long time) and then get right back on the cleansing phase and back to the regular plan. That way there is no guilt and no vicious cycle of binging and feeling guilty so you binge some more.


Yay Bel!!!

[Momto3]

Sarah - How was your night last night?

Oy! Drama at the teens house! You know everything is so public with all this myspace crap...Some girl posted a message that there was going to be a fight after school today that this girl wants to fight Shelly.:pace: So I called the REsource Officer (police) that is at their school and I want them to handle it. I told him if one hair was out of place on my DD's head I was coming after this girl! Shelly was so upset last night. She's a tough girl on the outside...but she is all talk and really just a scared liuttle girl inside. So Mama had to take charge. No matter how much my kid was involved, I will ALWAYS come to their aid. I just hope I didn't make matters worse.

[newmami]

Hey lovely ladies :hi:
Sarah, I want to strangle your DH, he is so clueless!!! I am so sorry dear, I thought talking with him would help, but obviously he has bigger issues, and doesn't know what to say.... you not being available?? is he for real???
I am with you on the broken promises... last argument I had with Dh I told him that I was done with this issues, things changed or else, so he got the message, and he keeps making sure everything is OK. Again, Matt needs to step out of his funk and be a husband, if not, then he needs to go, because it is not fair for you Sarah!! or for Cy & Lulu, they need a happy mom.

Good luck with your diet Bel, I agree with Lynn, if you feel like eating a chocolate, eat a small one and tame the craving, otherwise you will stuff your mouth the next time.
The one good advise when it comes to diet is to eat less, and start meals with vegetables, as they make you feel full... YOU CAN DO IT!!:thumbsup:

Yay Lynn for Dh's job!!! :yeehaw:

[bel]

mmmgirls this is a sad day for us...10 years since my grandma is gone :( and I still cant get over it :crying:

[lexsmama]

Morning!

Yay for the diet, Bel! You CAN do this! Give in occasionally and have what you want, but be healthy too.

Sarah and Claudia, I'm going to come and kick some hubby arse. These two need some serious wake up calls. lol.

Lynn, that's great that you can cheat a little, get back on the horse, and be okay. I'm so proud of you!

I don't know WHERE Pam is. We at least needed time to get cool dresses and shoes!

Michael stayed home today. I made him. He hadn't slept in days and still couldn't sleep last night. His circadian rhythm's off worse than a newborn. He can only sleep during daylight. Weird. So, I called his supervisor to see if she could help me get a sub for him.

I had a weird, but great dream last night. Lex decided to jump out of his crib and it was sooo much higher than normal. Bel, Stacy, Lynn, Clau, Jenny, Pam, you were all there catching him. I woke up crying. :)

[Momto3]

I had a weird, but great dream last night. Lex decided to jump out of his crib and it was sooo much higher than normal. Bel, Stacy, Lynn, Clau, Jenny, Pam, you were all there catching him. I woke up crying. :)


THAT is so cool! :grouphug:

[without]

Date with Rod went GREAT BTW that was date #5 lol I am having some Rod issues but wont bo into it all. He is a GREAT guy its not him its me!

I am thinking about making a DR appointment. I just wish I knew when in my busy day I have time to go? LOL

[lexsmama]

Pam's alive! Are you alirght? :)

[newmami]

:hi: Hi Pam,are you OK?? this doctor thing, is it a routine thing???? OK NOW I AM WORRIED!!!

Ash, what a cute dream (except the part of Lex falling) I guess that makes us your support group???
Sorry that Michael is not feeling great?? still the Vitamin D issue??
How are you feeling Ash??

Lynn, sorry about the issue with Shelly... I would have done the same thing you did, when it comes to my children, I am overprotective!! I hope it is all talk and that nothing happens... please give Shelly a big hug from me.... what is it with that girl and fighting like a street cat????

[Momto3]

Date with Rod went GREAT BTW that was date #5 lol I am having some Rod issues but wont bo into it all. He is a GREAT guy its not him its me!

I am thinking about making a DR appointment. I just wish I knew when in my busy day I have time to go? LOL


Huh? Wa? You can't just say that and leave us hanging...We're your homegirls...

[newmami]

Bel, sorry about your Grandma... it is always hard to lose someone you love :comfort:

[lexsmama]

Hugs about your grandma, Bel! It's so hard losing someone you love.

I guess it does, Clau! Dh's doing okay. He takes his 2nd dose of vitamin d today (out of 6). Poor guy just needed a day of relaxation.
As for me, I'm alright. I am tired, but I'm managing well. I just had 4 things all on me at once, and it got a little overwhelming, kwim? Cramps, workout pains, allergies, & lack of sleep. I took the day and relaxed. Well, I spent most of it on APA. ;-)

Lynn, you did the right thing with Shelly. You're an awesome mama!

Okay, Pam... spill.

Do I misuse periods? .....

[without]

Bel.. the pain never goes away does it!?! I am sorry for your loss.

I need a DR. appointment because I think I may need to be on meds for depression or some thing. Girls... I am going to tell you this and it may make me the worst mom in the world to you all but I am going to say it. I have found myself wishing that I didn't have to worry about Morgan. I mean had I not had her then I could feel free to end my life and the misery I feel. I love her more than my life and more than words can ever say and would not leave her behind on her own. I would never want her to think that the reason I ended my life was because of her. She is the only reason I make myself get up and go every day. So... if I must walk through life.. I don't want to be able to feel. Maybe the DR. can give me some kind of drug that will help me not feel so much.

[newmami]

OMG PAM!!! sweetie do you need to talk?? do you want me to call you??
I don't know what is going on with you, but I am sure it cannot be that bad.... it may be depression and that is why things look darker.... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE call your Dr ASAP, or I will call him for you!! you need help sweetie!!!

[lexsmama]

OMG, Pam. Sweetie. Call your dr asap, okay? You may be in some serious depression. It can't be as bad as it seems. Let me know if I can do ANYTHING!

[bel]

Pam that´s the reason why Morgan came to your life!! God sent her to you to give you a huge reason to live!
we are here for you sweets!! talk to me when you can!

[bel]

pam this is for you!
http://i99.photobucket.com/albums/l320/Belenbru/emoticons/abrazo-1.gif

[Lillismom]

I just happened to be reading this thread and came across your post Pam. We are all here for you if you need to talk. You need to get to a doctor ASAP. Your words are very deep and very serious. Can you give one of us your number so we can all you? Or maybe we can call the doctor for you?

I agree with Bel. God sent Morgan to you for a reason.

We love you hon, and we are here for you!

[without]

Thanks girls... I called my boss and filled her in a little and told her a tad bit about whats going on. I think she had a clue seeing as how I have missed so much work in the past two months. I tried calling my DR but the phone is busy. I wish I didn't have to work tonight or I would go today! I really don't feel as if I can wait until tomorrow to talk to some one. i should have made this appointment weeks ago.

[sarahlynn]

I need a DR. appointment because I think I may need to be on meds for depression or some thing. Girls... I am going to tell you this and it may make me the worst mom in the world to you all but I am going to say it. I have found myself wishing that I didn't have to worry about Morgan. I mean had I not had her then I could feel free to end my life and the misery I feel. I love her more than my life and more than words can ever say and would not leave her behind on her own. I would never want her to think that the reason I ended my life was because of her. She is the only reason I make myself get up and go every day. So... if I must walk through life.. I don't want to be able to feel. Maybe the DR. can give me some kind of drug that will help me not feel so much.

well i will offer you lots of hugs..matts BF commited suicide and left a little girl without her daddy..

like i say to matt..you can feel sad for the loss of your friend..but feel worse for that little girl who lost her dad.. he was selfish..cowardly..and weak and had no regard for that childs life..

once you have kids you haev no choice but to go on..for them.

yoru not weak..your strong..get help, meds, counseling whatever and do what you need to do to be there for your daughter..today and tomarow and when she gets older

[Lillismom]

Thanks girls... I called my boss and filled her in a little and told her a tad bit about whats going on. I think she had a clue seeing as how I have missed so much work in the past two months. I tried calling my DR but the phone is busy. I wish I didn't have to work tonight or I would go today! I really don't feel as if I can wait until tomorrow to talk to some one. i should have made this appointment weeks ago.

How can we help you? Can you talk to one of us? Or all of us here? We are all here for you, please, just talk to us. Can you call someone else Pam? I'm really worried about you! God, I wish I was closer to you.

[sarahlynn]

Thanks girls... I called my boss and filled her in a little and told her a tad bit about whats going on. I think she had a clue seeing as how I have missed so much work in the past two months. I tried calling my DR but the phone is busy. I wish I didn't have to work tonight or I would go today! I really don't feel as if I can wait until tomorrow to talk to some one. i should have made this appointment weeks ago.

hospitals have staff on hand.. if things are as serious as you state...you need to go there asap and tell them you need to talk to someone..they have social workers, psychologist, psychiatrists...all at yoru hands..just walk in..dont wait for someone to pick up a phone..ok hun

[Lillismom]

Pam, keep talking to us okay? Just let us know you are okay!

[without]

Thanks so much I have Claudia's number and can talk to her. :)

And Sarah.. your right! But at the same time when a person is in this state they are weak and they just don't think clear.

Thats why I am trying to get help

[Lillismom]

I think you are very strong for confiding in us, and I'm so proud of you for recognizing that you need help. You ARE strong and you WILL get through this! And, we are going to be here for you. If you want to talk, please PM me your number or i'll PM you mine and you can call me at whatever time it is, no matter what!

[lexsmama]

You can do this, Pam. I know you can. You are strong. Dang, I wish I were closer. Just please go talk to someone, okay?

[without]

I made a Dr. appointment for tomorrow at 10:15. Its not with my normal DR but I think thats a good thing. I really don't think the guy I talked to last time was really understanding how bad this is. Girls please don't fear I would take my own life. I wouldn't do that for Morgan sake. Bel.. is right... thats why after 3 years of trying God gave me Morgan. He knew this time in my life would come and that I would need a line to hold on to. She is my life line and my world. I would never do any thing that may hurt her.

Honest time.... I realized... Grant will be getting out in about a year! Girls.. I am scared to death of him getting out. He has such a mental control over me. If I am not stable by then who knows what I could be talked into out of shear lonly ness

[newmami]

Ladies, just to give you peace of mind, I am talking to Pam via email, and she has all my numbers... I am making sure she is ok, and pushing her to go to the doctor ASAP!!

ETA:Obviously Pam was faster than I was.... sorry!!!:shame:

So Pam, that means I have less than a year to move to TN????? :silly: don't worry sweetie, you will be fine in couple of months, and once Grant is out you would not have anything to worry about!!:hugs:

[lexsmama]

Okay, thanks for letting us know Clau.

[sarahlynn]

PAM I LOVE YOU!!! ive been there..when i was younger and prayed each night before bed..i prayed not to wake up the next morning...ive been through shti times...YOU ARE STRONG..i alway sthink of the babies..i didnt mean to sound harsh so im very sorry..i dont want her to not have you .. your her everything..im so glad you got help..keep us posted alll day on how your doing..

[without]

Thats ok Sarah! :)

OK girls.. I emailed Claudia about this but maybe you will have some ideas to help. I work in mental health so I know if I were to go in and tell my DR what I just told you they would have me committed in a heart beat! How do I let my DR know how bad this is without getting myself committed?

[newmami]

I emailed you Pam!!!

[lexsmama]

Tell him you're having serious bouts of depression and that you think you may need some medications and a talk therapy. It's a nice way of saying I'm having issues, please don't toss me in the hospital.

[Momto3]

Pam - I just caught up in reading. I agree with all these ladies. You WILL be strong before Grant gets out. He has and will have NO power over you. He is a horrible monster that did horrible things. Morgan is the sun light of your day and every day you wake up you thank God that he brought her to you and that you did wake up to care for her anothre day.

I know you are religious...what about talking to someone at church? A pastor maybe?

[newmami]

Besides, you are still working, and taking care of Morgan, and living a "normal" life (is there normal when you have a toddler??), that proves that you don't need to be commited, just some help

I agree on the Talk therapy as well!!!

[lexsmama]

I have an AMAZIGN therapist here. I wish you were closer. BIG BIG hugs!

[without]

I was talking a little to the pastors wife but.. the pastors dad just died so I have been a little on my own the last week and a half. The death of our pastors dad hit me harder than I thought it would. I sat behind him in church for 3 years. He was so sweet! I went to his funeral yesterday when they opened his casket...he looked gray! It was awful!

[sarahlynn]

hey PAM!! i just thougth..me and you are going to counselors tomarow :) i made a step last ni ght to call one..welll do this together...wel'll be normal in no time :) ok maybe not


(((((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))))

[Momto3]

counseling buddies! Great idea!

[newmami]

:chinscratch: hmm, I am getting jealous now... maybe I should jump on the therapist bandwagon, so I can be part of the counseling buddies :buddies:
Nothing like knowing you are not doing this alone!!!

[lexsmama]

:chinscratch: Nothing like knowing you are not doing this alone!!!

Nope, never! :hugs:

[Momto3]

:chinscratch: Nothing like knowing you are not doing this alone!!!


Absolutely! No matter what...you guys are never alone!

[Momto3]

So Pam...tell us about date #5 (how the heck did you get to 5 already?!!!)

[lexsmama]

Girls, I feel icky again, and I have a luncheon at 11:30. Should I just go home after it? I've never felt this way becasue of af before. Well, not since I started the patch anyway.

Sarah, I replied to your post in random. I see an LPC. Do you have any there?

[without]

Well... I kind'a stopped talking about Rod because my ups and downs of dating seem to be so many and thats part of the cazy ness thats going on in my head not him. He used the "L" word. LOL and really wants to be a part of my life. The thing is he is very slow to take down walls for me. I have yet to go to his house met his friends or family but he keeps asking to meet mine. He talks about us like we will be together forever (a little soon for that but oh well) but at the same time isn't leting me into his life. I think he just feels like he has to much going on to let someone in. He has asked me to let him go slow and I agree with that but... at the same time I am longing to see the town he lives in and where and how he lives. I don't care about the size of his house or bank account but it does tell you a lot about the person when you just see the things they have in there house.

[lexsmama]

I understand the not letting into his life thing, Pam. Michael didn't want anyone to know that he bought a house at 21 (huge at that,) so he rarely let anyone over. It took forever, but DID finally let me in. It'll happen, I promise!

[without]

Thanks! That makes me feel much much better! Deep inside I think its because he LOVES the way I live. He tells me all the time how my house is a home and cozy. I think he fears if I saw how much money he has and his houses I would want to live there instead of him living with me (if it ever went that far). I just have to give him time to see... I love living simple and I love my home and do not want to live it any time soon! I am not about the money it won't make you happy. But... I have to give him time to see that I really feel that way and its not just words. I bet he has met a lot of females that only wanted to date him for his money.

[sarahlynn]

Sarah, I replied to your post in random. I see an LPC. Do you have any there?

i looked and didnt have much luck
why does the whole social worker word make me nervous

ugh

[without]

I don't blame you Sarah! The SW would make me scared! I am sure they are great but I think about there lack of education and the fact that Grant was a SW'er. I am sure it will be OK. You can always go once and if it doesn't feel right change after that. It won't hurt any thing to give it a try. :)

[sarahlynn]

i know what is that stigma with "social worker" just the word make sme go hmm

i mean for christs sake i have a bach in human services so i know its coolbut i want a counselor somewhere that i cna lay on the couch adn cry and spill my ever lovin guts lol

[without]

true... but I have to tell myself that in the end it really just has to be some one you can feel comfortable enough to spill your guts too. I hope it all goes well for you tomorrow and makes you feel better to be able to talk to someone about all the things running around in your head. I know it helped me when I had some one to talk to. :)

[newmami]

I hope it helps you to talk to the SW Sarah!!
I went to a Counselor when I admitted PPD... she was a horrible woman who did NOTHING for me, except telling me the same thing my mom did (and she only has a bachelors in Chemistry), so I never went back....

I always encourage talking therapy, but I have not been successful at it... I have waaaaay to many issues, and one of the worse ones is sharing with strangers what I REALLY feel (except you guys, but you are not strangers, right???)

[Momto3]

I bet he has met a lot of females that only wanted to date him for his money.


Are you sure he lives the life style you are thinking? Maybe he is embarrased to show you the way he lives.

[sarahlynn]

i tried my hardest to find a hot young stud counselor but had not luck

[without]

Well... he has been open about how much he paid for his house. 285,000 and I can tell by the car that it wasn't cheap. It starts on its own and has more gadgets than the kit car! It talks to him every time he gets in. LOL

I just keep telling him when he brings up money that I don't care. As long as he isn't lazy and sitting on his butt all day I don't care. I make it just fine on the paycheck I make so any thing he brings in will just be bonus! LOL

[sarahlynn]

can i have the rest of the $ the leftovers pam :)

[newmami]

Maybe he is not the best house husband and he is afraid of his pig sty!! or maybe he has the typical single man house and really likes your house because it is homey.... anyways, just let him know how you feel and how at some point you would love to see his house!!!

THIS



DAY



IS



DRAAAAGING


ARGH!!!

[sarahlynn]

it reallly is draggin, me and a coworker were just commenting on how our clock seems to be stuck today and not moving..

[without]

I know I don't think this day is ever going to end.

[Jenny]

I'm just popping in to say hi and to give you all big cyber hugs. I miss chatting with you all.

It's pouring rain here now. I wasn't expecting any rain. Is it raining over by you Claudia?

[sarahlynn]

I'm just popping in to say hi and to give you all big cyber hugs. I miss chatting with you all.

It's pouring rain here now. I wasn't expecting any rain. Is it raining over by you Claudia?

where have you been mama of 3 ?

[Jenny]

where have you been mama of 3 ?


I pulled the girls out of afternoon preschool, so I've been doing things with them after school, and shopping a ton with Ronin in the mornings and my bff, her dd goes to school with Haley and her son is Ronin's age. So we've been hanging out a lot. And I have so much schoolwork...it's insane. It's a good thing I am a good multi-tasker and kick as3 student and an amazing mama :wink:

[newmami]

I don't see any rain here, but I am far from windows.... it looks clear for now

I am hungry and I want CALORIES!!! tell me the pear in my lunchbox is the best option right now

[Momto3]

The pear in your lunch box is your ONLY option right now!

Oh and its as dark as night here. Gonna rain or is raining...big time!

[sarahlynn]

man claudia i feel ya..

i had a turkey bologna samich adn fruit for lunch and i am starving..it is takin everything out of me not to go get more food next door at the gas station

[sarahlynn]

night see you guys i the morning..

[bel]

It is FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!! :celebrate:

[Momto3]

Happy Friday Ladies!!!!! Don't forget to turn your clocks ahead this Saturday night! Seems so early.

[lexsmama]

Happy Friday!!!

I had a luncheon yesterday that drug like you wouldn't believe. This one lady kept asking questions that didn't even pertain to her grant. Women. lol. After that, I went home. I spent a few with Michael and then went to get lex.

Sorry you couldn't find a counselor Sarah. We have a billion here, and I'll be one. lol. I hope you girls have great days at your therapists today! One giant leap forward!

[bel]

ugh! lynn let me know about changes, more or less apa hours?? we change hours I think the last sunday of march :chinscratch: Im not sure

[bel]

ash I miss you :(

[lexsmama]

Sorry! I'm here- with NOTHING to do today! Woo hoo!

[Momto3]

One giant leap forward!

You didn't say "Mother may I..." :biggrin:

[lexsmama]

:lol:Oops! I guess I have to go back, don't I? NOW you have the Backyardigans stuck in my head...

I brought my co-worker coffee today. It's snow flurrying outside!

[bel]

Sorry! I'm here- with NOTHING to do today! Woo hoo!

good for us! :P

[lexsmama]

OMG! THere's a blizzard outside! Lol. It's supposed to give us 2 inches today! I wanna go get lex.

[without]

We were supposed to get 7 inches of snow and got nada! Ugh!

I am going to be here until 9:15 then its off to the DR at 10:15. After that I am picking Morgan up from Ms. Jeannies early and bring her back to work with me! So NO work will get done today.

[lexsmama]

I just got a phone call that I left lex's sippy. He won't drink out of a normal sippy for ANYthing. I guess I'll be back.

Plus, I have to meet with Accts Payable at 10. urgh

[newmami]

Hey ladies, IT IS FRIDAY!!! :dance:
Those on the nasty weather, please take care!! I heard it is snowing in Dallas...
In here it is 85F and windy, but the cold front is moving and will hit tonight, with tons of rain...great.......

Another day at the reception desk, playing name that tune with the Muzak.... I have nothing to do, so I am looking for a cleaning person in craigslist and working on growing charts I am FINALLY going to make for my kiddies

Good luck Sarah and Pam with your appointments today, hope this is the first big step to feeling better!!! remember you are not dealing with this alone, you have us supporting you :grouphug:

The office smells like chocolate cake.... EVIL!!!:wtf:

[bel]

mmmm what would I give for a chocolate right now!!! yum! or a big mac lol

[Heather J]

We're supposed to get 10-12 inches of snow by tomorrow. Ugh! I want spring!!!

[newmami]

COME TO FLORIDA, WE HAVE SPRING!!! (and tons of summer!!!)